I cant do it i cant think about this scene for too long or else i start convulsing
>the first time you feel at peace in your father's presence is when he is not your father.
>your presence is what makes him become your father, what makes him become cruel.
>just before this, you have been forcibly detransitioned from a form you chose for yourself to that you have always been, that of your father's creation.
>a return to form which denies you the agency of even having a voice let alone deciding how you look is the only way for both of you to exist at once.
>beaten and battered, you will always return to your father. Because that is what he demands of you.
