Excuse Me? (Loco x Reader)
Requested by anon. This is a collaboration I did with the lovely @lady-une which is why I didn’t post yestrday cause of different time zones but we pulled through and I hope you enjoy what we wrote (honestly it’s mostly her, so go and check her out cause she made me feel like a shitty writer). Enjoy!
Being with Hyuk-woo was bitter sweet, it was like living with two different people wrapped in one body.
You met from Jay, you were a trainee with him back in the JYP days, but gave up quickly and became a pretty good actress, you were not a household name yet like others but people knew you and your work, you did good for yourself.
Jay had invited you to play in one of his m/v's that he did with Reddy, everything went well and you had to go over the AOMG building in order to see the final product. You were very excited about it, you always wanted to be a the main star in one of his m/v's, he usually did some very provocative concepts so you kindly declined some of them to save your reputation, Korea was very strict about those kind of stuff.
As you walked in the room greened by white walls and bright lights, it was very aesthetically pleasing you had to give that to them. Jay approached you with open arms and gave you a big bear hug like he always did, you and him had reached that level of comfort that you were not even close to attraction, yes he was a beautiful man and you were a very attractive woman but it was 100% platonic between you too.
"Hello little girl, how are you?"
"Good how about yourself? you smell good"
You had a think about different odors, you always made sure to smell amazing and you enjoyed the sense of others smelling nice and clean.
"I'm good and thank you. Let me introduce you to the others"
Hyuk-woo introduced himself last, he was shy and his voice was barely heard, which to you was extremely adorable. You shook his hand and smiled at him, he could swear he fell in love right then and there.
You were so used to men being cocky and a bit of a douche bags, that Hyuk-woos silence and cute quirky attitude was extremely refreshing and almost addictive.
After that you made it your mission to be around him, your attraction towards him was so strong that you even asked Jay if he was single and what you should do to win him over. You were the type of girl that didn't like playing games, what you wanted you would go after it fair and square, so why back out now?
That was your nickname for him, it was cute and way too sappy but hey! a girl has to do what a girl has to do, also you loved how much he blushed when you called him that.
"i'm good, i would be better if you went out with me"
He whipped his head towards you so fast that you swore he could break it right then and there, it was almost out of a comedy and of course you giggled at his expression.
"Come on, we've been flirting for a while now. Just go out with me already"
"Good, I'll ask Jay when he can free your schedule, see ya babe"
That was the start of your world wind romance, the two of you were inseparable for the most part, save for the times your schedules didn’t allow it. Your relationship wasn’t perfect, no relationship ever was. The two of you would have little fights here and there about stupid things, like leaving the toilet seat down, picking up the dirty laundry, or who’s turn it was to do dishes. No matter the fights by the end of the night you two would always kiss and make up, that’s what you loved about him. He hated going to bed angry, he said he didn’t want to live his life with regrets. You too felt the same way, you didn’t want to live with regrets and wanted to live life to its fullest potential.
Lately though a bit of regret has been slowly seeping into your life. You were casted in your first prime drama as a supporting role, this was your first major role that would give you all the screen time you ever wanted. You had been getting up early and spending most of the time out on site for your drama often coming home super late at night.
Thankfully Hyuk-woo was on tour with AOMG up until wrapped up filming. You two would send quick texts as much as possible and you really tried to video message him but the only time you had to do that was at night and it didn’t always work with him. You were getting frustrated because you missed him and only wanted to be in his arms again, but you told yourself that eventually you two would come together again.
Finally you wrapped up your drama and Hyuk-woo was set to come home from his tomorrow, the excitement running through your body had you on cloud nine. You originally wanted to just go right home and to call him and talk over the phone but you ended up at the wrap party for the drama.
You were laughing and sharing drinks with the cast and crew when suddenly the bell over the bar sounded and you turned to see who showed up late when walked the man you wanted to see the most.
Standing from your seat you ran up to him and threw your arms around his neck.
“What are you doing here?”
you whispered in his neck while you took in his scent.
“I wanted to surprise you, your manager said you were here and I figured I would come join you.”
Pulling back you smiled before grabbing his hand and leading him to the table you were just at. You take the seat you had just vacated you watched as Hyuk-Woo took the one across from you. You took the moment to introduce him to the writer, director, and your cast mates. He bowed and they welcomed him to the party.
