>:-(

i kinda dont give a fuck so im airing out my own dirty laundry

when i was in high school, i dated a boy online. around that same time is when i was most active with my blog. this boy was not kind to me, we were long distance and he was very untrustworthy. he would constantly bombard me with questions like: did you cheat on me todya? were you drinking at your friends house? when i had never shown him any actions that would make those questions valid. he also coerced me into having sex with him. saying that i wasn't allowed to take back my consent after i agreed to it. essentially saying i blue balls-ed him. i got out of that situation because i cried so much i threw up.

my blog was my safe place during that time, and i really cherished the little community i made on tumblr. i didnt feel close to the friends i had in person, so i often looked for connections online. it was comforting.

when i finally had the courage to break things off with that boyfriend, he would continue messaging me. making fake accounts on tumblr, twitch, instagram. it made me incredibly uncomfortable. tumblr was no longer my happy, safe space.

and basically after that i got really into league of legends LMAOO

sorry that was very therapeutic to write actually. anyways after that whole mess of a relationship, i was off tumblr, using discord, twitter, and REDDIT. got really into twitch streamers and watching like lcs and stuff. wasn't reading manga so much anymore, but keeping up with Horimiya of course. I used a lot of my graphic design skills from making pink manga posts and applied them to real life. I worked on my high school year book, did a marketing and graphic design internship placement. and then I took a media program in university.

once I moved away to university i totally stopped playing video games all together for a while. i was meeting so many new people and really exploring my extraverted side. i'm really grateful for my time in university. the amount of amazing friends I met at dorm parties or in classes fills me with joy. genuine connections with people around me, it's incredible.