β again and againΒ β’
pairing: mingyu x reader
summary:Β your mother calls one day, asking if youβre bringing mingyu along for chuseok this year. in your panic, you end up giving her an affirmativeβnever mind the fact that you and mingyu have stopped seeing each other over half a year ago.
word count: 15.7k words
tags:Β exes, fake dating, mutual pining, idol!gyu, vet!reader, mild angst, fluff,Β smut
warnings: medical jargon, mentions of shots (for pets), mentions of snake bites, graphic sexual content (minors dni!!)
notes:Β i wrote this with bss' 7pm on loop for two straight days. nothing like the sweet taste of yearning <3 this also wasn't extensively proofread, so if you spot a few mistakes, i implore you to ignore them EJWHJHSDF
this is part of the doting on you! series.
smut tags: vanilla, mingyu is super whipped, praise kink, service top gyu, dirty talk, nicknames (babygirl, sweetheart, sweet thing), overstimulation, multiple rounds, unprotected sex, creampie, heads up that the filth is at the very end tho
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When you hear the telltale ring as the call connects to its intended recipient, you wonder why you even considered this idea in the first place. Not to mention, youβre getting a nasty case of phone call anxietyβone that you havenβt felt in god knows how long. Maybe itβs because of the identity of the person youβre calling that your nerves are all over the place.Β
In fact, youβre not sure if heβs even going to answer. There are a million and a half reasons why famous superstar Kim Mingyu wonβt be able to pick up your call. He could be shooting for a music video or some fashion magazine. He could be in the middle of an interview. Or he could be out spending time with his members like tends to these days if his recent Instagram posts are anything to go by.Β
But you try anyway because your mother sounded so hopeful in the phone call you just hung up on five minutes ago (The rice wine he got for us last Christmas was splendid! Heβll bring some again for Chuseok, wonβt he?), that you just didnβt have the heart to tell her the truth.
So, because you canβt take back the pretty white lies you uttered (Uh, of course he will. Gyu told me he missed everyone back at home, too. Especially Namja), youβre attempting to rope Mingyu into the charade even if the odds are against you.
The first call doesnβt go through. Neither does the second.Β
By your third try, youβre about to accept the fact that youβre going to have to make some due corrections to what you told your mother until you hear a groggy, βHello?β on the other line.Β
You nearly fall off your seat at the throaty sound of Mingyuβs voice, but youβd rather not get weird looks from your receptionist, so you breathe in as deeply (and quietly) as you can before mustering a smile that he wonβt even be able to see.
βHey, Mingyu, itβs me,β you begin, a bit proud of how your voice didnβt even falter. βItβs been a while. Did I catch you at a bad time?β
He doesnβt respond for a while, and the prolonged silence makes you bite the inside of your cheek. Did the call fall through? Did he not hear what you said? But just when youβre about to repeat the wordsβ
βKind of,β Mingyu grumbles, and you try not to think about how sexy his morning voice sounds despite it being two in the afternoon. βWe finished taping a variety show today and I figured Iβd get some sleep. Itβs midnight right now.β
Well thatβs news to you.
βOh. Youβre not in Korea?β
βNah. Weβre in New York for some brand collaborations,β he says, and you hear some rustling in the background, followed by a yawn. βThough I doubt youβve been keeping tabs on us.βΒ
Okay, he doesnβt have to call you out like that.
Sure, you still catch posts from Mingyu, as well as the other twelve members of SEVENTEEN from time to time, butβ¦after breaking up with him (on good terms, promise!), you thought itβs best if you didnβt see too much of them anymore. The block and mute buttons are your best friends, and while you didnβt use them on the members directly, gossip outlets were your regular targets.
So to speak, itβs been a peaceful six months since your break up with Mingyu.Β
Until now.
βDo you need something?β he asks, and you realize you didnβt respond to what he said last. βWhatever it is, I might not be able to help you out right away. Weβre holed up here until next month.β
Wellβ¦thatβs all the confirmation you needed.
βI see,β you sigh, trying not to sound too disappointed. βItβsβ Itβs okay.β
βSo you do need something,β Mingyu points out, voice much clearer now than it was two minutes ago. Like he was more awake. βWhat is it?β
βNothing you should worry about, Gyu,β you reassure before making a face, not realizing how easily the old nickname just slipped out. βIβm sorry for waking you up. You should go back toββ
The sound of him whining at the other end sends another rush of vertigo through your entire being. βCome on, Iβm awake anyways right? You know how hard it is for me to fall asleep again.β
βIf Iβd known we werenβt in the same continent, I wouldnβt have called altogether,β you say before quaintly adding, βShit. This counts as an international call, doesnβt it?β
Thereβs someone else in the room with him, you thinkβa quiet drawl of Mingyu-hyung, what time is it? You immediately recognize it as Seungkwan.Β
βFive minutes past midnight,β Mingyu says, and Seungkwan asks another question that you arenβt able to catch. βWho am I talking to? Bookkeu and Bobpulβs worst enemy.β
βHey!β You scowl at him. βThey never even whined when you and Seungkwan brought them to me for their shots!β
βNoona? Why are you calling this guy?β Seungkwan says a bit more loudly for you to hear. βDidnβt you dump him already? Good choice, by the way.βΒ
This time itβs Mingyuβs turn to utter out a semi-offended, βHey! Mind your own business, Seungkwan-ah.β
A few minutes of bickering with his dongsaeng later, you figure that Mingyu mustβve gone outside of their hotel room for some privacy. You can vaguely hear the sound of the wind blowing on his end before he heaves a deep sigh.
βSorry about that.β He coughs awkwardly. βAnyway, if youβre not going to tell me about what you needed help with, how are you? Is the clinic doing well? Did your receptionist finally ditch her shitty boyfriend? Does that one guy with a husky still hit on you?β
Youβre a little overwhelmed by the sudden influx of questions. Last you checked, you havenβt spoken to Mingyu since you greeted him on his birthday over a quick text message. But then again, your ex does have a talent for completely ignoring the time that exists in between interactions. Mingyuβs always been amicable for conversation, idol or not, boyfriend or not.Β
The mere thought that he hasnβt changed at all makes your heart ache in more ways than one.
You manage a quiet laugh. βIβm fine. The clinicβs fine. Chae has a new boyfriend now. He even helps us sort out new products on the shelves sometimes.β
At the mention of her name, your receptionist whips her head in your direction, one brow raised. You shake your head with a smile, gesturing that this is nothing she should even be remotely concerned about.Β
Itβs just Mingyu after all.
βOkay, how about the guy whoββ
βI turned him down when he asked me out for lunch last week.β
He whistles. βOuch. And heβs been trying to get with you all this time.β
βI donβt usually date my clients, you know.β
βYeah? I must be special then.β
Then comes the silenceβso thick, you can cut through it with a knife.Β
βUh, so I have a patient coming in an hour for a castration procedure,β you tell him a bit awkwardly. βGotta prepare everything before the owner arrives.β
Mingyu sighs, and you can almost imagine him pouting. βYouβre really not gonna tell me? I can still help you with whatever you need even when Iβm out here. Unless it requires me to, you know, physically be there.β
You chuckle. βThatβs the thing, Gyu. You canβt help me because I need you to actually be here.β
βOh. Why? What for?β
You inhale sharp breath through your nose, closing your eyes as your face warms with embarrassment. Chae is definitely looking at you funnily from her station now, but you tell yourself not to give it too much thought.
βMom asked if I was bringing you with me for Chuseok,β you admit. βI havenβt been home since Christmas, soβ¦ They kind of have no idea that we arenβt together anymore.β
Mingyu falls silent for a while yet again, and you realize that your anxiousness spikes whenever he isnβt talking like thereβs no tomorrow. You wonder if heβs figured out what youβre trying to insinuate and is silently berating you for the lapse in judgment. But when Mingyu bursts out laughing on the other end, you suddenly don't mind being on the receiving end of his silence after all.
βNo way,β he gasps between chuckles. βYou were going to ask me to pretend to be your boyfriend over the holidays, werenβt you?! One of the fans wrote a story about the exact same thing once, except itβs between me and Wonwoo-hyung. It was in English though, but Vernon translated it pretty well.β
β¦Kim Mingyu admitting to reading fanfiction about himself and Wonwoo aside, you groan. βWhat am I supposed to do? My family loves you. Iβd rather not dampen the Chuseok spirit by saying their favorite son has unfortunately made his unannounced exit half a year ago.β
βSo youβre willing to pretend weβre still together just to keep them happy?β
βWell, yeah. Itβs not like youβre an ex I should be ashamed of, Gyu.β
βBecause Iβm an idol that millions are vying for?βΒ
You roll your eyes. βNo. Itβs because out of all my exes, youβre the only one that Namja actually likes. Thatβs pretty much the highest honor you can receive in your entire life.β
Your heart does a little flip when Mingyu barks out another light-hearted laugh. You tell yourself that youβre only reacting that way becauseβ¦it has been a while since you talked to him. That, and Mingyu was always so smiley whenever you brought up your ten year-old retriever.
βPoint taken,β he says. βIβd totally be down to help you out, butβ¦yeah.β
βI knew you would be,β you reply, a sad smile ghosting your features. βThatβs why I called.β
Silence settles over the line once again, but itβs, by no means, awkward. Itβs moreβ¦sentimental. Like two old friends reminiscing about the good memories you shared.Β
Huh. Youβre friends with Mingyuβ¦
βAnyway, thanks for catching up with me, Mingyu,β you tell him before you end up saying something youβre not supposed to. βIβll get going now. Good night.β
βHeyββ
You end the call before he can have the chance to make you falter.
