Please Dont Go (Anakin x reader)
@annie315 requested: Can I get a one-shot where youre Padmes little sister but you also fall in love with Anakin & you begin to feel inadequate compared to her & begin to become the opposite of your kind & gentle self and you actually try to drown yourself in the bath?
Warnings: mild description of suicidal thoughts.
Both you and your older sister Padmé were held in high esteem, you were known through out all of Naboo for your gentle, sweet, and compassionate spirit; A symbol of youthful innocence and hope to all citizens. And then there was your sister the strong, fierce, natural born leader who all adored and looked up to, including you. You looked at her as your role model, someone whose qualities you wished to attain one day but even still, you were proud of who you were as well. That all changed when a Jedi Knight and his padawan Anakin arrived to protect you and your sister after a rather close call occured involving Padme’s life.
Your sister who had met Anakin before always described him as a cute silly little boy, but that wasnt the impression you got when you first laid eyes on him. You saw a handsom young man who had big dreans and even bigger potential, someone who was bound to do great things and go on amazing adventures. And from that moment, you fell in love with him.
You quickly introduced yourself and he returned the kindness with a gentle smile that made your heart melt. The only thing was…he seemed alot more excited about seeing Padme. You quickly shook it off though, dismissing it as him being happy to be reunited with a childhood friend. To your dismay however, that sinking feeling quickly returned and this time it stayed. Day after day,it seemed like Anakin got more and more awkward and stiff around you and more and more happy and relaxed around Padme and by the time the three of you had to hide on Naboo, it had started to take its toll on your usual cheerful attitude.
You stared at your reflection in your vanity’s mirror, brow’s furrowed as you try to figure what your sister had that you didnt. Your eyes flick down to the small picture of you and Padme, a gentle smile gracing your lips as you look at your older sister. She always did have that bright smile, everyone told her that. And as always, her outfit is beautiful and makes her look like the royalty she is. Standing next to her, you look so plain and average in the picture… Is that what everyone else saw? Is that what Anakin thought of you? Most likely. Padme has always been like a sun and you…were an puny inadequate star just barely noticeable or worth looking at. You can feel hot tears welling up in your eyes but before they can slip down your cheeks, your alerted that dinner was ready.
You drag yourself down the halls of the house you and Padme were hiding in and when you finally arrive at the dinning room, your heart drops. Inside you see Anakin and Padme giggling and laughing as he floats a piece of fruit over to her using the force. He never looked so happy around you. Were you really that boreing?
Quietly you slip into your chair and start eating.
“(Yn) how was your day?” Padme asks gently
Your eyes flick up from your plate to look at her before looking back down “it was okay I guess…” you murmer, picking at your food
“Thats…good” Padme replies, her brow furrowed, confused by your behavior. It wasnt like you to be this stand-offish. You usually love sharing how your day was and greeted everyone with that cute smile of yours. Was something bothering you?
You finished your meal quickly and slipped out of the room as quietly as you entered, returning back to the place you had been spending most of your time recently, your room.
“Maybe a bath will clear my mind…” you murmer, walking into the bathroom attached to your room.
You sit by the edge watching the warm water fill the tub, the sound of Anakin and Padme’s layghter echoing in your head followed by the three words that had been tormenting you: ‘not good enough’ over and over again it chanted in your head until finally you couldnt take it anymore, and plunged your head under the water.
The liquid warmth surrounded you, lulling you into a state of calm. You were just about to suck in a mouthful of water and end it all when two strong arms jerk your head out of the water.
When you finally open your eyes you look up to see a horrified Anakin. He looks shocked and scared as he kneels down next to you and pulls you in a tight hug.
“Please dont..” he begs, his voice slightly wavering
“W-whats it matter to you. You wouldnt notice if I was gone. No one would, everyones too busy paying attention to Padme” you sniffle
“(Yn), thats not true. Do you know how much your sister would miss you? How much your people would miss you? How much I would miss you? I care about you so much (yn) thats why I came in here to check on you. I knew something was wrong, you dont have that beautiful smile you used to have. Thank God I came in when I did. I nearly lost you”
“If you care so much why do you always avoid me and hang around Padme?” You huff
You hear him sigh before he brushes a strand of your dripping wet hair out of your face “because… I get tonge tied when I’m around you, you make my heart beat faster than it should. I always end up saying something stupid and its because I-I love you (yn). I love you so much and I’d be completely lost if you left me. So please promise you’ll stay, with me. I swear I’ll make sure you never feel unwanted and that you’re treated like the irreplaceable treasure you are” he pleads.
His words hit you like a ton of bricks. He loved you… not your sister…A smile begins to spread across your face and for the first time in a while, its genuine. You press your lips against his, almost saying thank you without even using the actual words.
He pulls back and stares at you with a gentle smile and adoring eyes.
“Now why dont we dry you up and you head back to dinner, I miss hearing your stories at the dinner table” he chuckles
You nod your head and he helps you off the floor and hands you a towell, letting you dry your face and hair off before the two of you return back to the dinning room hand in hand.
Fucking cute as shit
