welcome to my internet house

i really need to stay away from everyone and or kill myself soon because i know with everything wrong with me i will end up raping someone and not realizing that thats what i did until after ive already hurt them

the other day i learned my grandma was apparently shocked to learn that i had a job where i had to speak to people and i was like offended at the time but she was right

itsawesome that i get to just be the weird annoyance who everyone has to put up with my inane unwanted additions to the normal human conversation for forever

it’s kind of fascinating that people will cling onto ftm dave despite the thematic dissonance of it because there literally is a ftm dave in homestuck. his name is sollux

i kind of want to try getting into making amvs because i really like the process of picking out homestuck panels for song lyrics but i have fucking hated and been miserable every time ive attempted to edit before which is making it really hard for me to want to try starting

remembering when i saw someone writing the lyrics as "she hopes im cursed forever to sleep on a twin sized mattress in somebody's 10 acre basement my whole life"

there really just isn’t a single reason for me to be here