Kebearrr

STAY TUNED. 4.10.17

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Wildin' (at Wynn Las Vegas)

I feel like I don't belong in the moments I come across. Everyone's got a conversation to spark up and I'm just here, sitting quietly twittling my thumbs being ackward af. What make it even worse is that you, the one person I look to bring me in to the conversation choose to ignore me.

I hear and see every little move you make quietly not saying anything and analyzing your actions. When I catch certain word it makes me think even harder and I create this negative image in my head.

You know I get jealous super easily, yet you expect me to be okay with it? I'm the type of guy that gets jealous even if you hug a guy a type of way. In the sense my feelings take over and my anger comes out as blind rage.

Making me look like a fool.

Ever get that feeling of being left in the dark? When everyone around you knows what's going on but you. Call it stuck between a hard place and a giant rock. This constant not knowing what's gunna happen next is slowly withering away my positive mindset.

I can't help but get the gut feeling that I'm losing something that I'm set out to get. Gaining ground and slipping all the way back down to the bottom as soon as I'm about to grasp the edge to pull myself over. Maybe it's the constant over thing and the belief that I'm not good enough, or maybe it's because I don't think that I deserve you. On the other hand I want you. And that's the part that hurts the most. Not the fact that everything I try for eventually gets overridden someone else's actions, it just sucks thinking that your effort is not good enough to keep your attention.