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breakfasts in the dining hall are my weakness. the eggs are gross, so i end up eatibg the bacon and pancakes and muffins and soo many carbs. today they had mini croissants which are my weakness. from now on on my non-fasting days maybe i should skip breakfast because im worried that im eatibg so much that its counteracting my fasting days anyway

a little worried body has entered "starvation mode" and will hold on to fat instead of shedding it, but i guess we'll see. at this point im just kinda desperate.

-practice self acceptance and love

I am 18 years old and over 300 pounds. 5'8.5". Major Depression and General Anxiety. Tired all the time. Hypertension, prediabetes, high cholesterol. Poor and stressed about paying for college. I can't afford a diet coach or Atkins or Weight Watchers. I live in a dorm without a kitchen, and I'm on a pre-paid dining plan that would be wasteful if I didn't use. I am clumsy because there is just so much mass attatched to my frame that I can't keep myself from knocking stuff over. I have, in the past, tried: weight watchers, vegetarian, vegan, paleo, keto, myfitnesspal, and just plain old counting calories. I failed to stick to any of these, except for the ones that didnt help me lose weight anyway. I have given up hope and I'm beginning to think I don't deserve to look good or be healthy. I'm suicidal. I need help. I am stuck on what to do next. Where do I go from here? Am I unworthy to be anything more than the butt of a joke? Please, help me. What diets or exercises or lifestyle changes have actually worked for you? How do you not give up hope or lose motivation?

scrambled eggs, blueberry pancake, turkey sausage, diet pepsi.

Because I forgot to take a picture of mine before I ate it.

Chocolate peanut butter quest bar. Sooo much protein.

Unsweetened iced coffee with milk.