Right behind her desk, Chae looks up at you with a knowing look. You flash her a smile that silently pleads for her not to say a word, but your receptionist has always been on the frank side.
βSomethingβs telling me youβre still hung up on him, boss.β
Sighing, you push yourself back to your feet, tugging on the lapels of your crisp white coat. That might be true to some degree, but itβs not like you can do anything about it.
You and Mingyu live in two completely different worlds. Itβs something that you both came to terms with when you broke up. You just had to accept the fact that thereβs simply no efficient way to work around his busy schedules and the appointments you need to attend to at the clinic.Β
It was the most unproblematic breakup youβve ever had, and itβs with a famous idol. Who wouldβve thought.Β
βAnyway,β you tell Chae before nudging the door to the operating room open. βCare to help me look for the anesthetics? I canβt remember where I put them away last timeβ¦β
Your receptionist is most definitely judging you inside your head, but despite how straightforward she can be, Chae still knows when to drop it. After a few clicks on the clinicβs desktop computer, she joins you on the hunt for that pesky bottle of anesthesia without asking any intrusive questions.
You make a mental note to treat her to some coffee tomorrow.
β¦
One of the reasons you seldomly paid your hometown a visit is the hassle that comes with the entire commute.
First you have to endure the long queue to get tickets before sitting through an eight-hour train ride to the seaside town of Haenam. Then comes navigating the local bus routes and schedules that always seem to change every time you go home.Β
When you made it out of the train station for this yearβs Chuseok celebration, you didnβt even bother stressing yourself out with taking the bus back to your parentsβ houseβflagging down a taxi that definitely charged you a ridiculous rate in exchange for your utmost comfort instead.Β
You try not to think about how easier it was last Christmas, when you and Mingyu took turns driving one of his companyβs cars on the way hereβlaughing and singing along to their songs on the road like nothing else mattered.
The scent of salt hangs heavy in the breeze when you unload your baggage from the trunk of the taxi. You had the foresight to make the trip before midnight, so youβre rewarded with the sight of the sunrise breaking through the nearby oceanβlight glittering across the horizon like it means to say welcome home.Β
Thatβs what you should feel; like youβre at home. But the fact that youβre about to bring some disappointing news to the table regarding your breakup with Mingyu isnβt doing your peace of mind any favors.Β
You contemplated coming clean about it to your parents over a phone call, but it seemed tooβ¦impersonal with how attached theyβve gotten to your ex-boyfriend. Having a significant other that your family absolutely adores seems like a double-edged sword now that you think about it.
Once the cab hits the road again, you stand in front of your family home with a wistful sigh. Itβs barely past seven in the morning, but your father must already be at the pierβsorting out todayβs catch with the other fishermen in town.
Your mother loves taking walks in the market even if she doesnβt have anything in particular to purchase for the day. Theyβre early risers by default.Β
You canβt really say the same for your younger brother, Haneul, though. That one likes to sleep until noon.Β
When you ring the doorbell outside, you expect to hear the sound of excited barking from the other side of the gate. Namja was always the first to welcome you back whenever youβre in town, and just thinking about reuniting with him quells your anxiousness a little. But surprisingly, you donβt hear the telltale noise of your family dogβs excitement.Β
What you do hear is the sound of the screen door opening and slamming back shutβslippers being hastily slid on before the gate creaks open, revealing Haneul still sporting a bedhead as he rubs his eyes.
βYouβre back,β he says a-matter-of-factly, like he isnβt even thrilled to see you, but youβre too surprised to see him up so early to quip about it. βMom said you wouldnβt arrive until noon.β
βI wanted to make the most of my vacation leave,β you explain before looking around the garden inside. βWhereβs Namja? Did Mom take him for a walk, too?β
Haneul hums before taking your luggage. βHm. You can say that.β
βWhat does that even mean?β
As if on cue, your ears perk up at the sound of a familiar bark resounding from the end of the road. You quickly whip your head around to see your beloved golden retriever, Namja, wagging his tail excitedly at the sight of you before letting out another woof when you call out his name in glee.
However, the moment you realize whoβs holding his leash, you suddenly feel like you got struck by lightning.
Itβs Kim fucking Mingyu.
The sight of your ex-boyfriend just...standing there when he told you he was on the other side of the world sends a million thoughts surging through your head all at once.
You try not to think about how gorgeous he looks in the early morning light. Loose, long sleeved shirt that still emphasizes his muscular build despite. Hair having grown past his chin, curling slightly at the tips. And those stupid fucking canines that peek from his lips every time he grins.Β
The bastard is just standing there with zero disguises, as if his existence in this place, at this point in time, doesn't throw a wrench in all of your plans.
What the hell is he even doing here?!
βOh, sweetie, youβre back!β
The sound of your motherβs voice is, thankfully, enough to snap you out of your impending mental breakdown. You were so taken aback by Mingyuβs presence that you didnβt notice her standing next to him, carrying the bag she usually brings for her early market visits as she flashes you a warm smile.Β
You can only stand there in shocked silence as your mother makes her way back to the house with your dog and ex-boyfriend in tow. Haneul was already inside, so you canβt exactly glare at him for not giving you a headβs up. But given that you still have no idea what on earth is going on, youβll play along. For now.
βAre you surprised?β your mother giggles before patting Mingyuβs shoulder. βMingyu here said he got off work for a while so he could celebrate with us!β
βGee, I didnβt know about that,β you say dryly, unsure of what expression you should even wear. βI thought he was going to be in New York until next month.β
She laughs again. βOh, he told me and your father to keep it a secret that heβs going back to Korea anyways. Seems like the surprise worked, didnβt it, Mingyu-ah?β
The culprit himself agrees with a minute nod before loosening his grip on Namjaβs leash.Β
Your goldie immediately bounds towards you at the first sign of freedom, bracing his paws on your stomach as he attempts to lick your neck. Itβs enough to distract you from the current predicament at hand, making you sigh in defeat as you sink to your knees and receive Namjaβs slobbery affection in its entirety.Β
As you snuggle up to the family dog, Mingyu says, βWhat can I say? I missed Haenam a lot. The scenery, the family, Namja, but of courseβ¦β
You can only sit there in growing disbelief as Mingyu mirrors your movements. He crouches low enough so that your gazes are leveled before caressing your face with a tenderness thatβs both familiar and foreign at the same time.Β
βI missed her the most.β
This is all a charadeβthatβs what you can confirm from the limited clues heβs dropping for you to pick up on. You can try to figure out why heβs suddenly here in your hometownβhaving arrived earlier than you, from the looks of itβa little later.
Whatβs important is that Mingyu, ever-so helpful, is actually playing along with the act you not-so-jokingly told him about on the phone.
You should be glad.Β
β¦But why do those words make your heart ache anyways?
βOf course you do,β you sigh before peeling yourself away from his touch, carrying Namja in your arms as if he doesnβt easily weigh thirty kilograms. βCome on. Letβs get back inside and help Mom prepare whatever sheβs planning on cooking for lunch.β
Mingyuβs smile doesnβt falter despite your obvious dismissal of his affection. You remind yourself that heβs racked up a lot of acting gigs throughout his career, so itβs normal for him to be a natural at this.Β
But even if you know that this is all an act, you canβt help the way your heart lurches when Mingyu scoops Namja out of your graspβthe mere brush of his skin on yours more electrifying than it should be.
Namja whines in your exβs arms, pawing at his chest before licking a long stripe across his cheek. Mingyu bursts out laughing as he coos at him, and your chest burns with an indescribable feeling.
A few moments later, your mother starts gushing about how excited she is to have both of you in the kitchen with her again as she leads you back inside the house. But all that rings in your head is a broken mantra of Mingyu saying I missed her the most.
As if repeating the words enough times will make them come true.
...
Itβs one thing to know that Mingyu is in Haenam when heβs supposed to be overseas.
Itβs another thing to see his usual overnight bag at the foot of your unmade bed, making you realize that he definitely came here much earlier than you anticipated.
Mingyu is currently in the kitchen, helping your mother out with lunch prep while she insists that you get some sleep first. Though the trains that led to the southern provinces were designed to be more comfortable than the ones contained in Seoul, nothing defeats the comfort of your old childhood bed.Β
Except when youβre made aware of the fact that your ex-boyfriend probably slept in it after making the trip all the way here.Β
The sheets even smell like him. A hint of that expensive fragrance he never seems to get tired of laces your pillows, and warmth rushes to your face when you realize youβre breathing it in a bit too much.Β
So what if Mingyu slept here, right? Your parentsβ house doesnβt have a guest room, and this was probably the only room available.
Oh, and in your familyβs eyes, Mingyu is still your boyfriend. There shouldnβt be anything weird about your boyfriend, who went out of his way to quote-unquote surprise you, sleeping in your room, on your bed, without your knowledge.
And there definitely isnβt an issue with having to sleep next to him on said bed come nightfall.
You totally got this.
An attempt to dissuade all these intrusive thoughts is made as you unload the contents of your luggage into your old cabinet. It works for a while because all the old clothes you still kept tickled some memories from way back in high school, when becoming a vet was nothing but a pipe dream you came up with after Namja became sick on the day of his first birthday.Β
In fact, as you look around further, youβre reminded of just how much time has passed since you moved out. The paint on the walls is starting to chip, and the floorboards creakier than you remember. Even the bed that was too spacious for your liking seems to shrink when you imagine Mingyu sprawled all over it with a blanket thrown over his large form.Β
But when you recall how you two somehow made the sleeping arrangement work last Christmas, you figure that there isnβt much to worry about.
Aside from the fact that youβre not together anymore. Fuck.