Everything was going well and you couldn’t be happier. Lee Geun-suk who was the lead male in the drama grabbed a bottle offering to pour Hyuk-woo a drink which he excepted before he then turned to you and poured you a drink as well.
The three of you clicked glasses before downing the bitter drink. You could feel the heat creep up your neck and into your cheeks, you knew you were reaching your limit and should stop drinking soon.
Everyone around you was pretty buzzed leaving Hyuk-woo the soberest person there. Suddenly an arm belonging to Lee Geun-suk found its way around your shoulder pulling you into him.
“I want to congratulate y/n on finishing her first major drama! Y/n I know you were super nervous starting out, I am happy you took my advice! This drama wouldn’t have been the same with you, I hope I get the chance to work with you in the future.”
You smiled as he finished his statement slurring out the last few words, you pulled away and thanked him for his kind words.
Looking across the table you caught your boyfriend glaring at the arm wrapped around you before turning his gaze to you and lifting and eyebrow. Turning your gaze to everyone you thanked them for everything before excusing yourself wanting to go home as it was rather late. Both you and Hyuk-woo stood from your spots before stepping back and bowing before saying your goodbyes.
Arriving back at your apartment you slowly took off your shoes and jacket feeling a bit of dizziness come over you. Swaying on your feet you grabbed onto the wall for support before.
“Did you drink a lot tonight?”
“I didn’t think I did but I guess so.”
Holding onto your arm Hyuk-woo helped you to the bedroom before laying you down in bed and going to the dresser pulling out a sleep shirt. He then helped you change out of your clothes before covering you with the blankets. Snuggling deep into the bed you whispered, “thank you” before falling into a deep slumber.
Over the next week you were super busy with promoting the drama and spent most of the day out of the apartment doing interviews and recording promotional ads, of course was also there as he was the male lead.
The interviews were mostly innocent but every now and then you two would get comments about how well your on-screen chemistry was. You would smile and blush while you covered your face while he would smile and nudging you with his arm winking at you.
Anytime you have a free day you would stop by the studio to bring treats and snacks for the guys. They were always grateful and congratulated you on your drama. Even though there was only two episodes out so far, the viewer ratings were high and you felt proud.
At night, you would always make a point to have a warm meal waiting for Hyuk-woo when he got home from work. You tried to wait up for him every night but always ended up falling asleep on the couch only to wake up in your bed the next morning.
Getting ready for the last day of your promotions you turned to Hyuk-woo who was still lying in bed trying to sleep a bit longer.
“What would you like for dinner tonight, I only have an interview today and then I thought I would go do some grocery shopping. So let me know what you want for dinner and I will make sure to get it. Do you guys need anything for the studio? I can stop by and pick some things up and drop them off on the way home.”
Hyuk-woo only moaned before rolling to face away from you and pulling the covers over his head. Standing from your spot in front of the dresser you let out a sigh before walking to the door and stopping to turn to him.
“If you think of anything please let me know. I love you and will see you later tonight I hope.”
The interview didn’t last that long which left you pretty much the whole day to get some things done. Hyuk-woo never texted you so you made a quick call to him to inquire again about dinner. His only response was “whatever” before saying he had to go and hung up on you. Staring at your phone you felt like something was wrong, making a mental note to ask later you took off to the grocery store.
Like most of the nights lately you ate dinner alone, making sure to package the chicken pasta you had made so that Hyuk-woo would be able to warm it up whenever he got home. Instead of waiting up you went to bed making sure to leave a sticky note on the table to let him know dinner was in the fridge.
The next morning you woke to find him quietly sleeping next to you. You smile as you scoot closer putting an arm around his waist as you nuzzled your face into his back taking in his scent. It had been too long since you were able to wake up and just relax with him in bed. Suddenly Hyuk-woo turned before pulling you into his hold and wrapping his own arm around your body. You heard him let out a comfortable sigh into your hair as you laid with your face now comfortably in his chest. Wrapping your leg around his hip you pulled him as close as you could get him as you began to lay light peppered kisses on his chest making your way to his mouth. The two of you hadn’t been intimate in a very long time and you missed the connection. Just as you were to deepen the kiss Hyuk-woo pulled away untangling himself from you before getting out of the bed.
