Love, Sex and Magic.

Wishing that if only I️ was able to make a phone call to Heaven, just to hear your voice again. I’ve been beating myself up at how “busy” I’ve been through the years. Knowing that you’ve needed us the most, I took for granted the moments we could have shared other than when i was a kid. Growing up, you taught me how to do it all on my own. But now, I️ would much rather be with you and be by you. Once I️ hit my accomplishments, i don’t want anyone else but you by my side. I know you needed us, wanted to be with us and loved us so much. I was just “too busy” being selfish and I️ have myself to blame. I just want to make you proud. I want to represent everything you’ve created the right way at all times. You’ve created your legacy through us and you will forever be in my heart.

Rick and I finally decided to combine both of our businesses into one. One code, one income (with a bigger contract level) and get awarded together. It’s no longer about who gets more, who does more and who wants more - we’re building eachother up.

There's always that one person who has to risk it all, give it their all and work hard in order to have something, make something or build something. Successful people don't go through life looking for hand outs, freebies or silver spoons. They lay it all on the line to one day reap the benefit of all the seeds they planted - and one day, it starts to manifest and grow.

I have been through hell and back. Sooner than later - giving handouts and allowing people to take me for granted for all the work I put in gets absolutely tiring. It's seems to be the common denominator. I allow people to literally squeeze out everything I have left in me and yet somehow I find myself empty handed every time. I constantly ask and pray to god to show me signs - to guide me and to mold me into the woman I'm meant to be.

And yet again, this is one of those lessons.