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just rewatched s3 ep17: "in heat", and I have a lot to say:

as much as I love will and jj, by all creative writing choices made this episode, that conversation with will at the end should've led to jj coming out. people talk about emily a lot, but no, jj is one of the most queercoded characters I've ever ran into.

the expirence of the hidden relationship you're not exactly ashamed off but you also wanna keep all to yourself because sharing it means dealing with other people?

having your partner upset at you because they feel you're ashamed of them?

the awkward conversation with emily about will's looks?

those are expirences almost every queer person I've met had. including me.

the voice crack when she's analyzing the unsub and talking about being queer and freedom to be yourself?

will telling her he doesn't care charles was gay he just wishes he told him so he could've supported him?

how deeply affected and understanding jj is with this whole case?

having all of these happen in a case that is specifically about queerness and suppressing queerness?

and that's just the first time a case dealing with queer themes that affected her specifically. It does, in fact, happen again.

s8 ep15: "broken" -

the team run into a convertion camp within their investigation, and the moment jj is faced with it her focus gets put on shutting it down.

while all of them are shocked and upset by it, jj is angry in a way that seems so personal.

she's affected by it in a way non of the others are, and she makes it a point to make sure the police gets involved as fast as possible when everyone else were ready to just skip forward and leave it alone.

her relationship with her mom and growing up:

jj describes feeling trapped in a small town. saving up and working her ass off through high school so she can get into college as far and as fast as she can.

she felt so trapped, that after first leaving she never ever came back.

she grew up in a small town where everyone is all up in each other's business and no one can be themselves.

she also personally mentions it in north mammon, and scolds the parents for fighting, specifically in relation to one of the parents hiding being a homosexual man.

again, it's personal for her. she seems angry, personally so.

s14 ep12: "hamelin" -

"one daughter who never saw seventeen and the other..."

there's a stop, they're giving space for implications. her mom looks disappointed and sad, she's clearly judging in that way only a mother can. she has something to say but she can't, because it's too much.

"the other what, mom? the other what?"

jj clearly knows what her mom wants to say. she looks like she's heard it a million times before, like every conversation they have somehow ended with the same complaint.

"..who left. went away, and stayed away."

DEMONOLOGY x SUN BLEACHED FLIES