COFFEE BREATH.

I hope all goes well for you and you get the part. I can imagine it’s nerve-wracking especially when it brings that memory back. I know I felt the same when I first auditioned for the company I’m apart of. I didn’t know how to dance and my group members love to remind me of the way I danced when I auditioned. Now they love messing with me on they way I dance slightly different compared to the rest of them. My cat doesn’t do anything like that, if anything she loves to run and hide so I always have to go get her when I go back home to visit. She’s usually really well behaved and sweet to others. I’m good! I’m actually in LA now for KCON and then later in October, we are going on tour again and get to perform our the songs from our new album which I’m excited about.

thank you so much, i also have my fingers crossed behind my back especially since i’ve really gotten on well with my latest acting coach, he’s really good with constructive criticism. yes! you’re from ateez, right? even though i don’t know much about your company, just delving into some kpop lately, the songs are too good. of course,, it wouldn’t be the same without the playful banter - i love that, and i bet your dancing ten times better than mine, so i call that talent. that’s so adorable! what’s her name? she sounds like an angel and i love her already. well, i hope you have an amazing time at kcon and congrats on the tour and album!? that’s huge, it must be so exciting.

​waiting on ‘results’ so to speak like that is always a bit nerve wracking. you’ll be fine no matter how it turns out though! you can’t count your debut, don’t let it scar you. the first time is always a little scary and you get better with practice that’s why you have to keep going! im working on a fashion line actually, so im excited and terrified at the same time. See you’re not the only one!

tell me about it, especially when you’re mixing  it up with someone (me) who is as impatient as they come. thank you, i appreciate you saying all that, it really is about trail and error most of the time. i do have an acting coach who has been a joy to work with so it makes me feel so much better, and comfortable. a fashion line!? now i can’t wait to see that, your utfits are always on point. was it something you always wanted to get into since you’re already in the fashion industry?

I’m just wishing you all the best, whatever happens for you. I also hope the audition went better with your self-tape than it did doing your first scene and hope it continues to be because that doesn’t sound like fun at all. Also sorry to hear about your cat and I hope a lesson is learned during time out. Um – I’m enjoying some free time to relax, unwind and chill after doing some shows since I won’t be on the road again til April. Aside from that, nothing major to report in the world of Avril.

thank you for the kind words! i hope so too, i will say i felt so much better about my self-tape, i would go as far to say it was my favorite out of all them so i have my fingers crossed for it. i just need to motivate myself to put myself out there more which is terrifying, but i’ll give it the good ol’ college try. it’s ok! she’s usually like this, a little drama queen by trade and she has calmed down significantly more now that i got her extra toys. relaxing is exciting! i bet your shows have been amazing, your newest album is amazing.

i’ll send a strongly worded letter their way. they need to get with the program; squishmallows for everyone! oh, how fun! holidays really are the best. if i ever run across anything “nightmare before christmas”, i’ll send it over. what is the most unique piece in your apartment right now? 

thank you so much, my voice finally feels heard. corporate’s not going to have a great day when i’m done with them - unless i get the squishmallows, of course. holidays are the best, there’s nothing more fun than sprucing up everything even if it’s just a little bit to get festive, it makes me so excited. oh, will you!? thank you so much, you may be my new favorite person. my most unique piece definitely has to be this soft, vintage lilac rug i thifted. i reverse searched it and it used to cost one grand. insane, right? it was definitely still a steal because it is gorgeous and was well kept.

i know how the nerves feel all too well. i’ve tanked multiple auditions in my life so i think of every single one as a learning curve. i started out in underground rap but i went to every audition in my area – i refused to give up and then i eventually got signed. my cat also destroys all of my things. i found her outside a while ago, she didn’t have any microchips and i was prepared to cry to make my boyfriend let us keep her. i never cry but i was ready on the spot. what is your cats name? how old? i am working on some new music, actually! it’s pretty exciting if i do say so myself.

i’m glad you did, you and the rest of the members are so talented, both as a group and individually. still trying to learn at least one dance routine of yours but i’ve come to the conclusion that i actually don’t have rhythm. crazy, right? i’m so happy you rescued that baby, i bet she loves you extra every single day. was she a kitten when you found her? my gremlin’s name is ruby, she’s two years old now and also one of the loves of my life - the other one being percy. you are!? now that is some exciting news. is it still in early progress?