βHey. Are you awake?β
You jolt at the sound of a soft voice coming from the door. Mingyuβs handsome face peeks from the crack before he opens it all the way, lips pressed together in a hesitant smile.
βYour mom asked if I could fetch your father at the pier in a few,β he says. βDo you want to come with me or do you want to get some sleep first?β
βDo I want toββ you cut yourself off, throwing your hands up in disbelief. βMingyu, what I want is for you to explain what youβre doing here.β
He cranes his head. βYou said you needed help.β
βYeah, but I was going to be honest about the breakup anyway!β you whisper, not wanting to attract unwanted attention from outside. God knows this house has paper-thin walls. βBut then youβre suddenly here, cozying up to my family like we havenβt been ignoring each other for months already.β
βHey, Iβd never ignore you.β Mingyu pouts. βI even picked up when you called me at ass oβclock in the morning, remember? If someoneβs ignoring anyone here, itβs you, sweetheart.β
You hate how you bristle at that little pet name. Mingyu doesnβt seem to notice how you react to it, so you steel yourself insteadβrefusing to give into his unintentional charms. βThatβs not the point and you know it, Mingyu. You canβt blame me for reacting this way when you told me that you wouldnβt be able to help me out.β
βBut Iβm here, right? I thought youβd be a little happier to see me, but I might have been overestimating myself.β
You are. You are happy to see him.Β
But having to live with the knowledge that Mingyu is right here, close enough for you to touch, yet canβt because your relationship has long expired?Β
You werenβt ready for that. You donβt think youβll ever be.
βLook,β he starts with a tone thatβs meant to placate you, βyou were right about not wanting to ruin the holidays with the breakup. Iβm just here to help you out since youβre obviously not ready to break the news to your family. Itβs not a big deal.β
You scowl at him. βMingyu, it is a big deal. You are literally an idol with a packed fucking schedule. You canβt just play house with me here when youβre expected to be somewhere else.β
Mingyu shakes his head. βListen to me first, okay? We were all given the weekend off because of Chuseok on short notice. You donβt have to worry about you unknowingly stealing me away from work because there is no work. Besides, I told you Iβd still be here when you need me, right?β
How can he say all that with a straight face? Like he still thinks of you as anything but an old flame thatβs long been snuffed out?
The problem with Mingyu is that heβs too earnest for his own good. Always wearing a spectrum of emotions on his sleeve. Always so honest about what he feels about certain things. Itβs so fucking difficult to stand your ground against someone whoβs nothing but forthcoming about every aspect of his life.Β
But itβs not like you could ever resist him to begin with, right?
βFine,β you grumble. βGive me a few minutes to prep. I donβt want to go out in the docks wearing this many layers anyways.β
You hate how your chest warms when Mingyuβs eyes light up at that. Fight back, maybe?!
He looks like heβs about to say something when an abrupt knock disturbs the quiet atmosphere of your room. From how annoyingly long it lasts, you single out your younger brother as the perpetrator.
βYou better not be making your firstborn in there,β Haneul drawls from the other side.Β
Mingyu flashes you a mischievous smile before cupping the sides of his hands over his mouth. βWe might be making our second born for all you know.β
You wonβt survive this weekend. You really wonβt.
β¦
βRemember when we used to eat ice cream by the Han River?βΒ
You flash Mingyu a perplexed look as you climb out of the car he used to drive all the way to your hometown. Itβs a mystery how his manager allows him to go places with their company car with no supervision, but itβs not like Mingyu has done anything in the past to warrant that kind of surveillance anyway.
Besides, if heβs spending the entirety of Chuseok with a bunch of bodyguards lingering around your house, you might actually force him to go back to Seoul altogether.
βWhyβd you bring it up?β you ask. βI thought you didnβt like those kinds of dates βcause you had to amp up the disguises and everything.β
Mingyu pockets the keys to the car before leaning against the metal railings installed along the pier. Your father is yet to show up at your rendezvous point, so you figure it wouldnβt do anyone harm to entertain Mingyuβs attempt at small talk.Β
βHmm. While I did prefer just cuddling in the dorms and at your place, it always felt a little different whenever we went out together,β he muses, the wind tossing his hair around slightly before turning to look at you. βHow about you? Do you have any favorite date of ours in particular?β
You sigh, unsure why heβs even asking you all of this. Yet you indulge him anyway with, βI donβt think it classifies as a βdateβ, but I kinda liked it whenever you hung out with me in the clinic while I tended to some patients. Even if your presence there is an occupational hazard in itself.β
He snickers to himself, and you know damn well he still remembers the flock of fangirls that ran into him in the waiting room when Mingyu paid you a visit out of boredom. Thankfully, they were the respectful kind, and promised not to divulge information about Mingyuβs whereabouts whenever they catch him at your clinic.
βThe dogs are always happy to see me,β he chuckles. βThe cats, not so much. Oh, but remember when someone brought in their pet snake? I think that one had a crush on me.β
You do, in fact, remember the day Mingyu got bitten by a boa constrictor named Yujin. Her owner is one of your regulars, since other vets in the city donβt have reptiles under their area of expertise. Yujin hasnβt bitten anyone since she first came for a checkup, so you figure that Mingyu must have done something pretty stupid to provoke the aggression.Β
βYou better be glad constrictor bites arenβt venomous,β you point out with an airy laugh. βNot even a true loveβs kiss can cure a venomous snake bite.βΒ
βIt can cure a handful of other things though.β
You turn to glance at Mingyu with a miffed look at his attempt at smooth-talk. Heβs always been this way, so it doesnβt particularly faze you. But it still feels surreal to be talking with him right next to the open sea in your hometown as you both wait for your father to arrive.
βI never really got to ask,β you murmur, eyes still trained on a flock of seagulls huddling together near the docks. βHow are you? Youβre not burning yourself out again, are you?β
You donβt see it, but Mingyu smiles to himself. βItβs in our job description to push ourselves past the limit, you know. Butβ¦honestly? Itβs been pretty lonely.β
You make a face at that. βLonely? Youβre literally with twelve other guys, like, eighty percent of the time. How does it ever get lonely?β
Mingyu hums before leaning further over the railing. He looks up at the clear blue sky, breathing deeply with his eyes closed, and for a moment, youβre a bit taken aback by how breathtaking he looks under the spill of morning sunlight.Β
βYou can still get lonely in the middle of all the noise,β he murmurs. βThatβs why I was kind of glad I got to go back here for a while. I know I said I meant to help you out, but there mightβve been some selfish reasoning behind the choice, too.β
Your gaze softens at his words. Mingyu is one of the most intensely passionate members of their group, so itβs not hard to believe that heβs also one of those that ends up feeling this way. You remember having a similar conversation with him during a quiet night in your apartment, limbs tangled together under the sheets as he wonders if your lives would be different if he wasnβt an idol.
But of course, itβs your job to remind him that, even if it could become exhausting at times, he once dreamed of being where he is now.Β
βThey probably miss you already,β you say. βDonβt you guys usually film content for Chuseok?β
βYeah, but all of thatβs prerecorded. Theyβre all with their families right now, too.βΒ
βReally? What are you doing here then?β you tease.
Mingyu tilts his head to the side, lips curved into a lopsided smile that reminds you how it felt to catch feelings for him the first time.
βWho ever said you arenβt family?β
Unfair. Heβs being so fucking unfair right now.
But you canβt even think about pushing him into the sea because your father has already made his entrance, waving at the two of you despite his hands being full of fishing paraphernalia.Β
He sulks about how it took you so long to go back home, and you had to explain that things have been extra hectic at your clinic, especially when you inevitably earned the reputation of being βSEVENTEEN Mingyu and Seungkwanβs trusted veterinarianβ despite neither of them having dropped by since the breakup.
You donβt tell them that last part though. The last thing you need is for Mingyu to have something to gloat about.
βItβs a miracle how those nasty paparazzi folks from Dispatch havenβt caught on yet,β your dad says before climbing into the backseat of Mingyuβs company car. βUnless youβre already in cahoots with them? Remember, Kim Mingyu, leave my daughter out of any celebrity gossip! Sheβs already built a good name for herself.βΒ
A throaty laugh rumbles in Mingyuβs chest as he pulls out into the street. βYou donβt have to worry about that, sir. Protecting her has always been my top priority.β
Your father nods, seemingly pleased with his response. βDamn straight.βΒ
You donβt express any outward reaction to what Mingyu just told your dad, but you donβt resist when he reaches for your hand over the center console.Β
The moment you he squeezes your fingers, you squeeze back.Β
β¦
The rest of the day is packed with preparing lunch and dinner options for your other relatives in town. Having Mingyu on board is an undeniable asset, since the man knows his way around the kitchen even better than you do. Itβs a little endearing to think that, even if itβs the first time heβs meeting your aunts and uncles and cousins, his personality makes him fit right in.Β
Turns out, one of your cousinsβ daughters is a huge fan, and she couldnβt believe her eyes when she saw Kim Mingyu smoking fish in the backyard of your parentsβ house. She made him promise to sign one of her photocards before they leaveβa request that your ex is all too happy to oblige.Β
By dinnertime, most of the guests have already left, and itβs just you, Mingyu, and Haneul sharing the rice wine Mingyu brought for the occasion, with your parents having already retired for the night. You didnβt even tell him that your Mom wanted another taste of it, yet he delivered anyway.Β
βHow are you guys doing it?β Haneul whines, a bit red in the face since heβs already had a few beers before your cousins all left. βWhen my ex-girlfriend moved to another city, it only took two weeks for us to break up. Long distance is the bane of everyoneβs existence.β
βEveryone but ours,β Mingyu says before clinking his glass with yours. βYou just have to communicate with each other constantly. If youβre honest about everything both of you are feeling, then itβll be easier to work things out together.β
Itβs so easy for him to say these kinds of things. As if your relationship didnβt go to ruin because of the long distance that always kept the two of you apart. You feel a bit bad for having Mingyu lie to your brother right in his face, but you tell yourself that youβre already here anyway.Β
Youβll just have to fake it until you make it.
