Empty Canvas

when I created this blog I had zero followers now everyday I’m getting more followers. I do not know how many of you are going through a heartbreak but I just want you to know. ITS GETS SOOOOO MUCH BETTER. TRUST ME YOU WILL DEFINITELY MOVE ON FROM THIS. 

I put off romance movies for so long because it hurt watching people fall in love when my heart was broken. But today I watched Letters to Juliet on Netflix. And I remember when I was in high school watching it, thinking I could not wait until I found a love like that. Then I grew up to realize love like that rarely rarely exists. It is hard to find genuine people who passionately love you. And I think I have to come accept that fact. Maybe I am just being pessimistic. 

I think the worse thing is when you’re feeling sad, hurt or angry. And everyone around you says oh you will be okay. But you want to be okay like right now. it is true you will be okay. You will definitely be better than you are now. do you forget what the other person did to you? nope. It does not automatically come out of your memory. But it does not have  an affect on you like it did before. It it such a journey to heal. It is not easy but it is worth it. In the end you will come out so much greater. You will discover new things bout yourself. You will enjoy being alone. Then maybe one day you wake up sad thinking aboutt that person. But the difference between then and now is that you keep moving. You don’t allow it to have a huge impact on your life. You will be okay :D. 

The Cinematic Orchestra - To Build A Home 

I am here to tell you that the healing process is so messy. So do not beat up yourself mentally for slipping. IT is okay to have days where you felt like you could have done better. But if you take a look at where you were and where you are not I am sure the difference is huge. You do not wake up and just automatically change. Change takes time also trial and error.  If one day you suddenly feel sad about your ex, it is alright. It is to recognise that you were once in love with someone who did not feel the same way. Realise that you have loved and one day you will love someone so genuinely like you that before. OR you will put all the love into yourself and your own life. I think it is important not to be to hard on ourselves. After all we are just trying to live a life of happiness. Do not be hard on yourself. IF you have fail then get right back up. And if you fall again get right back up. Even if there are tears in your eyes along the way. Cry it out! This world is a tough place and so many people are mean to  each other and in the end we have to try not to allow that hurt to turn into negative people.  Ask God for strength and guidance. Ask him to help you along the way. Because you need Him.