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Why do people tell you not to kill yourself when life really isn’t fucking worth it? It’s isolating as hell people don’t really care about me. Life is so fucking expensive and if you can’t afford to live on your own then your stuck at home with a family who doesn’t even want you and constantly gives you Hell. Nothing is worth it. I’m never going to make it in this world because I’m not fucking good enough no matter what I do

Well noes as good a time as any to kms it’s not like anyone’s going to care lmao goodbye

I really don’t have anything holding me here nothing is worth this isolation

I feel completely worthless and unwanted literally all the time and I’m so tired of it. I’m tired of feeling isolated and like no one actually cares. I’m tired of feeling like people only pretend to tolerate me. Honestly people tell me not to kill myself but why shouldn’t I? Is there anything that’s actually worth living for? Everything is shit right now and nothing really feels worth it. It’s so exhausting pretending I’m happy when really I feel like I’m crumbling. I just don’t think I’m ever going to be enough and I never will be so might as well just spare myself and everyone else around me and just end things

Really want to kill myself nothing’s stopping me or keeping me from doing so so I might as well just get it over with. I’m nothing but a pathetic waste of space it’ll be better off for everyone

You honestly never cared about me if it was really so easy for you to spend months acting like I didn’t exist and then get pissed when I began talking about how hurt that made me...if you ever cared you would have made a better effort to communicate and not just shut me out with no explanation

What hurts the most is I literally just wanted to fix the distance between us. I was tired of feeling like I was the only one who put in any effort and I’m allowed to express that? It’s literally not vauging it’s just saying how I feel. you claimed I was “obsessively vauging about you” when I wasn’t...vauging is implying a specific situation that’s Obvious it’s about you and that could have been about literally anyone. Literally all of my friendships end up that way so it honestly was. I’m always the one who goes out of my way to reach out to people only to be ignored and cut off in the end and I’m tired of trying so hard. The only time you bothered to reach out to me you accused me of “attacking you” when all I was saying was I’m tired. You never gave me a chance to explain myself and you just blocked me and unfriended me on Facebook without even bothering to actually talk with me about anything and that’s what really fucking sucks. You go months without speaking to me if I don’t speak to you first and yeah it hurts. I get you have health problems lmao I do too but I still make an effort and I see you reaching out to other people all the time online. If you didn’t want to be my friend anymore I wish you would have just said so, so I didn’t have to spend the last few months wondering what I did wrong and hurting not knowing why you were acting like I didn’t exist.

I’ve always been invisible and I’m always going to be invisible. I’m just not capable of being wanted or loved by anyone everyone gets tired of me and the people still around only pretend to tolerate me lmao. I’m really never going to fucking be worth it. I really deeply want to end things and I think I’m ready. Now is just about finding the right time to do it

I don’t have any reason to be here nothing I do is ever going to be enough and I’m always going to be an unwanted burden to people so honestly what’s the point of living? I’m so fucking pathetic and fuck everything up. I try so hard and keep failing nothing even feels worth it anymore

Everyone gives up on me at some point I’ve never been worth it as I never will be I should just make it easier for myself and end everything

I want to kill myself and I feel like I’m finally ready. I have absolutely nothing to live for, I’m never going to amount to anything I’m never going to be enough. I’m tired of trying so hard everyday only to keep failing at everything. I don’t think I was ever really meant to live this long. I’ve never been able to imagine a future for myself. I’ve never been able to imagine myself being happy with someone in a healthy relationship with my own family. I’ll never have that. I don’t deserve it. I’m tired of spending every day feeling my hears sink and like I’m ready to break. There’s really no purpose for me to be here if all Im doing to do is continue to let people down and push them away. I’m sorry but, goodbye

I must have never mattered to you for you to just cut me off without even bothering to try and fix things. Did you ever even care bout me at all? The second I started admitting I felt like I was the only one putting effort into it you accused me of vauging you and were quick to say that I was insulting you and that fucking hurt. You never bothered apologizing or asking if you could fix things you just accused me and left

No ones going to notice or care once I do kill myself its better off for everyone