βBut what if the other party doesnβt want to talk about it?β Haneul sighs, tracing the rim of his own glass with his finger. βI wanted to make it work. I really did. But sheβ¦ She didnβt even want to try anymore. Lost faith in us so quickly, I could hardly believe she even loved me.β
You know Haneul is just drunkenly rambling about his grievances with his ex. He called you about it a few years ago, long before you even met Mingyu, and you consoled him by saying that his ex-girlfriend never deserved his love in the first place.
But even if you know the circumstances that led to your split with Mingyu are completely different, you canβt help but find similarities between the stories.Β
You broke up with Mingyu on the first day of spring. When the snow was just beginning to thaw, and the wind started to bring in a warmer climate. Theyβd just gone back from tour, and you know youβre not the only one feeling the tightly-wound strings of your relationship beginning to fray at the seams.Β
βIβve been thinking about it for a while now, but I donβt think weβre going to work, Gyu,β you murmured, not having the guts to meet his eyes. βI think itβs best if we just focused on our careers.β
You thought heβd throw a fit. Or at least ask you a bunch of questions. Did he do something wrong? Is he not enough? Yet Mingyu simply flashed you a sad smile before nodding right back at you.
βOkay,β he said with a kind of resignation that breaks your heart to hear. βThank you for being with me all this time.β
In the present, Mingyu shifts beside you on the tableβabruptly startling you out of that impromptu trip down memory lane.Β
βThen, youβll just have to take it in stride, Haneul-ah,β he murmurs before throwing back the rest of his drink. Mingyu manages a tight-lipped smile that pains you to look at. βIf you really love her, youβll respect whatever choice sheβs come to make in the end. Even if that choice doesnβt involve you anymore. Even if it hurts to see her walk away after everything youβve built together.β
When Mingyu turns to look at you, you feel like thereβs cotton sticking to the roof of your mouth.
βItβs a good thing I never have to experience that with your sister, though. She loves me too much to let me go.β
Haneul huffs from across the table before rising to his feet. βYou two are so in love itβs actually disgusting. You know what, letβs just go to sleep.β
Half an hour later, you find yourself standing in the middle of your bedroom as Mingyu gets ready to sleep. He seems to be talking to someone on the phone inside your bathroom, but you purposely decide not to listen in. It was probably his manager or one of the other boys checking in on him.
You donβt wait for him to finish when you climb under the sheets, leaving enough space for him to occupy on the mattress, should he decide to share it with you tonight. Thereβs also an extra blanket folded on his side of the bed, since Mingyuβs a notorious blanket hogger, and youβd rather not wrestle that six-foot hunk of muscle for warmth.Β
Mingyu takes so long on that phone call of his that by the time he finishes, youβre already fast asleep, curled up while facing the wall so you wouldnβt have to face him. He chuckles, lingering just a few seconds longer by the doorframe of the bathroom. How long has it been since heβs last seen your face under the peaceful guise of slumber?Β
Itβs been too long, and he isnβt about to pass up on the opportunity to commit the sight into memory.
β¦
Sometime in the middle of the night, youβre rudely roused by the sudden drop in temperature.
Itβs only the beginning of autumn, but you noticed that itβs a lot colder than usual. Even if you already have a cozy blanket draped right on top of you. You sigh, shifting on the bed to get more comfortable before realizing that youβre not exactly alone.Β
Much like yourself, Mingyu is blinking out the drowsiness in his eyes as he turns to look at you with a question in his sleepy gaze. You shake your head in a wordless attempt to tell him not to worry.Β
βYouβve been tossing and turning for thirty minutes now,β he says, and hearing his throaty voice in person doesnβt even compare to that phone call you shared a week ago. βWhatβs wrong?β
You sigh. βItβs cold, and it isnβt even winter yet.β
He looks at you for a while, as if thinking of what to say before he reaches out for you and tugs you into his arms. Even if youβre practically half-asleep, the sudden action kickstarts your brain into motion, and you struggle against his grip all while whispering, βWhat the hell are you doing?!β
βYou told me back then Iβm as good as a furnace on cold days,β he mumbles as he tucks you into his chestβmaking you hyper aware of every ridge of his toned chest through his shirt. βIf it bothers you so much, just think of it as a favor from one friend to another. Howβs that sound?β
Friend. You know thatβs all that Mingyu is to you these days, and all you are to him, but even in this drowsy haze youβre in, the word still feels like an insult. A word meant to scorn the time youβve spent as lovers.Β
Just thinking about Mingyu as a friend leaves a bitter taste in your mouth, so instead of answering him, you cave and burrow yourself into his warmthβsomething that he seems pleased with, if the satisfied sound that rumbles in his chest is anything to go by.Β
He holds you in his arms the same way he did last Christmas, but thereβs an unfamiliar sense of possessiveness sinking uncomfortably in the pit of your stomach. You know you shouldnβt think of what heβs doing as anything but a favor between friends. Youβre perfectly aware that, as the person who officially ended things between the both of you, you have no right to yearn for something you already gave up on.
But when Mingyu tilts your head up so you can meet his sleepy eyes, you donβt even put up a fight when he presses his lips to yours.
It doesnβt seem like he planned on doing anything beyond that. In fact, you donβt think he meant to do it at all. Just a heat-of-the-moment decision that the two of you could just forget about come morning.Β
However, the moment he starts to pull away, you force a hand across the back of his head, crushing your lips back together as you hook one of your thighs across his hips. Mingyu groans into the kiss, large hands migrating to your waist as he reciprocates your newfound hunger like you knew he would. His touch leaves trails of fire tingling across your skin, and every time his canines graze your bottom lip, you quietly moan into his mouth.
This is stupid. Youβre both being incredibly stupid. The walls are anything but soundproof, and your parents are sleeping just across the hall.
Yet you canβt bring yourself to care. Not when Mingyu is making your body remember what it feels like to have him all over you like this.
You missed him. His heat. His touch. His kiss. Everything. You missed him so much that it hurts. You missed him so much that when Mingyuβs fingers start to glide along the exposed flesh of your thighs, you detach your lips from his before pushing him away.
You missed Kim Mingyu with the intensity of a dying star collapsing in on itself, of black holes tearing through reality, but this isnβt how you should go about it.
βLetβsβ¦β you whisper, not quite trusting your voice to carry out your message. βLetβs just sleep.β
Mingyu doesnβt argue. He rarely does. But neither do you when he tugs you back in the caging embrace of his warmth.Β
For the first time in weeks, you find yourself drifting off into undisturbed slumber.
β¦
The next morning, youβre set to go back to Seoul, and by some stroke of luck, so is Mingyu. Still, the two of you decide to stick around until lunch timeβneither of you breathing a word about what just happened last night.
But while Mingyu starts to load both of your things into the trunk of his car, your mother asks you for a favor at the last minute.
βCan you bring Namja along with you back to the city?β she asks. βHeβs been really listless before you and Mingyu arrived. Your father and I were starting to get worried, and figured you might have to do a check up first.β
You raise an eyebrow at her claim, not really noticing anything amiss about your retrieverβs health, aside from the usual signs of age. Heβs ten years old, turning eleven this year, so it isnβt such a mystery to see that Namja isnβt as hyperactive as he was as a puppy. But then again, your mother has spot-on intuition about all the strangest things, so you indulge her request in the end.Β
Besides, having a pet of your own to keep you company doesnβt sound so bad.
Fortunately, Mingyu is more than hospitable when you ask if you could bring Namja along for the rideβpromising that heβs car-trained, and wonβt make a mess as long as you pull over from time to time. In fact, your ex seems more elated with the idea of your goldie joining the road trip than you are.
βI can come visit Namja in Seoul whenever I want now, right?β he asks with a soft laugh, and you wanted to reply with, Yeah, if you arenβt always so far away, that is, but choose not to.Β
The two of you take shifts in driving as usual. Whoever isnβt behind the wheel is in charge of entertaining Namja in the backseat so he wouldnβt end up whining for attention the whole drive back. Itβs a setup that youβre pretty okay with, since it minimizes any sort of window for you and Mingyu to have a conversation. God knows youβre not exactly ready to talk aboutβ¦whatever happened last night.Β
So instead, you ask him about a bunch of trivial things so he doesnβt get any ideas.
βYou sure your manager is okay with you returning the car while it reeks of Namja?β you laugh before switching lanes on the freeway. βHe might not take the news that he sheds very lightly.βΒ
Mingyu chuckles before scratching behind Namjaβs ears. βI promised Iβd have it cleaned before I returned it to the office building. Donβt worry about it.β
βHm. Whatever you say.β
By your third stop-over, you decide to give Namja some food and water while Mingyu gets takeout for the both of you at a nearby fast food chain. You stretch out your limbs while your retriever happily laps from his water bowl, wondering how much longer itβs going to take before you reach Seoul.Β
Before you have to part ways with Mingyu again.
Youβre startled out of your train of thought when you see Mingyu practically sprinting back to the car, his sunglasses nearly falling off the bridge of his nose. Namja glances up at him quizzically, and you have to stifle a laugh.