“Nothing, I have to get ready.”
“But you normally don’t go into the studio until around noon. I was hoping we could spend some time together, I miss you.”
“I have a busy day, I can’t always be here when you want me too.”
You watched with a surprised expression as he grabbed some clothes before going into the bathroom to shower and get ready. You had no idea where his attitude was coming from, this was so unlike him.
Throwing the covers off you got out of bed and went into the kitchen to make him some coffee and a light breakfast, wanting to make sure that he at least had something in his stomach. Opening the fridge you were surprised to find last night’s dinner still in there untouched, grabbing the items for his breakfast you close the door. Just as you were putting the lid on his to go cup Hyuk-woo came out of the bedroom and walked over to the door putting on his shoes.
“I made you some food, please take it with since it looks like you didn’t eat dinner either.”
“I’m not hungry.”
Walking out the door he leaves you stunned, the man never turned down food let alone twice within 12 hours. There was something wrong for sure and you needed to figure out what it was. Once he left you ate the food you had made before cleaning up the mess and the food from last night that sat in the fridge.
With nothing scheduled today you just hung around at the house cleaning and putting away laundry. You tried to call him throughout the day but were just sent to voicemail. You thought of going right down to the studio to hash this out but decided against it not wanting to embarrass him in front of the others.
That night you refused to allow yourself to fall asleep until after you settled this with him. With a fresh pot of coffee you sat on the couch watching the tv drinking the hot liquid while you waited for him to get home. Just as you felt like he was never going to come home you heard the musical sounds of someone entering the passcode in before the door opened. Looking at the clock you noticed it was 1am. Standing from the couch you walked over to the door and watched him take his shoes off.
Hyuk-woo stood quickly with his hand going to his chest,
“You scared me, what are you still doing up?”
“No, we need to talk. I need to know why you have been blowing me off and getting an attitude with me.”
“Not now y/n, it’s late and I am tired.”
“If not now then when? No I want to get this out so we can move on.”
“God cant you just leave this alone?”
“No, I am sick of feeling like this. Tell me what is going on? Is there another woman?”
“What? How could you say that?”
“I’m sorry, I know you would never cheat on me but I just feel super anxious because you are acting so strange.”
“If anyone should be questioning the other of cheating it should be me!”
Taking a step back as if you were just struck you couldn’t believe what he had just said.
“I don’t think I did, it sounds like you were low key accusing me of cheating on you?”
“Just tell me y/n, how long has this been going on? Is this why you got that role? Did he get it for you? Were you ever going to tell me?”
“I have no idea what you are even talking about!”
“I know you’re cheating on me with him!”
Stumbling back you moved away from your boyfriend until you hit the kitchen counter. You reached back for the counter needing the support as you felt like your legs were about to give out.
All you could do was stair at the man you loved as he hurled insult after insult in your direction, accusing you of the most heinous.
“How could you y/n, you knew how much I loved you!”
“How could I? How could you! How could you ever accuse me of cheating on you! Never in a million years would I ever think of doing that to you! I love you! How could you doubt me and question my loyalty to you?”
“Don’t lie to me, I see the way you two look at each other! I saw how he held you close at the wrap party! It all makes sense if you think about it, all the short messages from you and phone calls. You were just too busy with him to even think about me!”
“I would never! I was busy Hyuk-woo, it’s not like I could stop filming just because I needed to hear your voice! This was my first major drama, you knew how important this was to me! I wanted to make a good impression on everyone and show them that I could do this! How could you ever think I would be cheating on you!”
“Then what about all those interviews, I know I am not the only one who sees the way you two look at each other. Even other people comment about your chemistry.”
“We are acting! It’s our job to make people believe there was something there but there isn’t! I only have eyes for you, I have only ever loved you!”
“I don’t believe you! Let’s just end this.”
“Fine, then don’t. Just know you will regret this.”
Turning around you storm off to your shared bedroom grabbing a bag from the closet before you start throwing in clothes and then move to grab toiletries before grabbing your laptop and chargers. When you enter the living Hyuk-woo is sitting on the couch looking at the tv that was put on silent. Tears flowed from your eyes as you watched the man you love sit in silence not even trying to stop you. Putting on your shoes you open the door and pause hoping and wishing he would stop you and tell you he was sorry but he didn’t. Walking out of the apartment was the hardest thing you ever did, but you couldn’t be in the same room with him with how he was treating you.
