moonlight havoc

And I am telling you, I’m not going. You’re the best man I’ll ever know. There’s no way I can ever go No, no, there’s no way. No, no, no, no way I’m living without you. I don’t wanna be free And you, and you, You’re gonna love me.

Same. It’s gotten to the point where I don’t even go out of my way to find people or befriend them. I’m used to people leaving so I keep things pretty superficial.

And I want to apologize to you for that. 

Because I know I'm one of the people who has left. There's no excuse, which makes me look more of a punk ass bitch. I'm not going to sit here and boohoo to everything because what's done is done. I am truly sorry and I  do feel regret and remorse for my friends that I've treated like disposable items.

I'm just tired of feeling like 

What expectation? What? If you want to take a break from anyone then you have the right to say so. Living up to what everyone wants you to be is no way to go on..funny how I’m saying that shit though. What do you think everyone wants of you?

Personally?  

I've had a lot of friends just up and leave -- no contact, no real reason why, no explanation. They 'replaced' me in a sense. 

I know I'm far from perfect. My personality is strong and can vary depending on the situation. But.. I've somehow just conditioned myself to believe that I drove them away. It's happened on more then one occasion, so it's hard to not let it effect me. And sadly, I've begun doing that to people I care about because I'm selfishly trying to prevent myself from being hurt.

So, when I admire someone's strength and personality; I find it hard for myself to be as close as I want to with people because I always think I'm just not the person they would think I am.

I've been betrayed horribly by some of the closest people in my life, multiple times, by different people. And it's left a mark.

But, in reality, I LOVE people. I love seeing different walks of life. I love seeing different viewpoints. I love being able to joke and have fun.

But, also, I'm scared when we get close. Because in some weird sense, I truly value you. We can "get" one another and not even have to be serious. 

That's why, in all honesty, I jump from screen name to screen name every four months. Or make a new tumblr. Or never look at my friends list. Or even really put effort after a while.

Because people have *always* given up on me. In some flawed and twisted way... I want to stop being so close so I don't live up to the expectation.

I want to stop making people smile and think I'm cool, when in reality my insecurities rule my life.

I want people to not get close -- not for my benefit -- but in some way, I've conditioned myself to believe that people have hurt me because I wasn't enough.

Friend, family, lover, whatever. 

I've become nomadic, in a sense, and I fucking hate it.

I smile and say I love everyone and miss them, but in reality I'm hiding from them because I don't want them to see the person I really can be. 

  caustica said: Didn’t Guillem March do the art for Gotham City Sirens? i don’t remember the art being THAT bad on that…wtf is going on with his ass.

irritatingarchery said: the anatomy…I can’t get past it. It’s so….what? Didn’t amke it to the last 5 pages…..

nekeko said: Because jesus.

kayfabe said: Worth a buy?

March did GCS for like the first 8 issues, then penciling went over to someone else.

I can handle some body mishaps, but his facial expressions are flat out horrible. It's really turning me off the book, especially considering that's suppose to be 'sexy'

I mean, I liked the first issue because it gave Selina a nice supporting character, it continued that she did things her way, and I'm a sucker for some sex. I understand it's a bit controversial, but I thought it was good, even the last page.