one sky, one destiny

So...I just...wanted to say sorry for pretty much disappearing from this account! It was never ever intended. As you may or may not have noticed, my general activity level died in December. Real life whooped my butt and didn't calm down until early to mid January? So there was real life, and then...the introduction of my new muse. Basically, I got really caught up in my new muse, which you may or may not be able to tell who it is based on my theme, eheh. I basically just was overcome by the novelty of throwing myself back into one of my favorite childhood games, Kingdom Hearts. I also became apart of a group which sort of never even kicked off the ground?? It really did have promise but sadly they closed down, and without ever even coming alive if I might add.

Like, I actually was inspired by the group to pick up Kairi? But then the group's mods sort of vanished, and went on an unannounced hiatus. I waited for them to return like Kairi waits for Sora and lo and behold I was super scared I'd lose a muse before she even was given the chance to blossom! So I ended up getting involved with the fandom and needless to say it was a super wonderful and positive experience for me. Basically, if it was not for the KH/FF fandom? I don't know if I'd have regained the courage to ever seek out interactions with others or put my muse out there again. I have had nothing but warm reception and love. Probably one of the best things to ever happen to me was befriending the other muns behind Kairi. Oh, gosh, I was so scared to meet and talk to any of them, but I did it and now I'm good acquaintances with just about them all and personal friends with at least two. c: It's sooo nice, you guys don't understand!

Well anyway my account kind of got more popular than I expected so there was a period of a little stress there, a big reason too because of the group FINALLY deciding to come back. Well by then, I had lots of partners. I fretted quite a bunch over whether I could stay in the group and actually participate OR leave and still drop a few threads.

Funnily enough when I decided to part ways with the group, and send in a message to say farewell, they decided to close down. It was sad, because I'd actually planned to either bring in Katara or Zuko at a later point??? I didn't have anything against the group after all! I just knew I couldn't keep Kairi there and not go bonkers. Ah, well...they had to do what was best for them. Right now I'm trying to decide how to work out "officials" and all that because I have an official Riku and Sora but then I am trying to decide about others and how I will decide who I RP with etc it probably doesn't make sense and I could even make a separate post about that if I wanted but ummm...yeah so basically I was swept up by my new muse, the fandom she's in, and was addicted to the feeling of being genuinely welcomed and not feeling unsafe or secretly/not so secretly hated. I'm sorry for letting this blog go inactive! It was never my intention at all. ;;

It was just so, so nice. It still is. I only hope and pray it stays this way. I think it will. The KH/FF fandom is just...special to me, not perfect, but special; no fandom honestly is even perfect or without its flaws you know? But this one as a whole is the one I felt the most like I fit into! And I've been in a couple fandoms, huge ones, to smaller ones. Just none that I felt I vibed with so well as the KH one.^^ And like, don't get me wrong, I did make friends from other fandoms who I even still talk to, and am being followed by here, and vice versa, but...it's not the same as feeling you are apart of something overall, or you belong? Oh, and by the way, I picked back up Kagome and moved her to a main blog with the same url as before --- overcomingtime! So she isn't dead, just moved. c: I'm worried I'll end up dealing with drama again there, but um...going to stay optimistic and hope I don't get bothered again by haters.

I can always block/turn off anon if worse comes to worst, right? >< *crosses fingers* I really don't want to deal with what I did on spiritedpriestess or itskagome though. :c It was too much then. I don't want it again when all I'm doing on my new Kagome account is trying to have fun and stay to myself.