WolfTogChlo

Eastenders got to me tonight, the subject is so true. Especially this quote. So many people have frozen when moments happen which scare the hell out of you, I’ve gone though it... and I know exactly how it messes you up... you feel frozen and out of control. Sometimes you feel like you deserve it so you just keep quiet and try and stop the tears from falling....

This is such a controversial topic but it’s the truth. If a girl doesn’t say yes.... it’s a no.. if you carry on.. it’s raped.

HOWEVER it’s not just girls who go though this. Guys can and trans males and trans females have to, I know one who went though a similar thing to me, very similar... and my heart goes out to them as well...

My mind is never peaceful anymore, Everything is flaw after flaw. My heart is a heavy mess, my soul feels frozen inside my chest, I do nothing as tears flow from my eyes, and to the people, I care for all I say is lies. 

I want to see blood red marks again, feel the cold metal of sometimes what feels like... now my only friend, but a promise I made to someone who I’ve now lost... I still can't break it even if they don't care and their eyes now are full of mistrust.

I know i want to be happy, but all i see is darkness, so many poeple around me sappy and in love and all i feel is the harshness, of reality, of people who are blind to see, I'm close to giving up completely, I dont even know if i’ll last to the end of the year with my mind like this thats honestly my deepest fear. 

So I share this with somewhere i haven't been on in a while, i know it’s a huge emotionally heavy pile, but i know this is one place where my feelings can be shared, where work or family will never be aware.. I am lost, alone, i’m a stupid worthless freak... Not even friedns now do i want to speak, I’ve lost my passion for photos and art, as my heart still feels broken apart. 

Whilst I'm not the best with words of structure, I am one to share something when it blows me away. Emotional, compelling, captivating and enchanting are some of the words I'd use to describe this rendition of the Shakespearean classic which is Hamlet.

The use of language of Shakespeare's works i have heard a few times but never have I seen a better portray of the grief stricken revengeful hamlet than one of Andrew Scott.

The use of modern day twist while still keeping the language brought though a new and intriguing element to the performance, I being young in years have to admit some moments I did jump, laugh and cry in this mesmerising performance, three hours and four I five minuets have never passed so quickly or have meant so much to me.

The fluidity and passion of the acting itself was deserving of its standing ovation which occurred at the end, no matter what was said, the memory of this will be something people will treasure and value for years to come.

Truly beautiful, a piece of carefully constructed artwork brought together well by the actors who all as a whole work remarkably together, a spectacular bond between them all which is shown though the disputes and the violence and love which is the main part of the show.

I am honoured to of been able to watch such a master piece, even more so to meet lord hamlet himself afterwards for a quick hi, handshake, photo and autograph something for a lot of actors wouldn't do after so many night of the theatre running.

Even the way the stage is layout worked so well. It's obvious it was designed to the finest of detail just to make the show perfect no matter where in the theatre you are sat.

The connection which is brought from the stage to the audience was remarkable we all felt almost whole during the performance a collective group who though haven't ever met before in awe and captured by this work of art.

I will never forget watching this. The staff at the theatre as well should be thanked, with a disability which even though is mental i was throughly looked after though email in the weeks coming up to the show and on the evening itself they made sure that I enjoyed the performance and meeting Andrew after, to the greatest extent they could.  

If you have a chance, this is a much watch. Lovers of Sherlock will see Andrew Scott showing such raw emotion that it touches there, well at least mine inner soul and I know being whiteness to such a performance will always be a privilege, if there was tickets still (As live outside of London) I would more than happily watch it again and held with baited breath the same love and anticipation as the first time.

The night will never be forgotten and will be remembered as one of the best evening I've ever been fortunate to experience.

To finish this small review off on a personal note, my reason for going was for long standing admiration of Hamlet aka Andrew Scott, I have admired him and seen him as a role model for a while and to be able to see him perform in the flesh was a fantasy in itself, words can't describe the ecstasy I am still filled with for being able to see him do what he loves and to be able to meet him and shake his hand! Nothing will ever destroy that feeling.

Thank you Andrew, thank you Robert Icke, Juliet, Jessica, Angus and everyone else who performed.

If I was a review I would say:

Five Stars  Captivating and Remarkable - A must see if you have the chance!  

Chloe Ferne