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april 13, 2022 | cbj vs mtl

“ god, you’re fucking killing me. ” “ i don’t mean to sound miserable. ” “ isn’t that what you want ? isn’t that what you’ve wanted all along ? ” “ i knew it was all an act. ” “ what are you crying for ? ” “ what did you think when you saw us ? ” “ i feel like someone has punched me in the guts. ” “ i kinda like it ‘cause it feels like being in love. ” “ pour me another drink, i don’t wanna have to think. ” “ in the distance there is truth. ” “ if you could understand, you would take my hand. ” “ i’m on my way to hell. ” “ hell only exists if you believe in god, right ? ” “ only idiots ignore the truth. ” “ where’s a warrior without his pride ? ” “ i am staggeringly intent on fucking all of this up. ” “ there is comfort in silence. ” “ i’m conscious i have made too many fucking mistakes. ” “ i am a void, a prison, the source of my hate. ” “ i’ll be back in the highs if you forgive those low. ” “ i crave a sensation that god only gives. ” “ you told me i was pretty but that you could never touch me. ” “ i never felt so lucky when you said that you could love me, but to love me would make all of this too real. ” “ i said that i was tough but i think i made it up. ” “ i wish that you could see just how much you’re killing me. ” “ i could have tanked you, ended you. ” “ i’m selfish and spoiled, i could have had everything i wanted. ” “ i never hold on to misery or grief. ” “ i’m falling off and i need you terribly. ” “ now and then we fail and we admit defeat. ” “ this is it, i’m giving up. i’m calling quits. ” “ i won’t ever let you say you cared about me. ” “ i let myself get drunk on the idea that you loved me. ” “ out there, i feel so small. ” “ what a wonder to be anything at all. ” “ how do you expect me to figure myself out when i cannot tell the difference between bad and good attention ? ”

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