What a great show. Another stunning act of bullshit to ruin my future, life, and reputation. And all for a lie I made up to make myself feel something when nothing actually ever happened. I forever lost someone that I admitted the truth to, and still wouldn't believe me. I could of said and done the lowest thing but I never did anything. Honestly if I weren't me, I wouldn't believe me either. I don't even love myself. The person I was honest to, doesn't give a damn about me. All because of an act of pretending to be proud of something that absolutely never happened to some bullshit bitch who isn't even my friend because girls make up drama and I was as cheap for being some fake hoe I never am. Who am I kidding I don't even fit in with girls. I don't even like to fit in with any guy for that matter. I just need to be alone. I regret everything 4 years ago. I should of left the first day because no one will ever believe my words. For the first time in my life I've been faithful to someone who I wasn't even with anymore. Guess the words that came out of my mouth made him decide I need help and self therapy. Haha. My mom thinks I'm abnormal. So does my dad. I honestly thought there was a little faith in all this. I've been abandoned and left without words coming from my mouth but coming from my asshole because the bullshit I said was. Ha. Really just not worth it. Why fuck anybody if life already fucks me over a thousand times a day hoping for a little miracle. I'll leave. Because everybody knows I'm useless here. I just get myself into a mess that becomes unnecessary and irrelevant and false. Ya sure God help me, just please God help me to die I don't care anymore. I'm not wanted. Not appreciated. Not believed. Just a Blab mouth. A show-off with false information.