there’s something about living life deliberately…wearing clothes that you actually want to and that you feel reflect you and your style not just because you’ve had them for years and don’t know what else you would throw on….listening to songs and creating playlists that excite you and represent your actual mood not just listening to songs that you’ve had downloaded for years that don’t make you feel anything special anymore…it’s VERY easy to stay with what you’re comfortable and it might take a bit of experimenting before you find what feels like a deliberate choice that reflects more of YOU but it’s absolutely worth the leap of faith you may have to convince yourself to make in order to stop feeling like a passenger in your own life

love is insane you feel like you're always subtly asking "do you still love me even though i'm flawed" and the answer just keeps being yes

You ever see a pretty dress, a well-organised notebook, a peculiar balcony or read one line of poetry and get the overwhelming urge to reinvent yourself

reading vincent van goghs letters and he keeps repeating the same thing.. that i may be of use in the world. he repeats it over and over, in questions, in musings, in desperation. how can i be of use in the world? (the most precious question!) how can i be of use in the world? (how can anyone?) reminds me of that mary oliver quote: to pay attention, this is our endless and proper work. if i were any more insightful i could say something profound here, but i think if we keep focused attention on the question, we may find a way to be of some good. like rilke meant. by loving the questions themselves, we may one day stumble upon the answer.

Quit waiting to be appreciated and tend to your own garden.

I dry out rivers when you yell at me, because all it takes for my paper bones to lit up is a match and some gasoline. And I know you don’t mean to make me cry but I should be fuelled by passion and not exhaustion. I’m sorry I’m this weak, I tried to stitch an armor to my skin but the wind blew it away and I shouldn’t have to wear a mask when there is nothing wrong with being vulnerable in the first place.

recharge, refocus, & restart. as many times as you need.