我該如何存在?

cette année le vent était violent, un peu malveillant. à la lisière de la forêt et de ses habitants dénudés, j’avais trop peu de force pour résister. pour te résister?

malgré l’odeur de l’été et la venue d'une certaine sérénité, mon coeur ne s’est pas résigné. j’ai envie de te tenir, t’appartenir, j’aurais pas dû te laisser partir.

alors même si cet azur prend sa place dans les cieux; et qu’à l’aube les oiseaux chantent cet air chaleureux, de ce bleu mon coeur demeure tinté j’ai toujours pas pansé mes plaies.

alors même si l’ouragan a cessé de souffler, il avait déjà tout emporté. pourtant, à tes côtés, j’avais réappris à respirer.

How tragic is it that SHINee will never get to do that with you, their precious and talented main singer, Jonghyun ?

It’s hard for me to believe it. SHINee was the first group I stanned when I got into K-pop. I loved them so much, still do, and they helped me through hard times. Now i’m older and no longer an unstable teenager, and I believe I became stronger partly because of their smiles and songs when life wasn’t treating me so well. I guess life wasn’t treating Jonghyun so well either for some time now, and most of us were blind to it because he hid it so well. He was so strong, for us his fans, his family and his friends. 

I sincerely hope your journey on Earth wasn’t only filled with sorrow. I hope that you experienced getting out of bed and not wanting to die. I hope that you didn’t spend all those cold and blue lonely nights on your own. I hope you had a shoulder to cry on. I hope you knew you had us behind you, a love army, and that it made you smile just thinking about it when you couldn’t find your way home.I hope you knew you were not alone. I hope you knew that life was worth it and most of all, I hope you have no regrets.

I didn’t know you personally, yet i can tell you’re part of the good ones. You know, the ones that make people keep faith in humanity. 

Living in such a conservative country and knowing very well that standing up for LBGT+ rights would cause you trouble, you still did so. Just looking at other idols’ posts on social medias, I can tell that you were a friend, a brother and a model to many. Now you’re an angel and you’ll keep on watching out for us.