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Sometimes I find life very hard but then I think about people who don't reflect and live in a storm of everything, perhaps even without loving parents, and then I think wow even venting is some kind of privilege I don't honour enough

Today was emotionally difficult , and I was biting my nails a lot, time for tumblr journaling escapism

I want to go back to the times where I did nothing but starve. It was everything for me. And it wasn't so tiring. It was euphoric. Kinda miss it

It's getting difficult to distract myself with Instagram. But at least I see funny things, it gives me hope. Or rather , illusion

Some one else feeling guilty for not being able to go deeper?

The only time I was talking stage with a girl I didn't knew myself and it all went wrong... Fck love fck love life

I feel weird but not like ctting myself which is an improvement ig

Gonna ctt myself again in the evening because I can't take it anymore and I hate it that everyone is normal and wants the best for me . It's all a lie it's all a lie I can't believe it why won't you let me self destruct why don't you want to see me do my worst??? I can't stand you assholes you always want everything to be perfect but nothing is perfect everything is just lies and fucked up shit everything is going to shits. Nobody really likes me nobody takes me seriously nobody nobody nobody fuck this world

I'm aware of how thin I am and I hate how proud I am of it

I've never even been assaulted, why am I so sad? I don't have the right...

I want to do something with this account , turn it into a meaningful diary or something, but what if I fail...? Weird thing to be scared of, and yet...

Unpopular opinion but I miss 2020 tiktok I think the style and dynamics were a banger and I really miss it