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I agree with "Death is the mother of beauty" from The Secret History by Donna Tartt. Life is beautiful bcs it's finite. If we were immortal we wouldn't value/appreciate life as much.

henry smeared the dirt across his white shirt during bunny's funeral... achilles poured the dirt over his head in mourning of patroclus...

Im a simple girl, really. If he wears glasses, studies classics and is in love with greek? Sign me in. Smokes and has a weirdly intimidating calm aura? I'm wet. Has pale coarse skin, and he MIGHT be handsome had his features been less set, and has scar that runs in through his eye and Is over 6 feet carries an umbrella in hampden? Holy fuck yes!

the way people seem to completely miss the point of the secret history and end up romanticizing the elitism and narcissism the book is criticizing is so ironic and honestly amusing it should honestly be studied

richard: ah, yes, gay people. see, i am myself not gay. i have no inclanation at all towards men like that. i do not have an issue with gay people, would be quite hypocritical of me if i did but i am not at all gay. not in the slightest bit. in fact, i am very attracted to women. i am utterly and irrevocably in love with camilla who i do not know anything about other than the fact that she has beautiful masculine legs and a masculine haircut and wears her quite charming brother, charles's clothes. charles is rather handsome too. i have once or twice fantasized about camilla and charles but that is normal and it is of course only happened because i am attracted and in love with camilla. and while yes, i have kissed a man before but it only happened because he kissed me and i kissed back on reflex. i did not want to kiss back as i am not attracted to francis, though he is a very attractive gay man. of course, i know he's gay, i've always known. it is easy to tell, since i am acquainted with homosexuality, though not too closely as i am not gay. i have only kissed francis because i am used to women kissing me first and those times, i would kiss back so i merely had the same reaction. it was the first time a man kissed me after all, and i was quite caught off guard. besides, it was quite a stressful time in my life so even if that kiss lasted longer than it reasonably should have, that only happened because i was glad to use any distraction i could get. there were no feelings involved as i am not gay and i do not have feelings of those sorts for francis. if i was gay, which i am not, i would most likely be in love with henry, truthfully. i admire henry greatly. he is a handsome and great man who i feel very fondly for though of course, i am not in love with him because i am not gay. the one i am in love with is camilla, evem if i am fond of all the members of the greek class. except bunny who is ugly and annoying and i'm glad he's dead. anyway, i am not gay

My favourite part in The Secret History is when Richard gets high at a party and learns basic empathy

The main difference between Bunny and Henry is not class, intelligence, or social standing, but that Henry manages to serve cunt while being one, and Bunny just is one

shoutout to Richard Papen I, too, would rather freeze to death than, GOD FORBID, ask for help and possibly be annoying and insufferable with my very basic very normal needs

thinking about Marty Mcfly and how he doesn't know anyone. That's not his mom and dad, his brother and sister, his friends, his girlfriend. And worst of all, I think, is that's not his doc brown. The doc brown he knew never came back to life or narrowly avoid death. This doc brown, the one who stays traveling through time with his wife who should have died, who did die, he never knew twin pines mall or the mcflys being an unhappily married couple. He doesn't know most of what made Marty Marty. Marty Mcfly saved doc and his parents, but now he's alone.