Kill Every Monster

I find myself laughing sometimes as I sleep off the effects of the shift. Nothing about this situation is actually funny, of course. Some reckless wolf gets too hungry, just a little too far out of the woods, and I have to pay for it. Forever. That’s how the curse works, isn’t it? I could wretch at that word, “curse”. It isn’t what they should call this. A curse has intention, a curse punishes, a curse is deliberate. This was an accident. Happenstance. Now the consequence of that accident is that I spend the rest of my life with this monster inside me. Sometimes she’s in control, sometimes it’s me, but I can’t even enjoy the time I get to have as myself. How can you enjoy anything when you can feel a monster under your skin? How can you rest when you know she always comes back?

I hate her. I tried not to. I tried to connect with her somehow, through this body we now have to share. I tried to reach out to her, I’ve tried to calm her, comfort her, but we can’t hear each other and it’s no use trying anymore. After all this time, I stopped believing that anything I could say or do would change her anyway. All I feel for her now is hate.

Could you blame me, after what she does? She locks me away. She gets 29 beautiful, full days every month to live her life the way she wants. She swims and runs, celebrates birthdays and holidays. She stretches, and sleeps wrapped up in that boy's arms. I get one night. One. And I spend it locked in a cage. 

She calls herself “cursed”, to the few people she can even stand to talk about me to. She sobs as she tells them how hard it is to live with me, how I’ve “ruined her life”, and they sympathize with her. They coddle her. Absurd. This accident trapped me with her, not the other way around.

I'm really happy that people are liking this little story!!! I write a lot of werewolf related fiction, usually subverting like that one. This video is maybe the one I'm most proud of, and was produced by my absolutely amazing friends on @kempodcast

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