I mean that is a classic movie, like you are not human and never was a child if you never saw it. The movie dont age too like always better the the older ones. Like it still has so much backing to it, Shrek is love,  Shrek is live right? Yes! But same here I know and still can dance too them. I mean I can toss myself in the air and stuff but I can do some of the moves. 

it is a classic movie, the humor in it is just a1. the third one was so-so, but the first and second ones? downright masterpieces. i even have a little shrek trinket from etsy, my prized possession. absolutely, shrek is both love and life, and also how terrified i was when i saw that video - did you by any chance? that’s perfect, so does that mean i can round you up for a bring it on group costumes for halloween? excellent.

Hey, man, that’s completely normal. Nerves happen to the best of us and it just means that you were excited about the project. Please keep me updated, if love to see you in something. Acting in front of people is also pretty nerve wracking, especially the first time so freezing up or being sick can happen to the best of us. Are you feeling okay about acting now? If you need any tips just let ya girl know and I’d be happy to help. Cats do what they want… I’m lucky I’m a dog person. As much as I adore Cats, they have this attitude where they’ll really ruin your life if they want to. How old is your cat? If it’s a kitten, maybe it’s just a phase? If it’s older, I’m sorry but your rug belongs to them now. I’m a busy girl, filming a new movie on location so I’m currently not home yet and won’t be for a while. Feeling a little homesick and I miss my dog a ton. I facetime my mom everyday so I can see Noon though which is nice.

thanks for the comforting words, it means so much. you’re not wrong either, i did start getting a feel for everything after the first scene - honestly, it wasn’t a great film, but it did make me realize how much i want to give acting a real go. i’m definitely feeling better about it, i could definitely cool down my nerves a little more but let me just say, i would never not want any tips from you. you are amazing at acting and that feels like an understatement. i’m definitely a cat person... but dogs are such a close second, they’re adorable. talking about cats that ruin lives and do what they want, it’s actually the older cat and not the kitten. he’s a little asshole, but i love him all the same. ooooh, what’s the movie!? and i sincerely hope you see your pup soon, i bet that reunion is going to be well worth it, when it happens... tell him kennedy loves him. what kind of dog do you have, if you mind me asking?

i’m currently still trying to recover from tour and it’s been five days, i managed to sell new shirts for my brand hii-def and they sold out in like an hour and i even packaged those bad boys myself in the warehouse. now, share with your new favourite musician and member of waterparks, what do you do to unwind after doing a lot work wise? also this is more of a break from tour, not an end yet. we’re touring more at the end of august doing shows with my chemical romance and then we have some september shows with blackbear. // @hfrpstarters​

congrats on the tour! and for rest, that’s pretty nifty. please let me know when those shirts are back in stock, might need to invest in one three times my size so my body can slowly sink into it. i appreciate the dedication though, the fact that you package just shows how much you care about the product you’re putting out. hi there new favorite musician and waterparks member, i like to sit in my apartment and read, entertain my cats with a laser pointer and sometimes i dabble in a little bit of art which makes me go into into fits of rage here and there, but is relaxig for the most part. oh, and sleep. my... chemical.... romance? don’t say that to me, i’ll have heart palpitations.

ur the best okay. now personally i..don’t know. i wish i knew, but all the super cool people do arena shows, so i just gotta get super cool somehow. it’s my favorite app and i’m on there way too much, i will never stop though. nice to meet you too! and we’re besties now, you can’t stop this.

no printer, just... facts. apart from the horrendous thing i just told you, that’s all you, promise.  my personal conspiracy theory about all this is that there must be people who don’t know that you are already super cool, but if you need someone to educate them, i’ll get to ordering my whiteboard and black marker so i could map it all out for them. how about we let the obsession consume us and one day do nothing but show each other our favorite tiktoks? i know! i get crazy with my plans but i just had to throw that out there. we definitely are, i just think we need to craft our bff bracelets to seal the deal.

