Hello - i'm a mestiza peruvian, 21+ year old bisexual cis woman (she/her) who can be reached in the following places:
GothLoli on ao3
GothitaLolita on twitter
GothicDolores here on tumblr
GothicDolores on blsky
these are all the places you can find me in terms of fanfiction, and specifically fanfiction. My ao3 is listed at the top of my blog and contains both my old pseud and my current pseud - all public for you to peruse, as it always has been.
I occasionally indulge in Dead Dove, simply mind the tags and filter out my library accordingly, as it's mixed in with my usual work!
I used to take requests, but they were mostly for small ships or niche tropes, if I happen to write for something you enjoy, I might say yes but i am not a request blog, so no promises - i just yap about my ships here on tumblr
I am very liberal with the block button - i do not debate people, i do not entertain slurs or real life criminal accusations over fiction. You only have to say something weird around me or to me ONCE, and you are gone from my internet experience. I have no interest in "defending" myself or giving whatever else attention you are seeking. You are talking to yourselves, as i have repeated time and time again. I don't know what it is your saying or doing, but good luck with that. or sorry it happened to you.
i'm MOVING alot of my old works off of FFnet, where you can find them unedited and in their original state. You will occasionally see me post decades old fics! sometimes i throw a fresh coat of paint over them. But I will always specify when i wrote them, as some are so old i was still in grade-school, if you can imagine.
All my NEW wips include:
Dear Maria Count Me In: Shadria-centric found family fic. updating semi-regularly again
Icarus to your Certainty: My current DD:DNE. Last chapter pending.
All You Have To Do Is Sing: Updating regularly! The Lullaby Arc is underway
these are LONG TERM wips! If you see me post an old fic or a new one-shot no you didn't it's just where my muse diverted me atm
WIP list will be updated as fics wrap up.
Edit: canât believe this has to be said but THIS IS MY ONLY FANFIC BLOG I HAVE NO SECONDARY SOCIAL MEDIA ACCOUNTS BEYOND THE ONES LISTED ABOVE AND ANYONE CLAIMING TO BE ME IS NEITHER MY FRIEND, FOLLOWER, NOR EVEN A COMPETENT CYBER STALKER
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That era of freak sex I made dekthia have during the movie canon is so iconic I feel like they miss being a weirdo fetish couple so from time to time thia detaches her torso and wiggles her free roaming ass in front of Dek while she pretends to do science stuff which prompts him to drop trowel in point five seconds when he walks in the room SEND POST
ugh how i wish to be as well dressed and doused in jewelry as aket haha!!
canât wait for the next chapter and for child and her groom đ
Well youâre in VERY much luck dear anon cuz CHAPTER 10 HAS JUST BEEN POSTED đđđđ
You might really enjoy it, as you finally and FORMALLY meet Kweiânee, whose been looming the past few chapters lmaoo we finally get to meet her in the context of Sing, which will hopefully add some more context to her behavior in Nothing Left To Prove :3c
As for child and her groom, Iâm giving myself the buffer of finishing Who Still Loves Your Ghost before Iâm full throttle with the spinoff, which will still have at least one instance of Suâete and Aâket as Njohrr does passively meet them at one point in his long and increasingly unstable life
Thisâll give me some flexibility to finish the Lullaby Arc, but Iâve written important scenes for the sequel spinoff so far tho! Iâm very excited for the interactions between the cast, and how it leads both groups to reevaluate their place in the Yautja world đ
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well intended people: girl blink twice if you need us to rescue you
Aket, in her Gucci dress and Versace heels and wearing her Cartier jewelry and a crown that mightâve been stolen from some 18th century princess when some lower rung Yautja had been out hunting, before making it onto the hands of Suâete: âŚ..aside from all this shit I have to wear, Iâm actually fairly happy so
Since reader is, obviously, a self-insert I try to keep things neutral when describing what reader is wearing at any given time, aside from her signature flowers in her hair and the fact that they are currently pregnant
But Aâket is an actual OC and itâs usually very important what sheâs wearing, especially in Child and Her Groom where weâre getting multiple perspectives which interact with her
As such, take a gander what being the Honorable Arbitratorâs living trophy affords you
No but actually the concept of Kratos marrying Fey is so baffling like?? She was in hiding and Kratos doesnât even believe in gods anymore, as an institution, so who married them? Was it civil marriage? A nature-based wedding? Like in a Disney movie?
