im slowly starting to feel safe again now that ive fully cut my abuser off im just hoping he lets me keep that feeling lmfao its been a trip. every time ive tried to cut him off more and more in the past theres been a reaction so im still preparing for the worst in the back of my mind but trying to let myself have this moment. and this time i took it seriously enough to protect myself fully which is like i somehow STILL didnt expect the reactions of support understanding and empathy from other people bc of how severe things were and how deep he got into my head normalizing the abuse and victimizing himself but i hardly even have to explain myself to anyone for the picture to be crystal clear its such a relief.