Keepin Space Weird

i am Alex. I am Saturen

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The Saturn Dibs Holder

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Im usually a pretty anxious person when it comes to making noise. I would be so terribly nervous performing a song on stage... But i decided tonight to sing out songs that i always found to be really lovely to sing from within my apartment room. My window is open, and i can hear people talking outside... Im sure i can be heard... But i kept on singing, even when i knew i got off the original beat or starting singing notes a little too high for my ability, because i wanted to see where the song ended. I wanted to sing magic into the air, and i didnt want my nervousness to keep me from trying. And part of me felt how i do whenever i whistle out to a quiet patch of woods, only to be delighted in having dozens of the aerial residents to chime in too <3 i love birds so much. I think i can understand partly in how our ancestors interacted with the earth. With the birds, hearing them be willing to be relaxed and singing helps know everything is ok. Birds are pretty much the first to fly away from danger. If they're gone, then its time to go. I think humans used to be connected to the cycle of life <3 we just sadly fell out. The human species really only interacts with itself, while everything else gets the whole world to interact with. Imagine being a raccoon, completely unimpressed by the humans concept of "clothes" and "table manners" and just goes about is business being a raccoon and doing what it does, cuz wtf not?

I finally got the eye to be juuust the right style for what im drawing.. Only to visually zoom out and realize that i put it in the wrong spot, both in angle and height T_T ill show the finished thing when im done, im hoping to make a very cute little comic ^w^

Do you think sometimes tall people slouch because their head feels too heavy for their neck? Are we becoming primatal giraffes? Do tall people even notice it?

As of late, I have been sincerely considering the idea that I might have Autism, and so I've been trying to find local resources to see whats available for adults (not much :( as it turns out. Not near me anyways) In all this, I wound up taking some psychology tests that are supposed to be pretty good indicators. First thing of note is that my tests are scoring consistently high, and they seem to dredge up a good amount of memories that im now looking at in a new light.

Did any of you actually have a fear of darkness as a kid? Or was it more so anxiety from the sudden difference in brightness? Maybe our little kid eyes werent adjusting to the dark quick enough, so we got a lil spooked.