βYeah, a bunch of fans spotted me in line, so we might have to get food back in the city instead,β he explains hurriedly as he helps tidy up Namjaβs food and water bowls. βLetβs go. Iβll drive.β
After his meal, Namja is sated and sleepyβcontent with resting his head on your thigh as you watch the streetlights blur past the windows. Mingyu is a much faster driver than you are, so heβs able to cut the travel time shorter than it would have been had it been you behind the wheel. But the lack of anything to do has you quietly staring at Mingyu from the backseat while his eyes are glued to the road.
You canβt help but let your gaze linger on his strong arms, and the fact that you were tucked safely between them the night prior. But thatβs your first mistake because now, youβre thinking about those desperate kisses you shared in the privacy of your room. Touching each other like you both feared the other would disappear if you didnβt pull them close enough.
You shake your head. No. This isnβt how friends should think about each other.Β
Whatever happened back in Haenam, youβre just going to have to leave it there.
Itβs already past eight in the evening when Mingyu eases the car into your neighborhood, and you try not to think much of the fact that he still knows where you live.Β
βGuess that concludes our weekend getaway,β Mingyu says the moment he finishes helping you carry your stuff back inside your apartment. βThough it seems that someoneβs getting pretty cozy really quickly.β
Namja is already familiarizing himself with his new home, wandering around the living room all while sniffing everything in his path. You stifle a soft laugh.
βYeah. I guess it is,β you murmur before managing a kind smile. βThanks for having my back, Mingyu. Itβ¦means a lot. Really, it does.β
He laughs softly, eyes trailing around the living room with a curiosity that isnβt so different from Namjaβs. βYou have your first boyfriend with you now. I can rest easy knowing youβre in good company.β
Your face flushes at the thought that Mingyu still remembers the reasoning behind Namjaβs namesake. Namjachingu. When he was still a puppy, you said Namja was your first boyfriend, and that you didnβt need anyone else.Β
He lived up to his title for years, tooβalways acting hostile around past boyfriends that you did end up bringing to your parentsβ house despite coming from a friendly breed. The only boyfriend that your first boyfriend seemed to approve of is the man standing right in front of you, just when you thought you would never see him again within the four corners of your house.
βYou know,β Mingyu begins, hesitation crossing his face for a split second before he meets your eyes. βMy familyβs in Seoul for Chuseok, too. I told Minseo to bring Bobpul and Baptori, and you might want to schedule a little playdate between my kids and yours.βΒ
You raise an eyebrow. βWhereβs Aji?β
βToo old to travel around,β he chuckles. βBut Iβm sure the other two can keep Namja company just fine. Join us tomorrow for dinner. What do you say?βΒ
You hesitate. This shouldβve been where you drew the line. Mingyu has already helped you out of your initial predicament. You really shouldnβt create any more problems for yourself by joining his family for a late Chuseok dinner. In factβ¦
βWhat, you havenβt told your family that we split either?β you ask, half-jokingly, half-seriously.
βNo, they know.β Mingyu shakes his head. βBut theyβve always liked you too, so I see no harm in getting everyone to hang out in one place.β
You shoot him a pointed look. βYou know this is just going to make things more complicated, right?β
When he flashes you that toothy grin, you already know that this is a losing battle.Β
βIt does, but itβs still going to be fun,β he says. βSo, are you coming?βΒ
Sometimes, you wish you never met Mingyu at all. Maybe your life wouldnβt be so fucking difficult.
βFine.β
β¦
The next day, you bring Namja to the clinic, and Chae is more than happy to see the brand new addition to the workforce. But while sheβs giving your goldie more pets than he probably deserves, you ask if you have any clients coming this morning that called in advance.
βOh, thereβs this one guy whoβs bringing in a maltese today,β she says, laughing a little when Namja whines at the fact that her attention is divided. βI think his name wasβ¦ Seungkwan? Something like that. He has some records from last year, but he hasnβt been back since.β
Seungkwanβs coming today? Huh. Talk about coincidence.
You tell Chae about how Seungkwan and Mingyu belong to the same group, and your receptionist is adept enough to catch on to what youβre trying to say. Sheβs all too quick to suggest plans on how to mitigate the fans from flocking the entrance to the clinic, like that one time when Mingyu was too lax in disguising himself from anyone who could recognize him.Β
But when Seungkwan arrives at your door, you remember that heβs one of the members that doesnβt particularly like being crowded by people, even if they are his fans.
Heβs dressed discreetlyβdark shades, a beanie, and a black face maskβwhile carrying an adorable pet carrier thatβs probably worth half your monthly salary. Seungkwan is so straight-to-the-point with carrying out his business with you, that itβs hard to believe you and him used to joke around like old friends a year ago.Β
But for some reason, when Chae excuses herself to answer a phone call, the faΓ§ade he puts up falls apart in seconds.
βNoona, you have no idea how much I missed you!β he wails before throwing his arms around you. βOther vets just donβt cut it for Bookkeu! Theyβre always either too mean or too lax with her. You handled her just right today. Canβt believe Mingyu-hyung always calls you her worst enemy.β
You chuckle before patting his back, and Seungkwan pulls away with a pout on his face. βHey, you guys are the ones who ghosted me after Mingyu and I broke up. Youβre always welcome to come back to have your pets checkedβnon-showbiz girlfriend or not.βΒ
βThat hyung of mine is stupid,β Seungkwan scoffs as he scoops Bookkeu into his arms. βWell, youβre kind of the same way, but I canβt exactly call you stupid or you might take it out on Bookkeuββ
βI would do no such thing, Seungkwan-ah,β you complain.Β
βOkay, itβs just my personal opinion that maybe you two didnβt have to split up at all,β he huffs. βMingyu-hyung has become more and more listless since you broke up with him. He might look like his usual self on camera, but when weβre not recording anything? Heβs always so lost in thought! It gets on Coups-hyungβs nerves sometimes.β
Listless, huhβ¦Β
Your mother said the exact same thing about Namja. Speaking of, your gaze drifts over to your goldie whoβs staring outside the door to your clinic, like heβs waiting for Chae to come back and shower him with attention again.Β
Is Seungkwan insinuating that he and Mingyu arenβt so different?
βMaybe heβs just going through a blue period,β you suggest before writing up a prescription for the vitamins that Bookkeu will have to take for the next two weeks. βItβs been so long since we broke up. I doubt heβs acting that way because of me.β
Seungkwan breathes in deeply, like heβs just barely able to contain the urge to slap some sense into you. βNoona, listen to me. Kim Mingyu is catastrophically in love with you. When you called that night when we were sharing a hotel room in New York, it was the first time I saw him look so genuinely happy for reasons that arenβt related to our music. But that hyung of mine is too selfless for his own good.β
You startle a bit when he suddenly lifts Bookkeu closer to you and points her adorable face in your line of sight.Β
βHe wants you back, but heβll never admit it, especially when you made your choice clear all those months ago,β Seungkwan says before pushing his maltese even closer to you. βBut now, something tells me that youβre still hung up on him, just as much as heβs hung up on youβif all the things he told me about your trip to Haenam are true, that is.β
Huh. That time he took so long in the bathroomβ¦ He mustβve been talking to Seungkwan.
βOkay, but why does it feel like youβre using Bookkeu to threaten me into doing something?β You laugh softly. βSeungkwan, our time is up. And itβs not something we can just take back whenever we feel like it.β
βWhβ! Donβt you think things are only that way because both of you are making it more complicated than it should be?β He sighs, exasperated. βAlso, yes I am using Bookkeu to threaten you. Promise that youβll at least talk to Mingyu-hyung about this? We canβt stand seeing him so out of it anymore. Come on, you canβt resist those cute puppy eyes, right?β
You sigh, half-considering pointing out that Bookkeu is, by no means, a puppy anymore, but then again, you still call Namja that despite being more than a decade old.
βAlright, alright,β you relent. βIβm meeting his family tonight for dinner anyways. Might as well clear the air.β
Seungkwan gasps, a comical expression rooting itself on his face. βSee! Youβre having dinner with his family, too?! If youβre not back together by the time we fly back to the U.S., I'm never talking to either of you ever again.β
Now, itβs your turn to pout. βWho are you going to go to for Bookkeuβs check-ups then?β
He opens his mouth, closes it, then opens it again before letting out a petulant huff. You canβt help the snicker that bubbles in your chest as Seungkwan tilts his chin up with indignance.Β
βPoint taken,β he says before narrowing his eyes and pointing his index finger at you. βBut Iβm expecting Kim Mingyu to come back to the dorms later, happy and not heartbroken. Okay?βΒ
You raise your hands before handing him your written prescription. βNo promises.β
When Chae returns inside the clinic, you physically have to hold Namja down just so she can give Seungkwan a receipt for todayβs visit. Your mother was right, he definitely was growing lonely back in Haenam. You havenβt seen him this excited in years.Β
Seungkwan bids you another, more formal goodbye, now that you're not alone anymore. He doesnβt need to reiterate what he asked of you out loudβthe look in his eyes is already telling enough.Β
Given that today is a bit of a slow day, you decide to run a few diagnostic tests on Namja just to confirm whether or not heβs silently carrying some sort of disease. But all his results came out normal, except for a clinically insignificant but still noticeable increase in his body sodium levels. Might have to cut down the treats for a few days.Β
Otherwise, heβs happy and healthy tenβgoing elevenβyears into his lifespan. The reason for his lethargy back home must have something to do with innate loneliness after all.
Then you remember what Seungkwan told you about Mingyu. How he hasnβt really been himself since the breakup. You never really felt that during your time together in your hometown. Heβs still the effortless charmer that you once fell in love with. The big softie that can get along with anyone and everyone, given the right circumstances.