That night you got a room a hotel, thankfully your manager knew some people and got you into a room without people noticing. Now was not the time for a scandal to start, that would only fuel the fire of the dating rumors that circulated you and . You barely slept at all, finally falling asleep from exhaustion due to how much you cried. The sun was already coming up at that point and it only caused you to have a stressful sleep dreaming of Hyuk-woo and happier times. When you finally woke up it was midafternoon, your manager had come to check up on you. He didn’t pry into your personal matters and only asked how long you needed the room and if you needed anything. You thanked him for his concern but told him you would be fine and he left soon after.
The rest of the day you spent in bed just looking out the window, you watched birds fly in the sky and watch the sky turn colors with pinks and purples splattering around only wishing your emotions were as calm as the sky. Soon the sun set and the colorful sky was replaced with darkness and twinkling stars. Your phone hadn’t rung once, you had it on the charger wishing he would call and apologize, fearing this was actually it. A new waive of tears came on and your body rocked with sobs. How had things gotten this way? Suddenly the bell for the door rung and you jumped up rushing to the door swinging it open hoping he had showed up but only saw Jay standing there. Stepping to the side you allowed him entry, shutting it and walking to the chair across from the one he sat down in.
“How are you holding up?”
“I don’t know, the man is blind y/n. Any of us could see how much you love him, we all know you would never do that.”
“But he thinks that. Did I not love him enough? Did I not show him that enough? I must have done something to make him doubt me!”
Tears fell like small rivers from your eyes as you crossed your arms over your chest trying to hold yourself together and as you cried. Jay stood walking over to you before getting on his knees and pulling you into a hug, you wrap your arms around him grasping onto the back of his shirt and cried your eyes out until there was nothing left. When Jay pulled away he brought a handkerchief out to wipe your eyes and you noticed the big wet spot on his silk shirt.
“I’m sorry Jay, I ruined your shirt.”
“Don’t worry about it, this shirt means nothing. Look I know you love him and I know deep down he loves you too. I think this tour really put some stress on him and then you got busy with work. It was just a lot all at once and I don’t think he knew how to properly process everything. Why don’t you get dressed and I can bring you by the apartment? Talk it out with him.”
“I don’t think that’s a good idea, he is the one that broke up with me.”
“I don’t think that’s my home anymore. Thank you for stopping by Jay I really appreciate it, but I know you are busy. Just do me a favor and keep an eye on him for me.”
Jay dropped his head before nodding and standing up before he put his arm on your shoulder giving you a light squeeze before walking out of your room.
Outside of your manager he was the only one who stopped by to see you. You had nothing on your schedule for the month and you were happy at once, to be able to have a free month to spend with Hyuk-woo but now you wished you had something to do to keep you busy.
You hadn’t heard from him in two weeks since that night you walked out of the apartment. Jay told you he was a mess and begged you to go back home but each time you declined. If Hyuk-woo wanted you home he would have called you but he hadn’t. His lack of communication was the final nail in the confine that housed your broken relationship. Calling Jay you asked how Hyuk-woo was but really you were just trying to see if he was out of the house.
“He is good as he could be giving the circumstances. We are at the studio right now.”
“Do you guys planning on being there all night?”
“I don’t know maybe, why?”
“Just wondering, I have to get going so I will talk to you later.”
Hanging up before Jay could inquire more you made the decision that today would be the day you retrieved the rest of your things. Grabbing your jacket and purse you put your shoes on and walked out of the hotel hailing a cab for the apartment.
Walking into the apartment you felt like it was a completely different place. There was a pillow and blanket on the couch and takeout trash littered the counters near the garbage. Pulling the moving boxes out of the closet you went to the bedroom where you began to pack up all of your belongings. Folding up shirts and pants placing them in the box along with the dresses you had bought for special occasions. Tears stung your eyes as you thought back to certain events that you wore the clothes too.
Packing away all of your beauty products you stumbled across an old photo in the drawer, it was one you both sitting in the studio smiling as you laid your head on his shoulder. It was one from when you had just started dating, the two of you looked so happy and just smitten with each other. Placing that on the top of the pile in the box you closed it up and pushed it to the door.
