KrizSummer

This 'waiting' game makes me realize that some things are really out of our control, and we are humbled down that our future will always be in God's hands. I rely on His mercy and Grace each and everyday.

Last night, I slept around 2AM and I woke up at 10AM, ate around 1PM and the cycle goes on...Lol.

I have been praying for my license since I was in MedSchool, and what joy will that be if God will give it to me soon. If there is one thing that I learned from all that I went thru in life, it is the truth that God will always be in control. And even if how much we plan our lives, the final decision is still in His hands.

I lift up all my worries, burdens and anxieties to Him. He knows what's ahead. I just have to put my trust on Him fully.

What is my only comfort in life and in death? That I am not my own (cf. Heidelberg Catechism), and thus, whatever God wills in my life, it is for my own good. ❤

Got so inspired by 'the lakes' by @taylorswift that I was able to write this poem in the middle of the night. 💛

FULL POEM:

We were walking down the lakes

When you asked me what it takes

For me to hold your hand til the end

To heal my heart no one could mend

I smiled while falling into your eyes

I whispered, ''You are an angel in disguise'

Your soft hands, I will forever hold 

Let me keep in a bottle those stories never told

You are serenity in a rustling uncertainty

The oasis to a desert of calamities

A paradise down the deadly abyss

Loving you for years is such a bliss

You helped me fix everything that was broken

Killed the storm and painted the skies golden

So at the lakes I held your cozy hands

For this love we have is not a sinking sand.

Kids, Mama is not yet licensed that time. 😂 Our exam went down to history as the longest delay in Physician Licensure Exam in the Philippines. Medically speaking, I was the most 'useless' Medical Graduate during that time because I don't know my role. I lived in a city (which is in Visayas) where I am not affiliated to any hospitals. I was a Graduate of a Medical School from Luzon and had my Internship in Mindanao. San po ako lulugar? Haha.

FULL POEM:

You are not just another male muse

You don't give me a bowl of rage

An oasis in the driest land on earth

A serene, otherworldly state of grace

For years I have written eulogies

To lovers that were never mine

Buried the living with the use of my pen

And built an abyss inside my mind

I was helpless and inconsolable

A prisoner of my very own despair

But you came with a torch in the tunnel

And gave my world an unrelenting glare

You are serenity in a world full of chaos

A lovely poem waiting to be written down

A golden bridge to another dimension

Where words of gladness can be found

But this abyss I have built for years

Won't die down in a blink of an eye

So I asked for a dreadful moment of silence

Yet hoping what's meant won't pass us by