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I've been to dutchbros with my friends except they're the drivers and they just merge in without any issues. So, when I first started to go to Dutchbros, I just do a zig zag by letting 1 car in. I do this every couple of months since I don't go there but I've always had a positive experience. And if the other person isn't pulling in, I pull in instead.

Today, the barista told me to merge with the black car next to me. I say oki sounds good. I've been there before the black car but I figured I should let the black car merge. But they weren't merging or looking at me.

So, I start thinking, "Maybe the Barista meant merge in front?..."

And so, I slowly merge in front. Waiting for somebody to honk or look at me weird. Nothing's happening.

I pressed my breaks and waited. The black car just follows behind, blowing smoke.

I checked my rear view mirrors and then the same barista 2 cars down gave me the dirtiest look known to mankind cuz she's probably like, "I just told this fucking bitch." And that's when I realized "I FUCKED UP OML"

I felt so much embarrassment. I saw her go back inside the shop and I was too scared to look. Once I was 100% sure I accidentally cut in line and she probably has to tell the others that my order is next or smth, I felt so bad. I got to the window, nobody is looking. I just knew it was cuz I messed up their order queue and when the male barista turns to look at me, he looked really confused. I told him "I'm so sorry I think I might of accidentally cut in line." and he widen his eyes like, "YOU CUT?!!" And I was so deadass embarrassed, bruh. And so I profusely apologized. "I'm so sorry. I don't know- I don't know what happened honestly. I'm sorry." And he just asked, "... What did you order again?" I told him my drink and he just hands it to me and I thanked him.

I had a friend who loved to hear the stories I write at work and the art I create. But I only showed her the finished product.

I started a new writing project back in January this year (2026) and it was such a fun project because nobody was watching.

I was writing these at work and I ended up accidentally writing 40 pages in a few months. Lowkey just dropping whatever comes out of my brain but I felt like I was watching a tv show in the exact humor and quality that I personally want. This friend asked me if I had started any projects and I told her about it in March. And she was so enthusiastic and even asked to read it. I told her, nah cuz it's all handwritten and she would not be able to read my handwriting (i wrote it in super tiny font and made it messy on purpose so people at work won't grab and read it instantly)

I did begin to vocally summarizing the first half of the story while reminding that it's horrible rn because it's a first draft so plz don't judge. And honestly, I wasn't looking for any critique. She told me she wasn't going to, she just wanted to hear what I wrote.

BUT OH-- She started critiquing the restaurant scene, the waiter scene, the male lead, the main character, and saying "well, instead of him being a conartist, why not make him a burgler?" and I was like breh.

And she kept asking about the character's background which I gave and she kept interrupting me and saying, "ugh, he sucks."

Anyhow, it ruined my fun on writing that story now and everytime I attempt to write it, I hear her voice, "ugh, he sucks." and now everything sucks T_T

I lowkey distant myself from that friend even though she keeps asking me about my projects and I'm like "eh, nothing much."

In the future, I definitely won't tell anybody my drafts. Cuz it ruins my joy of writing that story and now I just wanna scrap everything and start over.

Like sure, Maribel, yell at me all you want but I dont make the rules. I ain't the corportate. I don't got power over that. I just listen to the boss. I wanna write a bad review of how horrible this customer is to workers. And I wish I could just refuse service.

Your words matter just as much as others. You don't say anything that hurts others. You just wanted to get to know others.

You are still a good person to be around. There are those that like you for who you are. Don't try to make others like you. Just ignore them.