K.D.J.B

Its been a long time sense ive written anything on here cause you know no one uses this app/website like they used to say but true I was just going through my instagram finally and archiving and deleted stuff i should have years ago and i remembered i had a cool blog on here so i started reading some entries and i realized how much ive grown and ventured away from my old way of thinking im on a complete new path of understanding what a healthy relationship is and how to avoid bad habits and patterns. One of my terrible patterns was obsessing over people im getting to know. I'd have thing big idea of who i thought they were going to be and how we'd end up and it was so unhealthy because 100/100 the would be nothing like the person i imagined them to be. Once i finally realized why i was doing that i finally started recognizing signs so i could avoid making the same mistake and repeating my bad habit. I havent dated in a while because i dont settle. I'm also using all of my interactions as learning experiences right now. So im not really looking to date im kinda letting things play out and teaching myself how to handle it correctly. I'm spent alot of time getting to know myself and trying to grow as a person that honestly im not sure if i could even maintain a relationship because i have so much more work i want to do on myself before bringing someone new in my life. I could go on and on but basically iy was just nice to know ive truly grown as a person. I have alot more work to do but im proud of where i am.

The other day I was hanging with this girl I’m interested in and we were talking about the things we don’t like about ourselves I said I don’t like my boobs and she said why and I said because the sit to low .. she was like they don’t look that way to me and i didn’t care if she looked it wasn’t sexual we were having a real convo.. she said they look nice and I said thank you but I’m also wearing a bra and she was like okay well if it’s not weird show me and I’ll tell you what I genuinely think about them so I took off my bra and now at this point you can see them through my shirt she was like there’s still nothing wrong with them .. I said how is that they sit low she was like I don’t think they sit low at all everyone’s boobs are different and yours are perfect I said your sweet but idk I just don’t like them then she said can I see what they actually look like I hesitate for a while and she was like I’m not being weird I genuinely want to help you love your body so I showed her and her face light up like a Christmas tree lol I said well 1-10 and she looked at me and said 10 there’s nothing wrong with them at all you are beautiful don’t sell yourself short I put my shirt down and ever sense that day when I look in the mirror I smile at myself and look at my boobs in the mirror in a completely different way .. I like them now