“There’s violence in my bones”
There’s violence in my bones. There’s fire that longs to burn. My body withholds it and stores.
There’s power in my voice. There’s darkness in my soul. It’s a combat with no choice.

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“There’s violence in my bones”
There’s violence in my bones. There’s fire that longs to burn. My body withholds it and stores.
There’s power in my voice. There’s darkness in my soul. It’s a combat with no choice.

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*** - August 26th
It brought him down Like he willinggly fell from the sky He burnt like thousand suns But angles turned their backs
Splashed on the ground He found himself surrounded by the dark Shadows swallowed all the lights It told him "you will never be found"
Bared skin showed broken bones Forevermore he's cursed to hide The scar so wide, but he clunk to hope There's still forgivness to bestow
He asked God to heal But the Mighty one chose to leave So he had to go the other way Voices guided him again
One day it rose him up The weight dispersed and he was glad He felt so light, the darkness couldn't stand Angles looked at him, but he turned his back
He found his place and things to be around He felt so high, people couldn't understand They scornfully laughed and cast him out After that he was never to be found
a place for us
All your classmates somewhere in a better place But you're still frozen in that paniced state Thoughts of a real life is in your head But you can't change what voices say
Come on, let's get away from here There's a place for us I hear Somewhere in between Where they can't reach Somewhere in between Where they can't see Let's get away from here
Silent as the grave you are Bury people and then bid goodbye Words as migty as they are Will never heal wound in your mind And from the dark voices start to sing
Come on, let's get away from here There's a place for us I hear Somewhere in between Where they can't reach Somewhere in between Where they can't see Let's get away from here
Citadel - July 21th
I loved you in silence The spell put on me by fear Citadel of solitude so high Bruises show I've tried
### - Semptember 12th
She opened up an aging wound
She dug her bloody fingers deep
Heart of stone taught me a lesson
She woke the devil in me

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my butterflies explode - July 24th
And when my butterflies explode I'm nothing but ashes left behind All my beauty blazed in one spark So someday I could be found
One Silhouette - July 10th
Two voices in dark room No promises, no worried looks Midas touch, pure high Sinking ships not this time
Emo - July 7th
Red tides came down Current pulling, water filled my lungs Joy vibrated in every cell of my body As I stumbled deeper into the abyss Eyes flew open wide As the sun turned into moon Darkness occupied my mind When water changed to blue
Lilac sipped into my lips Chains tightened around my neck And all my frozen limbs Became colder than evil around
Tiny beam of morning light Waves carried me ashore Storm has yet to calm Tides will remember forevermore
explosion - June 4th
In a brief explosion I saw stars divide All in slow motion Captured in the iris of your eye
A compliment - June 3rd
A complimnet A wound across my chest My hurt cuts both ways And deeper than any blade

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Black and Blue — April 9th
I’m still black and blue from the day I met you And I’m like the ground in the longest drought Hoping for a drop of rain but it’s clear now I don’t think you coming around
And you go about your day like nothing changed It’s obvious that you never cared I see you walking round with someone new I’m black and blue since day I said “I don’t need you”
I blame myself for letting you grow all over me Cause I know it will take ages to become clean I was young, came running back to you Black and blue, all I saw was you
You stood there in the hall waiting by the door I read that rueful look on your face But all was said and done for you Black and blue, I found strength to leave too
My tongue is a weapon
My body’s a lesson
While Sparks Still Fly
Your golden hair sipping through my hand The high degree heat with just a touch Your teeth made a mark on my neck The wonderous bliss etched in my mind Your body pressed close to mine It's like the sun will never go down Your soft lips whisper things that I dreamed But I know we will never be I'll follow your lead or fall from the cliff Just to relive this moment of high While sparks still fly
"Gleam Of Light"
Dark clouds gathered Storms rage And rain falls Warm grass turned cold Wind said not much "Soon your tears will dry" One gleam of light And it was enough
mad love
I burnt all your castles and turned them to dust I broke all your walls just to see you cry My kingdom in ruins and I'm coming undone My wail will echo and tremble the sky High at the top, but I'm torn down I wanted to save, but my hands stained in blood I gave them my all and I watched them change sides I couldn't keep fire that raged in my lungs Cold was the steel that shot through my heart Long was the wound that was dealt by my love

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My flesh has turned to dust My bones are bared and cracked My heart longs to stop My soul has suffered one more time
All my life I’ve been nothing but full of contradictions that left me scattered which basically disabled me from living life. I've never been depressed, but I was suicidal since 12. At that time and to this day I still feel like a burden. I had to deal with constant shyness and anxiety that made me dread any social interaction. I had no one to confine to and my parents mocked me for being the way I was instead of supporting me. And it's broken me down. On top of everything I had to deal with being isolated socially by my pears, suffering from low self-esteem, being used by people and repressing overwhelming emotions, the ones I’m not supposed to show. I wished I had enough strength to end me, but the body I'm caged in will do anything to prevent that from happening. And it's a constant battle which someday I'll happily lose.
Most times I'm just confused for why anyone even call it living when you're trapped inside a body you have no control of whatsoever. But ignorance is a bliss for majority of people, leftovers like myself are left to rot slowly with this thought circling back and forth. “Privileged” to be born gay and hear everyone's opinion about it. Constant hatred. And somehow I'm obliged to deal and live fine with the fact that most people on the street would gladly kill me without a second thought. I just want relief from all of it but there's no help. No one listens. And I dont give enough fucks to pull myself up. It’s disgusting to have to prove you’re in pain, but it’s more dehumanizing to have to prove you’re suffering from mental illness to receive help.