Gayness!

There’s no need to chase things that don’t benefit you or help you grow in some typa way.

If fear wasn’t in the way I would tell you my true feelings. I would grow a pair and tell you my feelings for you. It will most likely not happen. You will either have to pull teeth trying to get it out from me. Or if we’re playing a game and some question come up then I will answer yes or no. Or if you just ask me straight up.

I’m trying to grasp my head around what happened. I still don’t understand why something like this would happen to me. It’s still very shocking and I am trying to process this. I am very worried. I don’t know what to expect. I sure as heck don’t know what ima do if ima have to be outta work for a few months. I am not ready for this. Is this what God intended? Like this is all something I really need to process. What is going on???