i realized something utterly nuts today. in the year of our lord 2022, i’ve only spent about fifteen nights in my own bed and no wonder my cats are starting to lose faith in me. luckily, my ex is the best person and our joint-custody situation is working beautifully, but still. i guess no one ever said following your dream didn’t come with a prize. what’s the biggest thing you’ve had to give up for your career? does it feel worth it or you ever wish you could take back some of the choices you’ve made? hey, i’m Damiano or Dami and i’m missing home more than ever tonight. | @hfrpstarters​

in your defense my cats lose faith in my as soon as they eat their last piece of kibble, you would think i never feed them. i think they’re actually gaslighting me but that’s n issue i will touch on with them later. i’m really happy you have someone to give you that helping hand, in all honesty, i don’t know how i’d survive without seeing my cats as often, but i’m also a little on the dramatic side so maybe that’s just me. well, honestly, it’s so weird to think of what i’m currently do as a career, i do youtube and post a lot of content, always trying to put myself out there, but i think i miss just living up to my own expectations rather than everyone else’s if that makes sense. there’s so much pressure on me so i cower sometimes, but i wouldn’t trade for anything, i feel like it’s a package deal. hi, damiano! i’m kennedy, and i hope you get to visit home very soon.

What is one movie that you know like every word of it, or nearly every world. If you stared in it, it don’t count. But one that you watched as kid or just a lot growing up? I have one that I love and people are always shocked to hear it’s one of my favorite movies.  I’ll give you a line for the movie and you see if you know my movie I can quote by heart.   That’s all right. That’s OK! You’re gonna pump our gas someday!  That’s all right. That’s OK! You’re gonna pump our gas someday!

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this is going to expose me in so many ways, but i love so many movies and if i were to pick one that i could genuinely spout about each and every line - shrek. i never knew how i obsessed i was until i showed one of my friends the karaoke dance party and knew every single song as she looked at me in amazement - or judgement, but i’d like to think it was the first choice. i will also say, i definitely know that is bring it on, and i might know some of the cheer routines. i might.

three things i’ve learned in the month i’ve been thirty — number one: no matter how many times i tell myself i’m going to avoid burning myself with the curling iron, i still burn myself with the curling iron. number two: amazon should come with the surgeon general’s warning, because shit is addictive, i’ve never had such an eclectic group of online purchases wind up on my doorstep like the ones i’ve had these past few weeks. i mean, a mountable jar opener that hooks underneath a cabinet? an inflatable bar for the pool? knitting needles to start a new hobby out of the desire to do something tactile in my free time? calm it down, selena. resist the urge to not be a grandmother meets sorority sister. last but not least, number three: you’re never too old for the pencil paper calendar. as much as i love google calendar, if i don’t write it out, i don’t remember it. again, it’s the grandma in me. anyways, i’m selena, in case you never had the privilege of watching barney and friends growing up. tell me, what’s everyone been up to lately? any exciting purchases you’d recommend i give a go? things i should pencil in on the ol’ agenda? entertain me as i begin knitting this basic ass scarf. ( @hfrpstarters​ )

all those things you just told me are so valid. could relate to every single one of them, especially paper calendars, i have one of my own hung up in my room because i trusted myself to check my phone for whenever anything happened - i’d be doomed, it distracts me so much more. plus, paper calendars can have the cutest designs sometimes. i love it. i actually dreamed of being alex russo when i was growing up, but barney is the close second to me knowing you, always loved testing out my singing ability with a little ‘i love you, you love me’ on any afternoon. i’m kennedy though, doing the youtube thing at the moment. i had an audition about two weeks ago, so that was extra exciting... and purchases? now let me get into my amazon finds because i’m pretty sure some of the prime drivers know me. i’ve been kind of obsessed with redcorating my apartment and i wanted to start with my bathroom since i leave it shambles every day. i got a toothpaste dispensers that has a place for toothbrushes, a shampoo/conditioner/body wash dispenser and wait for it - a towel warmer, since i freeze every time i try to leave my shower. don’t know how helpful this was, but i love al of them.