Anyway my POINT IS Kratos simply CANNOT have casual flings! He literally has to call his significant other his WIFE or husband in Atreusâs case lmao this dude is so intense!! âWEâRE MARRIED BTW JUST SO YOU KNOW!â
justâŚitâs very funny to me but also sad as it clearly shows how earnest and seriously Kratos takes these things only the first time around he kept leaving his family even when he regretted doing so and the second time around he was too afraid to spend time with them for fear heâd kill then again only for fey to simply contact death disease so Iâd love to explore how heâd go about it three for three like okay THIS TIME Iâm sticking by you clearly staying away doesnât help so HENCEFORTH you will refer to me as your loving husband and show off the ring brok forged for me just in case I actually went thru w this
Me writing chap 4 in 2012: and so itâs likeâŚ.catholic communion! Itâs like..::symbolic of Aket being baptized into her new life! Itâs very pure, very angelic
Me frequently having to refer back to chap 4 in the year of our lord 2026: âŚâŚâŚâŚâŚ.bitch why the fuck is it giving child bride ass vibes ajdjfkfkkgkg, I donât remember writing this lmaooooooooooo
Sometimes Iâll be re-reading old chapters and come across moments like this;
And start cackling like a maniac lmao girl give me a minute it Iâm about to lead you into a situation where your first impulse is to beat the crap out of him *cracks knuckles*
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âSo what does aket actually wear all day you spend a lot of time describing her clothing -â
Because sheâs wearing couture. Sheâs wearing high fashion. Do you realize thereâs Yautja who stay up all night just to make her something to wear in the morning? No sheâs not just wearing leathers and hides sheâs wearing LIVE INSECTS, sheâs got GIANT FLORA on her body, plucked that morning. Sheâs got GEMS encrusted into her rib cage mined from a planet that is only accessible once every hundred years. Pearls from ocean planets constantly storming. Silk weaved by the most dangerous worms in the galaxy. SHES WEARING COUTURE. âOh surely you mean fishnets andâ NO BITCH I MEAN SUETE RAIDED THE MET AND GAVE IT TO HER AS A PRESENT CUZ SHE WAS MAD AT HIM FOR SIX HOURS she has a dubloon dress! Yknow what Iâm saying?? She as a dress made out of GOLD COINS she only wears to the beach! Sheâs has crowns from royalty youâve never heard from. Lost princess broches and rings from empresses. Sometimes when heâs feeling sappy, Suete will even will grind the finest ivory ripped from the most elegant bones of the fiercest of beast into dust and paint Aketâs nails with it bc heâs a freak and a weirdo and insists he wants to do something nice for her but really he likes the iridescent shine it gives her absurdly well kept nails and he wants everyone to see how long and healthy they bc that means he keeps her healthy and strong and adored
YOU BETCHA this gives me an excuse to talk about MORE YAUTJA FASHION:
HAIR FASHION
I sort of have this idea for the Old Man Dek fic i'm still working on where Thia pokes fun at the fact that she dyes Dek's hair so it's not entirely white like njohrr's was (i also like the headcanon i see some artists do where njohrr's white hair isn't due to his age, but that he always had it, i'mma use that for a thing soon) - I also have Na'ji, who's Ten'tatta's city girlfriend, dye her hair unrealistically blue on purpose, because it makes her look more intense/attractive
We're already used to seeing yautja with their hair up, not just for dek but in general across the comics/games, but i certainly think they can also do things like curl/dye and even CUT their tresses if they really want to!
