to hold space is to exist.

and by me i mean we and by we i mean myself

as like a whole or whatever

im not sure where to start moving

i feel like we aren’t stable or consistent enough to run a blog like this

hell, we aren’t even on tumblr like that anymore. 

everything on this blog is well, old. not old, in like, it’s old in age but. every idea is, well, done.

the original comic is kinda funny, but nobody saw it. plus, like all three of the headmates mentioned are like,,, they dont front anymore. 

im not quite sure what to say about pawn’s art—  nobody really saw it anyways. and katsuki’s vent art was okay, but he’s never drawing like that again. it’s just, not his artstyle. 

hell, the way we tried to draw for this blog wasnt our artstyle. 

and im thinking about why we created this blog. for the views, mainly.

i know what you’re thinking. we aren’t faking being a *system.* that’s different. what i mean is that we want someone to see our work, and enjoy it. 

we want the drama, the highs and lows of being someone that others look forward to seeing. even if we had to make our dull and boring life interesting.

life has been on a downward spiral for us. especially since our re-syscovery. it’s sucked so much. and we’ll be an adult soon. we want to be someone special, do something— even if it is in the niche corners of the internet where it’s not relavant and wont be as the internet moves on.

everyone wants to be famous, right? dopamine for the attention, the highs and the lows of being an artist, a writer, something. whatever the internet wants us to be. 

its just we can’t be. because we procrastinate. we don’t push forward. we can’t draw. we can’t write. we’re not smart.

not as much as we used to be, anyways. 

the internet moves on too anyways. but i can make every excuse in the world, but i know we just. aren’t good enough.

— static / yellow or whatever they were gonna call me. its 4am.

i thought if share shit i did. based off @thesolar-system + @nova-constellation (sorry for the tags)