Because why did i let myself believe that he was going to leave her after sending me a very cryptic text message? After telling me he loved me, after calling me babe? Because that's what he does. He knows exactly how my brain works, he knows that if he says the right things it will get to me and I'll do anything for him. Because at that time I would have done anything for him. Because I was worried. Because I loved him.

Why did I send him $430 and pay the bills he was supposed to pay? Why did I leave myself with no money for a week? Why am I so quick to forgive?

I trust too easily and I love too hard. I leave myself with nothing so he can do whatever he wants and not feel the repercussions of it all. I hate myself for believing him. I hate myself for trusting him, even after all of the lies he's already told me.

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