Mingyu has always been a people pleaser. The last thing he wants to do is inconvenience others. So itβs kind of hard to believe that heβs been so out of it that even Seungcheol is starting to get pissed with his behavior.Β
The sound of Namja barking jolts you out of your thoughts before your goldie pads over to where youβre seated behind your desk, whining as he nuzzles your hands as if he knows youβre thinking a bit too hard about something distressful. You let out a quiet laugh, scratching behind his ears just like you know he likes.
βI wonder what Iβm supposed to do,β you chuckle. βMaybe I shouldβve been born as a dog instead. Thinking about all of this is giving me a headache.β
Namja growls before barking again. Like he doesnβt approve of the idea of not having you as his fur parent. You let out another laugh thatβs a lot less quiet before you decide to pull out your phone and shoot Mingyu a text.
Are you picking me up later or not?
β¦
Dinner with Mingyuβs family is splendid
The outdoor restaurant his mother booked in advance probably serves the best songpyeon youβve ever tasted in your life. Add that to the fact that they accommodate pets in their alfresco area, this could easily be one of the next places youβll take your own parents for a meal when you bring them to Seoul for a quick getaway.Β
Namja is a bit shy around other animalsβa result of being around no one but your family for so long. But when Minseo introduces him to both Bobpul and Baptori at the same time, the two little rascals easily coaxed your senior citizen goldie out of his shell. Next thing you know, theyβre running around the outdoor dining area like a bunch of energetic pups.
βUnnie, are you back together with this guy?β Minseo asks in the middle of dessert, pointing her spoon accusingly at Mingyu. βYou can do so much better than him, though.β
Their father laughs at their youngestβs comment, and their mother rubs Mingyuβs back as if she agrees, yet still wishes to console her son regardless. Mingyu is simply scowling at his family for how quick they are to throw him under the bus.
βShut up, you sound just like Seungkwan,β he whines.Β
βWell, weβre both right.β
You let out a laugh of your own before scooping some ice cream into your mouth. Then, tentatively, you say, βDonβt say that. Gyu wasnβt that terrible of a boyfriend, you know?βΒ
βHeβs always so busy though. Doesnβt even have time to come visit Bobpul and our other dogs anymore,β Minseo sulks. βHe even missed my graduation! Can you believe it?β
Mingyu pouts. βI said I was sorry, didnβt I?βΒ
She huffs. βNot sorry enough!β
βWell, for starters, even if he is ridiculously busy, he still makes sure to call me before he goes to bed after a particularly tough schedule,β you say. βHe also answers my calls even if our time zones are different, and itβs an ungodly hour where he currently is. Then when he finally comes back to Korea, heβll give a bunch of gifts that reminded him of me on his trip overseas.β
You donβt know what compelled you to do so, but the words just gush out naturally. It was a little difficult the first time Mingyu had to hop on a plane to some other country to film some content with the boys, but you eventually got used to it, and managed to make a couple work-arounds.
Now that you think about it, if you were so used to it, whyβd you decide it was best for you to part ways when he got back from tour? Itβs been so long that you donβt even know the logic behind the reasoning anymore. You just remember feeling like it was the best decision at the time. And you were rightβyour careers have definitely thrived even after the breakup.
As you continue telling Minseo and their parents about how much of a catch the eldest son of the Kim family really is, you fail to notice the way Mingyuβs eyes never leave you the entire time. Soft, with just a hint of yearning that youβll only be able to notice if you knew what you were looking for.Β
βUgh, fine,β Minseo huffs, and you donβt think she and Seungkwan are all that different from each other. βThis is the first time Iβve seen a couple thatβs broken up months ago talk about each other so fondly, still. You sure you two arenβt secretly dating again?β
βMinseo,β their mother scolds before flashing you an apologetic look. βIβm sorry about her. Minseoβs just been really snappy lately. Must be because she missed Mingyu here very much.β
She rolls her eyes. βAs if Iβll miss that credit-grabbing punk. He didnβt even acknowledge me in his latest Instagram post!β
βSpeaking of dating again,β their father interjects before taking a sip of his wine. βMinseoβs right about one thing at least. You and Mingyu still have chemistry after so long. Whatβs stopping you from getting back together again?β
At your side, Mingyu flashes his father a cautionary look. βDad, thatβs a really inappropriate question, donβt you think?β
βOh, yes, of course. My apologies. This old man is really justβ¦curious, so to speak.βΒ
He bows his head slightly, and you make a little gesture that insists you took no offense. But the inquiry definitely made you think for a moment.
Itβs like everyone you know completely supports the idea of you and Mingyu just burying the hatchet and rekindling your relationship. But didnβt they consider the logistics of it? Youβre a full-time vet and Mingyuβs a full-time idol that travels out of Korea at least once a month. Though youβre a bit unsure of it now, that still played a part in why you called it quits in the first place.
Even when Mingyu took it upon himself to drive you and Namja back to your apartment, his fatherβs question still lingers in the back of your mind.Β
Whatβs stopping you from getting back together again?Β
The answer is pretty simple, but itβs not something youβre ready to face just yet.
Itβs you. Youβre the only one keeping yourselves from reigniting what you once thought was already lost. Your guilt. Your regrets. Your fears. You didnβt need a verbal confirmation to know that Mingyu would drop everything in a heartbeat if it meant youβll take him back again. But as much as your friends joke about how you deserve better than Mingyu, youβre convinced itβs the other way around.
Mingyu deserves someone who can reciprocate the love heβs so willing to give tenfold. Someone who doesnβt flake out when he needs them most.Β
Someone who isnβt you.
When he pulls over a red light, he lets out a sigh as he checks the text messages that popped up on his phone. After a few scrolls he says, βOh. Jeonghan-hyung texted about some party in Gangnam. Do you want toββ
βGyu,β you whisper, eyes riveted on the busy street. βWhat are we doing?β
He blinks. βCelebrating Chuseok together?β
βBut weβre friends right?β You laugh somewhat bitterly. βFriends donβt normally celebrate the entirety of their Chuseok weekend bonding with each otherβs families. Friends donβt make out with each other in the middle of the night. Andβ¦β
You let out a shuddering sigh before adding, βFriends donβt look at each other the way you look at me.β
You can clearly hear the sound of his breath hitching even if you donβt turn to look at him. It seems like he was about to say something in return, but the stoplight turns green, and heβs back to pulling his focus on the road instead of you.
In the backseat, you can hear Namja whiningβever the empath, that one. You immediately feel him pawing against your seat, as if silently asking whatβs wrong. Turning around, you give him a few reassuring pats, not wanting to get claw marks all over Mingyuβs borrowed car.
The two of you are completely silent as he walks you back to the front door of your apartment. You know he didnβt have to, yet he did anyway. How Mingyu of him.
When you finally muster the courage to look up at him and bid him good night, Mingyu grabs your wristβforcing you to meet his desperate gaze.Β
βIf I told you I wanted you back, would anything change? No, right?β he whispers, voice tinged with so much emotion, you can feel your own heart ache at the sound of it. βSo Iβm sorry if Iβm being selfish for inviting you to every place I could think of. If I want to spend as much time with you as I can because I know I wonβt ever get the chance to do so if I let this pass.β
When he presses your foreheads together, the look in his eyes is so smoldering, you canβt bear to look away. This is what a man thatβs been yearning for you for months looks like, it seems.Β
And you donβt think you can keep resisting him for long.
βBefore I get thrown back into that haywire of a schedule again,β he whispers, and you feel every breath fan across your skin, βcanβt you at least let me have this? Let me have you?βΒ
You donβt even know who it is that lunges in for the kiss. The next thing you know, Mingyu has you pressed up against your front door, devouring your lips where all your neighbors can see. But you donβt care. Not when heβs desperately holding your body flush against his as you reclaim whatβs always been yours.
He whispers a bunch of things along the column of your neck as he loosens the strings holding your dress together from behind. Some sweet, some endearing, and others a touch too filthy for others to hear aloud. You stifle your little gasps when he wraps a strong arm around your waist, nudging your thighs apart with his knees so you can feel the hardness straining against his middle.
βItβs you,β he murmurs against your feverish skin, teeth grazing across your flesh ever-so lightly. βItβs always been you. And it will always be you.βΒ
You know Mingyu is a good actor. But itβs so earth-shatteringly different to hear the raw desperation in his voice. How earnest he is in telling you just how much he still loves you without saying the words outright. You can only dream of being as honest with your true feelings as he is.Β
But tonight, you donβt think thereβs anything wrong with letting yourself fall.
In the midst of your mounting desire for each other, though, a lone whine in the night snaps both you and Mingyu out of your newfound vigor. You nearly forgot about Namja, whoβs impatiently waiting for either of you to open the front door so he can finally take a nap. You glance at Mingyu, and he glances right back, before the two of you burst out laughing like a couple of teenagers without a care in the world.
Once youβve gotten your needy retriever settled outside, Mingyu practically tosses you on the bed the moment the door to your room clicks shutβall too eager to cage you between his arms as he continues where you left off.Β
The suit he wore tonight looked a bit too good on his frame, but now you want nothing more than to claw it off him. He chuckles, sensing your desperation as he shrugs off his coat and unbuttons his dress shirt along the way.
βI donβt remember you being this desperate for me, sweetheart,β he murmurs, leaning down to grasp your face as he strokes your heated skin with his thumb. βI canβt say I hate the development though.β
βMingyu,β you whimper as you guide his thumb to your lips, suckling on it in a way that you know makes him lose his mind every time. βPlease. I want you.βΒ
Itβs so easy to be honest with yourself. You wonder why youβve struggled with doing that for so long, but then you remember that your brain is fogged with desire for the man thatβs currently staring you down like heβs doing everything in his power not to fuck you into the mattress right away.Β
But at that moment, you throw all logic and caution in the wind in exchange for taking even more of Mingyuβs thick fingers into your mouth.
