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Don't know anything either. I know her account got termed b4, but it was smth she herself did. I assume this was the case, but she isn't back so Idk either :/

Haalingham.

I have lost to the sauce. I am in TOO DEEP. HAALINGHAM GIRLIES. I AM HERE. I AM FREE.

I cast happiness and love. BE HAPPY!! SMILE!! I LOVE YOU!!!

I was gonna put a corny ‘adhd is ok!!’ gif yknow like those ‘gay is ok!’ gifs….but idk if it’ll make it worse or give you a giggle so uhh…hugs and kisses 🫂

For me? 🥺🥺🥺🥺

Yeah. It's honestly crazy because the earliest and first symptoms of adhd I can remember and that have gotten worse as I got older is my severely low and fluctuating social battery. Another symptom that started when I was 11 was procrastination. It was mild at first, but now it actually is starting to affect my life and studies. Generally, I'd consider myself an introvert but a social one. I like talking to people, but I need time to rest.

When I was younger, it was honestly worse cuz I hardly had any friends and got bullied a lot so I never really learnt how to talk about my feelings or articulate them. I made my first real friends at sixteen years old. You can imagine how horribly awkward I was. Now, my brain literally moves too fast for me to keep up and socialising is a horrible chore at times. Not to mention six hours of school and forced socialising—it literally drives me insane. I've literally began to going to the toilet during periods just to get my head straight and it didn't even click with me until yesterday and today when I talked to my mama about it.

Honestly, it's pure torture right now, but it is what it is. All I can do at the moment is go to the doctor, get myself a psychiatrist and a proper diagnosis. All of this has given me a massive headache because—in my country—things like autism, ADHD, audhd, and other mental disorders are seen and treated as taboo. It's like a 'oh my gosh, how did that happen? None of their family members have it'. I don't quite have that way of thinking the way my parents do bcuz I know it's common, but it's more of how I didn't expect me, a healthy person, ever to have something so serious when my brother is normal. (Not to mention that the average person here and the average person I have met throughout my entire life doesn't have these things. Mental disorders like autism and adhd are extremely uncommon as far as I know.)

I didn't grow up like this, but thinking back on everything I've gone through, I likely have been since my early childhood and it's currently reaching a bad peak rn. And it makes me feel not normal. It's less in an insecure way and more of an alienated way, because—to my knowledge and in my household—I'm the one with this issue. I'm not like my family and in a bad way. That can be difficult to reconcile because I feel misunderstood by the people I love (and I don't blame them one bit). Overall, it's been a really difficult few days for me rn especially with school and all.