huh? huh?

imma head out tho 🚪🫶🏽

First of all, you don’t have to worry about me mutating into an anti, i have no desire to sow misery!

I just don’t want to leave the party without saying goodbye! 🥹💞

As for explanation, I’m really sensitive to antiblackness. I live in a racist country that piles ailments on me. If I’m choosing to give time, money, care, n love in a space, I NEED to know the space condemns antiblackness. It’s a priority for my health and wellness

If a concern for antiblackness has not been addressed and condemned, I don’t feel secure in the space.

And I have not seen messages in this space that reassure me, which has since taken the wind out of my sails

Also, the lens of how I analyzed the media was under an impression that the material is written through a carefully considered intersectional, queer perspective. This was the main selling point for me personally, but I’m not certain if my perception was accurate

Which is ok btw! The artists should be able to do as they please, it is art! And I don’t mind being wrong about something lol, that’s life. It could be that my first impression is actually correct, but the uncertainty is too troublesome for me to contend with

So, I haven’t been inspired to draw anything. All I do is seek joy in my time off of work. If I can’t find it in one place, I try to find it elsewhere. Simple as that. Honestly, idk for sure if that loss of enthusiasm is permanent, I just know how I feel now.

And my heart doesn’t beat the way it used to.

Thank you to all the kind people who have shown my fanart love over the years! And I hope everyone continues to have fun! I hope Spindlehorse continues to make queer art that can thrive. I know the Hellaverse is such a special place, and a project filled with love and talent.

N I won’t delete anything so don’t worry if u wanted to see any of the fanart I’ve made. Everything I’ve done was done with love, so I don’t regret a thing 💝 This can be an archive ☺️ I also made xfolios recently, some of my faves are collected in an orderly fashion there.

To the friends I’ve made thanks to this community; I LOVE & SUPPORT YOU~ 🥰 let’s keep in touch!

Thank you so much to fellow fans who have said such kind things to me n about my fanart 🥹💞 & to my generous tippers! 😭🫶🏽

Thank you to all the artists making such great work that had lit a fire within me ❤️‍🔥

Lastly, I hope Black folks can find a soft place to land in fandom spaces. I’d encourage everyone who enjoys these spaces to do what they can to make that happen. If u don’t know where to start, I’d suggest research

Thank you again, this was a beautiful experience 💗

Love,