❀ *゚ matty healy. cismale. he/him. ⇝ hey, isn’t that julian “jude” morrison? i think that the twenty-nine year old from manchester, uk, works as a tattoo artist at black spade tattoo, but outside of that they spend a lot of time at the bars in las vegas. i hear they are pretentious + self-destructive, but they are also known to be equable + intelligent. consider giving them a visit at their home in buffalo mountain road apartments and get to know why they’re called the nihilist.
hi friends i’m bev, my only personality trait is my obsession w the horror genre, and i’m bringing u this soft sarcastic boy jude about whom u can find some info below + some wcs !!
(trigger warnings for drug use/abuse and neglect)
jude was born in manchester, england, to a pair of very wealthy, very young parents who were decidedly not good at being parents. when they realized he was never going to live up to their expectations of grandeur and high society they just sort of….gave up on him, it turned to neglect, and with no other family or grandparents around, it resulted in jude having to do a lot of taking care of himself. in some ways that did teach him a sense of how to be self sufficient, but it also gave him a super warped sense of responsibility.
when he was 14 (which was around the time the giving up on him started happening) his parents finally had another child, one who they were determined would make up for the failure that had been their first. because jude left home at 18 and never looked back, he knows almost nothing about this sibling. it was one of the hardest things he’s ever had to do bc he always wanted a little sibling but the kid was only 4 and he couldn’t take being there anymore.
he resents his parents for it big time but (especially in the past five years or so) has started to learn how to compartmentalize that resentment and like?? learn from it rather than letting it make him bitter, if that makes sense, but he doesn’t talk to them at all and hasn’t since he left the uk. he’s done a lot of growing up lately though. jude in his early twenties was running around doing drugs and substituting actual meaningful relationships with sex and otherwise filling the void with garbage and addictive tendencies.
it was in his mid-twenties that he decided kind of on a whim to pack up and move to the states, heading for the east coast and the big city. he found a tiny shoebox apartment in new york, got work at a bar and supplemented it with selling drugs. continued his bad habits of sleeping around, committing to nothing except drugs and sex and live music, and a few years later found himself nearing thirty with nothing at all to show for it and no sense of direction.
so he checked himself into rehab, got clean, and that was when he started his tattoo apprenticeship. he worked under somebody who became something of a mentor to him and helped him find a sense of responsibility and purpose that his parents were never able to do. by the time he finished the apprenticeship he had gone back to smoking absolutely inhuman amounts of weed and doing party drugs here and there but he’s stayed away from the hard stuff for the most part.
it was a little more than a year ago, just before the new year, that jude decided he needed to get out of new york for a change of scenery and pace that he hoped would help with staying away from drugs. you could call it some kind of spiritual enlightenment but he would never call it that tyfegruhujwk. he calls it growing up and getting his shit together and realizing there’s more to life. vegas isn’t exactly the most lowkey place to have gone to stay (relatively) clean but his rationalization is that the change of scenery will be enough.
so he’s been here for a little over a year now, works at a tattoo parlor, still smokes a lot of weed and parties semi frequently but has managed to figure out how to maintain a sense of priority and responsibility in his life.
some extra stuff
jude’s a thinker and an observer–he notices things, small things other people don’t notice
bisexual king
despite his neglectful childhood and terrible history with commitment he’s actually very good at being in relationships and has only had 3 or 4 bc they’ve genuinely lasted several years each time
has some serious self destructive tendencies in that he defaults to doing drugs and getting up to shit and has to consciously be like…..no, bad
probably cares more about his friends/loved ones than himself?? he’s such a lover he has such a big heart he literally just wants the people he cares about to be happy and will sacrifice his own happiness to that end
a lot of his emotional turmoil comes from the war between his self destruction and wanting other people to be happy since those….do not go hand in hand at all lol
soft soft soft boy but in a death metal band tee aesthetic way
it’s literally difficult to get in a fight with him bc he cba getting worked up about things and spending that mental energy. however if he does get pissed off…….yikes he’ll go off and cut you off so fast
wanted connections
one person he’s dated in the past year-ish he’s been here, maybe a recent breakup for the angst
if your muse is from england? or ny? get at me w his other exes thanks
some best buds :( this boy would die for his friends
people whose tattoos he’s done !!
bad influence who possibly encourages him getting back into the Bad Stuff 👀
also some good influences give me those soft vibes
sibling like connections?? please? he doesn’t know his one and only sibling and he wants one so so badly
he is no longer a dealer so give me HIS dealer (probably this could also be a bad influence)
hookups, one night stands, etc. i’d love some unrequited things those are my weakness











