I said fuck that and finished up the room I was cleaning and will have to come back tomorrow after work.

Guess we're finding out whether we'll have positions past the end of the year tomorrow.

Honestly not sure whether it'll be good or bad news. My pessimistic side that's seen so many horror stories on social media and from some of my older past coworkers has me doubting it's good. But then again why would the general manager of the account actually fly out for bad news instead of just doing a meeting? (The answer is probably that he's actually a somewhat decent person from when I've interacted with him last time he visited the site when prepping for the whole contract renewal thing)

There's a gauntlet of reactions:

The one coworker who's not my boss who's also older than me is entirely pessimistic. Understandable.

The new hire is mostly shrugging her shoulders and if we don't get the renewal she's going to take it as a sign to move to another city and experience something new. I get the feeling, I was like that back then too (she's 24-25).

I can't get a read on the two coworkers who are men. I think they're a regular amount of anxious that comes with the whole contract renewal process and how little power us at the bottom have. But ultimately they're both pragmatic and probably would see if they could get hired on to the other company's team if we don't get the renewal or transfer to a different account in the area.

The women coworkers who do the other role at the sites are the normal amount of nervous from what I can see. One is currently having the company pay for her MBA so her top priority if we lose the renewal would probably be to transfer to a different account that we support. Not sure of the logistics on that one. The other one I don't know very well since she's at the other site but she's good at her job and would probably also look for a transfer.

My boss is very anxious but is putting up a brave front. I get it, this region is kind of her entire creation that she finally has fully staffed and starting to smooth out all the bumps that came when our client moved their employees from another site to the New England region.

My coworker in my position is anxiety incarnate about this. Honestly she cares too much and I hope she's stable enough in the head to not take it personally if we don't get the renewal. I've been in a similar position before and it drove me to some of the worst months of my life from the immense damage I inflicted upon myself because I took everything like it was a blight against my entire self image. It's not a fun thing to witness from the other side, but I'm trying not to let projection distort my view. But yeah it's a bit insufferable, and I know she means well, but my god it's a lot.

As for me? Honestly good riddance. I like this job better than the last (mostly because everyone on the team is easy to get along with), but I think I need to find a job that isn't customer service. Or at least one where I either actually have power to do the things I need to do (including telling people to fuck off with the ridiculous requests) or be able to reduce my working hours. I can't keep doing this for 40 hours a week. But ideally it needs to be something that isn't customer service. I'm so drained every day due to having to interact with so many people on top of having to go on site every day. But on the other hand, I kind of need a steady income right now. What a horrible cycle to be trapped in.