[Conversation i think happened after my cover photo was taken]
Lisa stood at the kitchen counter trying to breathe. Why would she let Riley and Priscilla convince her to go out so soon after losing him. Its her own fault really. She couldnt stop the tears. She could breathe, she needed to breathe. The door opened and in a huff walkes Priscilla and Lockwood.
"Get yourself together Lisa. You are not pretty when you cry." Priscilla told her coldly.
"Its only been a couple of weeks. Its hard to hear his voice." Lisa spoke quietly between labored breaths
"Please tell me you are not crying over a song. Always so dramatic." Priscilla responded.
"Its not just a song, its Michaels song. Hearing his voice. Im just not ready." Lisa responded reserved how she always was with her mother.
"OH please how many times do I have to tell you. He never loved you. You caring about him isn't going to change that." Priscilla gave Lockwood a glare. "Michael you and I will talk tomorrow. Pull yourself together you look hideous. And youre embarrassing me." Priscilla stormed out of the house.
"You need to start working through your emotions. This isn't working you sad over a stranger. He isn't coming back. Im not going to compete with a ghost. I'll sleep in the guest room tonight but get it together. Exercise this demon." Lockwood spoke coldly. He was once kind and understanding to her grief, now he's growing to resent her. She stood alone once more. Grabbing her phone and doing some quick math she knew it was about 8:30 in California. She dialed one of the only numbers she knew by heart.
"Hi Katherine it's Lisa. I am having a hard night and wanted to give you a call." She said.
"Marie what did I tell you to call me?" Katherine responded
"I didnt know if I still could" Lisa spoke through tears.
"Of course you can baby. What's going on tonight? You sound different." Katherine spoke with care and concern unlike Priscilla. Katherine spoke like a loving mother.
"Riley convinced me to go out tonight to get a break from the babies. I was actually having fun and then they played Thriller and I broke down. I feel like I cant breathe." Lisa whispered. She started walking to her room.
"Baby they are going to keep playing his songs. Think of it as him coming to see you. That's how Im getting through. Why don't you come home for dinner next week? You and the twins and my grandson can stay here for a few days. Riley is already here. We all miss you." Katherine spoke lovingly.
"I would love that." Lisa said as she grabbed her pill bottle.
"Its settled then. I will see you and the babies and my Ben on Friday. I love you Marie." Katherine said.
"I love you too mother." Lisa said. The call ended. Lisa sat on her bed and took 3 pills. These ones kept her asleep long enough. She'd sleep until Friday if she had to. She closed her eyes, still stinging with tears. Her breath slowed.
"You know i don't like it when you cry." He said.
"I don't like it when you make me cry." She responded. She could feel the heat from the fire, the fur rug, and him.
"Im sorry I made you cry." He responded.
"I miss you." She whispered.
"I love you." He said.
"I love you too Michael." She cried.
