Kitty

My husband went out and got me flowers, a card, chocolates and candy.. but I’m having a hard time with him. He is the king of mansplaining. I just learned what that meant today. He’s condescending and bossy, and it drives me crazy. I tell him I’m fine but most of the time he intervenes with whatever I’m doing anyway. He got annoyed at me for making a mess on the counter even though I’m usually always the one cleaning everything.

Lately I’ve been more depressed than usual. I haven’t been doing as much cleaning. He helped with the dishes like once or twice. I feel like I want to be grateful for it, but at the same time, this isn’t fair if we are partners. He should always contribute to taking care of the house.

I’m tired of being talked down to. He doesn’t even finish his own laundry, clean up after himself or do dishes. He barks at my son for not always doing his chores when he doesn’t do his fair share either.

I’m feeling so done.

If my son wasn’t in the picture, I’d have been out of this relationship probably 2 years ago, when he first called me fat/ chubby/ chunky. But I feel like I don’t know if I can raise my son on my own. I feel stuck and lonely. My parents and sister are out of the picture and my brother lives in Mexico. I don’t have many friends.

My husband wants more kids. There’s no way in hell I want to have kids with him. I really don’t even think I would want any more kids even if I was with someone else.