weird about cats

Sometimes I really can't help but feel like I'll never be satisfied in this life. I feel like it's going to pass me by with no significance or great meaning. Growing up I always wanted to be someone. I still want to be someone. But I don't think I'll ever be the person I want to be. I don't feel like I'll ever get where I want this life to go. I think books and television can be a necessary escape sometimes but when you become too invested in temporary characters, your sense of what reality should and shouldn't be becomes skewed. I don't know if anyone feels the same way. I think I see these lives I could only dream of living. Things that aren't real. You see this perfectly funny family's or romances with just the right amount of drama or groups of friends that fit each other so well and you think for a second that this has to be made from something but all it is is made up. Life isn't anything like the movies or tv shows we watch or books we read. Life isn't a sitcom or a saga or a romantic comedy. I feel so foolish and stupid letting things that aren't really real affect me so much but when so much time is spent invested into things you can't help but wonder over and over and over again, why isn't my life like that, why isn't my love that passionate, why don't I have friends like that, why can't I be as pretty, what can't I be as successful, why isn't life how you want it. I feel so stupid. I think how I want my life to be will always weigh down how my life really is. I'm creating the problem all on my own. I can't help it though. I will never be the person I envision myself ever being. I know my life will pass by as a mediocre existence but I know people will love me and I'll love people. But what if to love and be loved's not enough (this is from a song). I want more than anything to be happy with all the blessing I've gotten in life because I know the life I'm living is far better than so many people. I feel bad taking what I have for granted. I just can't help thinking and feeling like it's all so insignificant.