in my experience, being black and transmasc but embracing aspects of femininity that I thought I couldn't feel is so freeing after being hyper-masculinized my whole life. I knew I was a boy but I was scared to be a guy in a specific manner because I thought I had to perform masculinity to its ultimate peak. but then i said "fuck it we ball" and decided to be transgender in my own way.
being black and trans is kinda complicated especially when non black queers actively exclude or don't wanna listen to your nuanced experiences when it comes to bigotry from them. but in the end, fuck it we ball.
like, there are aspects of myself in dysphoric over, but at the same time there are aspects of my gender experience that was heavily racialized so embracing stuff that breaks that oppressive norm is so goddamn relieving.