Grabbing another box you began to place shoes and purses along with the boxes that held your jewelry, necklaces and bracelets that Hyuk-woo had bought you over the years. Brushing your fingers across the blue velvet box of the necklace he had just bought you on your last anniversary you let a low sob escape your lips.
Once the bedroom was packed up you moved to the living room. Grabbing some paper from the kitchen you began walking around collecting picture frames from the shelves and entertainment stand. Looking down on the pictures of smiling faces, yours, his, friends and family. You started to wrap them up all one by one before they too were placed in the box. Taking one last look around the apartment that you shared with Hyuk-woo you cried, all of the memories made there. So many nights of laughter were held here.
Walking to the bedroom you gave it one last look over, flashes of the two of you in bed together as moans from the past love making ring in your head you turn the light off and shut the door. Calling your manager you informed him you were ready and your manager said he would be there in a few minutes as he was only just down the street. Sitting down at the counter you waited for him to ring the bell and to help load the boxes into the van.
Looking down at your phone you were about to call him again when the door suddenly unlocked and opened with Hyuk-woo rushing in. Looking down at the boxes and then to your surprised face as you sat there, you weren’t sure what he was doing here.
“Y/n….”
He stuttered your name out.
“Hyuk-woo, what are you doing here? Shouldn’t you be at the studio?”
“Jay said you called earlier, he said you were acting strange.”
“Yeah I called to see if you were out of the apartment”
looking down at the counter you continued
“I didn’t want you to be here when I packed up my things.”
Hyuk-woo slowly walked to you before he stopped just in front of you. He was so close you could feel the heat from his body and his breath on your head as tried to calm himself and get his breathing under control.
“Don’t worry, my manager will be here any minute and then I will be gone.”
“Hyuk-woo, I don’t want to fight anymore. Please just go back to the studio.”
“No, there isn’t anymore for us to say. You said all you needed to say, and there isn’t anything I can do to change your mind. So please just go.”
You felt his hands come to your face cupping each side of your face lifting it to look at him. You held your eyes shut as best as you could but when you felt his fingers brush the tears that escaped your clamped shut lids you slowly opened them to look up at him.
Hyuk-woo looked down at you with his own tears in his eyes, he looked just as broken as you did. Dark circles were forming under his eyes and his face looked sunken in and pale.
He put a finger over you lipes silencing what you were about to say.
“Y/n, just let me talk. I have been a mess of a man since you walked out that door. I tried to talk myself into being ok with us splitting up but no matter how much I tried I couldn’t. I couldn’t even sleep in the bed because whenever I opened my eyes you were there smiling at me but when I moved to touch you, you just disappeared. I can’t work and I can’t eat, everything tastes like ash and I can’t think of a single lyric. All I can think about is you. I was a fool, the guys told me that over and over for how I treated you. Laying here every night all that comes to mind is the memories we shared all the good times and then I started to think. How I could I ever doubt you, when you have never done anything to prove me otherwise. When Jay mentioned how you asked how late I was going to be in the studio I didn’t think anything of it. This anxious feeling kept growing inside me and I knew something was off. I rushed all the way here hoping that you weren’t here doing this but here you are. Please y/n don’t go, I was a fool! I was an idiot! But please don’t leave me, I should never had said those things to you and I wish I could take it back. I wish I had just talked to you about my feelings instead of handling it that way. Can you forgive me?”
Listening to him say everything as tears fell down his cheeks broke your heart. Standing up you reached your hand to his face cupping his like he did yours. His eyes closed shut at the contact and he nuzzled his face into your hand.
“Promise me you won’t ever hold things in like this. Promise me that you will always come to me when you aren’t feeling comfortable about something. I don’t want to go through this again, I don’t think I could survive something like this again. Every day I was gone I felt like I was slowly dying on the inside.”
Looking up into your eyes Hyuk-woo nodded his head, “I promise.”
Bringing your other arm up you wrapped them around his neck pulling him to you as you both cried and promised each other to never go through this again. Your lips met each other briefly before you both whispered I love yous to each other. Gone was the anxiety and sadness you had been feeling since you left, you knew things were going to be better from here on out.