βSo good for me,β he whispers when he sees you inch your knees apart to welcome him in between. The hand thatβs not being fellated by your tongue finds its way to the apex of your thighsβcupping your clothed heat in a way that makes you moan around his fingers. βHow badly do you want me, sweet thing?β
βSo, so badly,β you manage to wrench out despite your mouth being full, rutting your hips to introduce some friction between your aching pussy and his hand. βPlease, Gyuβ¦β
When heβs satisfied, his free hand migrates to your thighs, spreading you further apart as he brings his lubricated fingers to your sopping core. Thereβs something so fucking hot in the way he just nudges your panties to the sideβgroaning when he finds you already soaked for him.Β
βYou need something to stretch out this pretty little pussy, donβt you?β he murmurs into your ear, nipping at the lobe just the way you like it. βYou want my fingers or my cock, babygirl? Better choose wisely.β
You want to say that youβre too fucking horny for foreplay, but also remember that each time you had sex with Mingyu in the past, the stretch of his massive cock can be quite uncomfortable if he doesnβt prep you. With how long itβs been since youβve laid in bed together, you donβt want to rush into it without thinking of the consequences after.
So, you mewl, βFingers first. Then your cock.β
Mingyu laughsβa deep, sexy soundβbefore planting a kiss on your nose. βThatβs my girl.β
He carefully eases one digit into your hole, eyes never leaving your face as he gauges your reactions. Part of you wishes to tell him that he doesnβt have to worry so much. That you still trust him with your own body even after all this time. You donβt say anything aloud, but Mingyu seems to get the gist from the look in your eyes either way, surging forward so he can press his lips back onto yours as he loosens you up.
βYouβre always so quick to get wet for me, baby,β he sighs, stifling the noise that escapes you when he slides in a second finger to test the resistance of your walls. βYouβve no idea how much I missed this. Missed you .β
βGyu, Iββ Your breath hitches once he curls his fingers just so, making your legs rise involuntarily off the mattress, but Mingyu pins one of your thighs down with his free hand.Β
βWhat was that?β
Heβs teasing. He rarely ever does that. You shoot him a petulant look before taking his bottom lip between your teeth, tugging hard enough to coax a groan out of him.Β
βI missed you, too,β you whisper. βYouβre the only one who can make me feel this good.β
A dozen emotions flit through Mingyuβs face in the span of a millisecond, but the one that remains is something not so different from longing. You hear him sigh a couple of words that you donβt quite catch before heβs taking his fingers out of your sopping cunt and pulling away from you. Just when youβre about to voice out a complaint, he starts undoing his trousers, kicking them away to some uncharted part of your bedroom before working on the rest of his dress shirt.
Not-so-newsflash: your ex-boyfriend is still fucking hot.Β
But he doesnβt seem to notice the way youβre reacting to the sultry way in which he peels his clothes offβdark eyes still trained on your pliant form on the bed. As Mingyu palms himself through his boxers, you canβt help but press your thighs together in anticipation of whatβs to come.Β
There was a time when he railed you so good, you legitimately couldnβt walk straight the next day. You wonder if he plans on reenacting the whole thing tonight.
βLetβs get you out of that dress, sweetheart,β he breathes before gently guiding you back into a seated position, tugging at the hem of your dress before tossing it to the side.Β
You feel your cheeks warm when he stares at the underwear set you have on tonight. Plain cotton panties and plain cotton bra. In your defense, you really didnβt expect to get laid tonight.Β
βDoesnβt matter,β Mingyu chuckles. Itβs either he can read minds or he still knows you well enough to figure out what youβre thinking. βIβm taking everything off anyways.β
As he makes quick work of whatβs left of your clothing, you distantly remember the last conversation you had with Seungkwan. How you told him youβd βclear the airβ with Mingyu right after having dinner with his family.
Youβre pretty sure what youβre doing right now is only blurring the lines even more, but you donβt really fucking care right now.
You let out a hushed moan when Mingyu latches his mouth onto your nipple, massaging your other breast as he swirls the appendage across your sensitive skin. His free arm snakes itself behind the curve of your waist, pressing you against his firm body while rutting his hips against the bed.Β
Heβs just as desperate for you as you are for him, and it fills you with a heady sort of hunger that only Mingyu can alleviate.
βCan I?β he whispers.
You feel his teeth graze across the skin of your chest, making your toes curl with anticipation. Itβs been a while, but you canβt easily forget how much of a biter Mingyu is in bed. He loves leaving his marks on your body, and even if you always complain about how hard it is to cover them up, you let him do as he pleases every single time.
βYes,β you whimper, rubbing your bare pussy against the ridge of his abs. βDo whatever you want with me, Gyu.β
The sound you let out once he finally bites down is caught between a yelp and a moan, your fingers threading across his hair as he suckles on your skin. Heβs such a talker in bed, tooβwhispering all sorts of endearments that are too soft for you to hear, but add fuel to your growing desire regardless.
βSo fucking pretty,β he says once he detaches himself from your breasts and marvels at his own work. The fruit of his effort is yet to become visible, but heβs left enough angry red marks on your skin to guarantee the lovebites theyβll turn into come morning. βAnd itβs all for me.β
Lacing your fingers around his nape, you mold your lips together in another kiss, tongues dancing to the rhythm of your erratic heartbeat as you grind yourself against his toned stomach.Β
βMingyu,β you whimper against his mouthβhot and heavy. βI need you inside me. Need to get stretched on your cock.β
He groans again, fisting your hair so that he can kiss you even deeper. As he busies you with his mind-numbing kisses, Mingyu gets rid of his boxers in a flashβpositioning himself between your thighs. You nearly cry out when you feel the fat head of his cock sliding against your soaking slit. When he grazes your sensitive clit, you couldβve sworn tears started together in the corners of your eyes.
βFuck, babygirl, so fucking wet for me,β he sighs as he lays you back down on the bed and eases your knees further apart.Β
You bite your lip at the sight of his cock, still as long and girthy as you remember. Mingyu pumps his length all while sliding the head across your cunt, but you let out another desperate mewl to just fuck you already.Β
βShhh,β he says, leaning down to plant a chaste kiss on your forehead. βLet me take my time with you, sweetheart. I want you to commit all of this to memory. Gonna have you feeling me inside you for days.β
And you donβt doubt that. Kim Mingyu has a knack for making it hard for people to forget about him, and if he plans to fuck the shape of his cock into your pussy, who are you to complain?
When you feel his cock catch across your entrance, you genuinely wonder if itβs going to hurt. Mingyuβs attempt at foreplay was cut halfway through because he got distracted by his sudden desire to leave a trail of love bites all over your breasts. But the thing about having sex with Mingyu is that your comfort is his top priority.Β
He would never do anything that he knows can hurt you.
βIβll go slow, alright?β he whispers, and all you can manage is a nod. βWords, baby. You have to talk to me so Iβll know if you really want it.β
βGyu,β you whine, arching your hips in a feeble attempt to get him to fuck into you. βIβm alright. Anything you do is alright with me, justβ Please. Please fuck me full.β
He sighs, staring down like he doesnβt know what to do with you before finally, finally, you feel his dick breach your entranceβpushing inch by delicious inch inside you with restrained hunger. You fist the sheets at the familiar stretch, but itβs not so uncomfortable that the sensation burns. Youβve taken Mingyuβs cock dozens of times before, and it seems that your body still knows how to accommodate his ridiculous size.
βPretty pussyβs happy to see me again,β he chuckles, his grip on your thighs tightening ever-so slightly. βStill made to fit me so snuggly. Did you miss my cock, sweet thing? I can feel you pulsing around me.β
βYes,β you drawl. βMissed your cock so fucking much, Gyu. Fuckββ
You feel so hot, so full. Itβs like Mingyuβs the only thing youβve ever knownβsurrounding you in every direction until all that floats in your lust-addled mind are the letters of his name. Once he buries himself to the hilt, Mingyu doesnβt move right away, still so attentive to your reactions that even if you want nothing more than for him to rail you into the mattress, he wonβt press forward until heβs sure youβre ready.
βIs it too much?β he whispers, tucking your hair behind your ear. βDo you need more time to get used to me?β
Something similar to a growl reverberates in your chest as you stare at Mingyu hard. βWhat I need isβ¦for you to fuck me until I black out.β
Mingyuβs lips turn up into a grin as he shakes his head. βBaby, the last thing I want to be is some sex-deprived savage after weβve been apart for so long. I donβt want to hurt you.β
Then, he leans forward on the bed again, bringing his lips right next to your ear.
βBut I can still make you feel good.β
He prefaces the words with a powerful thrust that you donβt expect, splaying your thighs further until theyβre flat against the mattress. The slide of his cock still feels so unbelievably good that even if the sudden stretch shouldβve been uncomfortable, youβre too blindsided by the pleasure to notice.Β
Your eyes trail across the beautiful man above you as he fucks you in his favorite position. Mingyu has always had a thing for missionaryβsomething about wanting to see your face as he wrecks you. You think youβre starting to share the same sentiment because not only do you get to see his fat cock slide in and out of your sopping cunt, but you can admire all of him at once, as well.
The exertion in those toned arms with every forward thrust. The conspicuous outline of his pecs. That toned fucking stomach. That gorgeous fucking face, so lost in the velvet heat of your pussyβ
Why did you ever think letting someone like this go was a good idea?
