Tragician.

I wish this dumb stupid app was cool again, I miss reblogging and queueing and trauma dumping on here damn.

Lately more than ever I’ve been feeling really shitty about that fact that I never got to experience a proper childhood/teenage years because I was raised as a girl and spent most of my childhood and teenage years alone because I didn’t fit in and felt awkward and weird in my body. Now that I always pass I feel weird because I’m 25 and I look like I’m about 16 and a big part of me wants to take advantage of that and go and do things that I never got to do like ‘sneak out’ and smoke weed in stupid places and skateboard around places and take beers out in my backpack to the woods or any place like the skate park or the lake because it’s fun even though I know it’s completely irresponsible and I’m far too old to do any of that stuff because if I did get caught I’d get arrested or something and my dysphoria is just fucking killing me lately. It’s weird because since shaving my head I’ve felt so good about it, My body is changing and I love it but with that comes an even more urgent need for top surgery and that feels so far out of reach still. Oh yeah, and my mums gonna die.