βYouβre going to laugh at me for this but,β Mingyu breathes, chuckling to himself. βI think Iβm kinda close.βΒ
You do laugh, but itβs quickly silenced when one of his fingers finds your clit, rubbing it in quick, precise circles like he hasnβt forgotten how to get you off after all this time.
βI am, too,β you tell him. βCock so fucking good, you can make me come in minutes.β
Mingyu lets out another guttural noise as he presses your knees to your chest, throwing your legs over his shoulder with a look in his eyes that promises nothing but pleasure. Though his fingers have departed your puffy clit, the angle he has you bent in has his cock easily grazing your g-spot with every thrustβreducing you into a pathetic, mewling mess underneath him.
βYour pussyβs a fucking drug, babygirl,β he sighs. βHavenβt wanted anyone else after you.β
Even in your cock-drunk haze, those words bring forth some semblance of clarity within you. But itβs immediately snuffed out when Mingyu amps up the cadence of his thrusts, fucking into you with the intention of bringing you to completion at the same time he achieves it. Your eyes are screwed shut, fingers finding purchase across the ripping muscles of his back as you babble an incoherent mantra of yes, yes, so close, so fucking close, love how you fuck me, love how you make me feel fullβ
And then, itβs overβa white hot flash like stars bursting behind your eyelids. You curl into Mingyuβs embrace as your orgasm washes over you like a tidal wave, and heβs all too glad to help you ride it out, pistoning inside your spasming walls with a rhythm thatβs starting to stagger.Β
βSo goddamn tight,β he growls. βWhere do you want my cum, sweetheart?β
Youβre still too blissed out to give him a proper response, but from the way your legs tighten themselves around his waist, Mingyu figures that thatβs the green light he needs to make a mess out of you. Mingyu sighs, burying his face in the crook of your neck before biting downβhis cock twitching in the heat of your cunt as his release gushes into you in thick globs.
He comes so much that when Mingyu does pull out of your abused pussy, his essence trickles out of your hole as you do your best to catch your breath. The world is just starting to return to its normal axis in your vision, and the first thing that your eyes focus on is the sight of Mingyu smiling at you so fondly, it makes your heart hurt.
The look scares you. Like heβs about to say something that you donβt know how to respond to.Β
So instead of giving him any leeway for conversation, you tug him back down into a tongue-filled kiss, rubbing your ruined pussy across his still hard length as you mewl against his lips.
βMore,β you whimper. βI need more, Gyu.β
And heβs all too happy to oblige.
Mingyu slides himself back inside you with an ease that wasnβt present earlierβyour mixed arousal acting as a good enough lubricant to accommodate him. His erratic breathing as he fucks his cum deeper inside you only serves to turn you on even more, making another orgasm creep ever-so slightly beneath your skin.Β
βBabygirl canβt get enough of this cock, can you?β he sighs. βSeems to me like your pussy never wants me to leave.β
βYes!β you hiss, moving your hips in time with his as you desperately claw at his back. βLove your cock so much, pleaseββ
βCome for me again, sweet thing, I know you can do it.β
Itβs unbelievable how a few choice words can get your body to submit to his whims without much thought. Unlike your first orgasm, the second one that Mingyu coaxes out of you singes through every functional nerve-ending in your bodyβsending you into a flurry of overstimulation that has you twitching under his touch.Β
Just when you thought Mingyuβs finally done with you, however, he suddenly flips you onto your stomachβpressing your chest against the mattress while your ass is high in the air. The sudden change in positions makes your head spin, but youβre too dazed to protest.
When you glance over your shoulder, heβs showing you that same smile you fell in love with a lifetime ago.
βYou can give me a few more orgasms, right, baby?βΒ
When he slides his still hard cock along your swollen cunt, you groan into the sheetsβhaving momentarily forgotten that Mingyuβs stamina can go until morning. If you donβt stop him now, he might actually fuck you until you black out, despite his earlier refutal.
But honestly? Youβre not against the idea. Not one bit.
β¦
When you wake up the following day, itβs to cold sheets and the startling clarity of Mingyuβs absence.
You never minded living alone. Youβve been doing it since your first year of college here in Seoul. Youβre used to waking up with nothing but the silence of your room to keep you company.
Even when you eventually got together with Mingyu, lonely mornings have always been a staple, especially on days where he has early schedules. It fills you with a sinking feeling to see that he isnβt with you, but youβve learned to take it in stride.Β
Besidesβ¦itβs not like youβre together anymore now.
This is what you wanted, right? For him to not treatβ¦whatever this is as if itβs a relationship thing. The two of you were just heavily pent up, and caved into your mutual desires last night. Thereβs nothing more to it.
However, when you pad outside the bedroom after shrugging on a flimsy oversized shirt, the scent of pancakes and frying eggs fills your nose. When you see Namja sitting right next to a tall figure hunched over your stove, you can hardly believe your eyes.
He doesnβt notice you right awayβtoo preoccupied with making the perfect breakfast to pick up on your presence. Namja, however, is more perceptive, glancing behind and perking up at the sight of you. He lets out an excited bark before skidding over to where youβre standing, and you crouch down to the floor so you can give him a tight hug.
βOh, youβre awake!β
Mingyu faces you with a smile thatβs nearly blinding in the morning light, a spatula in one hand and a kitchen mitt in the other. Itβs the exact same scene that youβre greeted with during lazy weekends where he doesnβt have any work to do, and your chest twists yet again at the memory.
βYeah, I am.β You smile, rubbing Namjaβs belly when he sprawls himself on the floor. βWhat are you still doing here? Donβt you have to go back to New York tonight?β
βYes, but itβs still morning,β he points out, and you roll your eyes.
A few minutes later, Mingyu starts to set the table while you wash your hands. He tells you about how Seungkwan doesnβt want to room with him anymore over breakfast because Mingyu takes so long to close the lights when heβs binging a new drama. You tell him to be more considerate of his roommates or they might just dropkick him off the hotel room balcony in his sleep.
When you help him put away the dishes, the sight is soβ¦domestic, it gives you whiplash. Bumping shoulders, splashing water, stifling mutual laughter... Being with him like this, tucked in your own little pocket of happiness makes your heart soar in ways that not even mind-blowing sex can help you attain.
You pray that Mingyu doesnβt breathe a word about it, but of course things donβt always go your way.
Just when youβre about to turn around to give Namja her morning fix of dog food, you find yourself trapped between the sink and Mingyuβs armsβunable to escape the fondness in his eyes even if you tried.
βI think,β he whispers, βwe can still make this work. You and me.β
You bite the inside of your cheek. βGyuβ¦β
You think so, too. With someone as understanding and compassionate as Mingyu, you know nothingβs impossible if you just quit being so stubborn. You were so afraid of him attempting to bring your relationship back to life last night, butβ¦
Seeing him bathing under the sunlight in your kitchen after months of getting used to being alone againβ¦Β
Maybe it isnβt so bad to let him back inside your heart.
βO-Of course, you donβt have to answer right away,β he says, turning red in the face. Cute. βYou can tell me when I get back from New York. Howβs that sound?β
Youβre about to open your mouth to respond, but the moment is quickly shattered by the sound of Mingyuβs phone going off. He sighs, releasing you from the figurative cage of his arms as he leans against the sink right next to youβfishing his phone from his pocket before answering it in loudspeaker.
βKim Mingyu, where the hell are you?!β
βGood morning to you, too, Seungkwan-ah,β he chuckles. βWhy? Whatβs wrong? I told Jeonghan-hyung I wonβt be coming back to the dorms until noon.β
βWell, Jeonghan-hyung mustβve forgotten to tell everyone else because the entire dorm panicked when we realized you didnβt make it home!β the younger man squawks. βWe thought something bad happened! You werenβt answering your phone last night either!βΒ
You and Mingyu exchanged knowing looks, and you have to stifle your laughter if you didnβt want to be on the receiving end of Seungkwanβs rage, too.
βSorry about that, I was a littleβ¦busy,β Mingyu supplies.Β
βWell, whatever youβve been βbusyβ with, you better get your ass back here! Manager-hyung is looking for the car you borrowed, and if you donβt bring it back soon, heβs going to give all of us an earful.β
βFine, fine. Iβll be back in thirty. Bye, Seungkwan.β
βHeyβ!βΒ
Mingyu ends the call with little remorse before letting out a long sigh. When his eyes dart back to yours, they flicker momentarily to your lips before he leans forward. You meet him halfway this time, pressing your mouths together in a firm kiss.
βIβll be back,β he murmurs. βI hope youβll still be willing to accommodate me when I do.β
Though it pains you, he peels himself away from your touch, leaning down to kiss Namjaβs head as he gathers his coat in his arms. It just occurred to you that heβs been eating breakfast with you donned with the outfit he wore last night while youβre dressed in nothing but a loose, oversized shirt. The knowledge makes you blush a little.
When you hear Mingyuβs car drive away, you sigh, running your hands through your messy hair. Namja pads over to you, tail wagging as he anticipates another round of petting. Of course you indulge him.
βKim Mingyu is such an idiot, isnβt he?β you tell your goldie, and you like to think the small huff he lets out means heβs agreeing with you. βWhy wait until he comes back when I already have an answer for him?β
This time, Namja actually barks out loud, making you shake your head with a laugh.
You donβt mind waiting for Mingyu, really. He obviously doesnβt mind waiting for you. At this point, youβre at peace with the fact that you might still love him. Maybe, you never stopped loving him at all. Once he lands back in Korea and comes home to you, you promise yourself that youβll definitely show him.
Again and again.
this is part of the doting on you! series.





