I have this OC for my fic Sing who can't grow her hair out and has a very short bob (as a sort of genetic thing rather than a choice) - usually this works for her because she's a medic and it doesn't get in her way, but when she's attending ceremonies, she actually puts extensions in FROM the base where it ends, as opposed to from her scalp
I feel it's very favorable to have long, lush tendrils in Yautja culture, so many try to make their hair look bigger/longer in general, though it largely depends on where the yautja hails from if thinner or thicker locks are more in fashion
Take Kwei and Dek's clan for instance! they seem to have thinner keratin, so it might be easier for them to curl it tight during special holidays, giving them a more alluring image (i really like curled yautja tresses arejgnaekrjg)
I like to think that the reason why Dek's clan is given soooo many passes for their, ahem, new unorthodox ways and adopting "prey," human children, into their ranks is because of Bud and all the Kalisk pups that are born after her. Kalisk Riders are powerful and extremely difficult to kill. Nobody wants beef with Njohrr's youngest son, who now rides the most deadliest creature in the galaxy, nor do they want beef with Dek's vicious little mate.
oh DEFINATELY!
Bud is a major deterrent not only because she and her children are unkillable, but due to the sheer LOYALTY they exhibit to Dek and Thia (to say nothing of bud's adopted siblings)
Kalisks arent mindless beasts after all, and once Bud grows up she's very imposing, but her younger kids are small and VERY clever. the Yautja of other clans learn to be weary of these ape-like juveniles who cling to the backs of the human kids, they WILL lung and bite and reap all manner of havoc if any of their squishy family members are threatened. they can be seen in the rafters and running around freely all over Dek's clan, helping out or making mischief.
those who view the kalisks as mere mounts are in for a RUDE ass awakening if they happen across dek's clan. some of the older kalisk teens work directly with thia, and they have a reputation for snatching up spies and intruders and dragging them to her ~secret lab~
In your au, where Dek becomes the leader of his clan... How did he feel afterwards? Joy? Relief? Grim acceptance? I like to think that, as a kid, he would secretly watch his father rule and would often fantasize about how he would have handled certain situations in his father's stead. Now that his wildest dreams have come true, he has to work extra hard to guide his clan into a new age and hold on tight to his earned seat. There's also the glaringly LOUD elephant in the room that is his synthetic mate, and the difficulties she'll face proving herself for a proper sisterhood, but he has faith that Thia will prevail. Just work, work, work, work, and more work... but he's up to the task. First things first, annihilate his father's most supportive lackeys and feed their remains to Bud.
Just Dek thinking about his current situation and making plans FAST.
When it comes to my Clan Leader Dek AUs, i always wanna add an outlying situation that makes it so he actively needs/WANTS to be clan leader
In the actual movie, i truly believe Dek was perfectly happy with killing njohrr, avenging kwei and peacing-out from yautja prime forever cuz thia and bud are HIS clan and he doesnt need that noise BYE
.....BUT since the movie ends in the mama cliffhanger, i wonder if that's an option Dan also is thinking about. That this little family has the potential for large-scale change, and so wants to leave it open-ended in that regard heuheuheu
If i make so Kwei is alive and needs help, Dek is the only one who cares enough about him to essentially sacrifice his "freedom" in order to ensure his (and by extension thia and bud's) survival on the planet.
I also agree that as a child, Dek might've dreamed of having such a lofty position and making decrees that often disagreed with what his father did, but as he grew up, he believed this was an option less and less, and merely clung to the idea that he could be a good hunter if he couldn't be a clan leader
BUT when it's presented to him post-badlands, i feel dek is more a reluctant leader, which is what makes him such a good one! He KNOWS that things will be hard, and that no one actually believes in him outside his lil clan of three, so he makes himself tough and thinks on his feet yes yes
he very much raises to the occasion once he's actually on the throne, and throws himself into the work far more quickly and better than even thia (and perhaps kwei) thought he might! everyone else sort of has to keep up with him
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Atreusâs father does not return from his stay at Valhalla. But this younger, fiercer version of Kratos, plucked at the height of his troubled past, emerges in his stead.
And heâŚcanât seem to keep his paws off of Atreus. No matter how hard the boy tries to dissuade him.
Atreus was half way across the world when Angrboda had frantically sent him an urgent message through the dreamscape. Giant magic being what it was, it took him all of half a minute for him to leap from where heâd been to back home in Midgard. Surrounded by the anxious faces of his friends and family. Well, what amounted to who he considered his family.
His father was stuck in Valhalla.
Or at least. Thatâs what Mimir suspected. And not because Kratos had wanted to stay - which wouldâve been his right, given the parameters of the realm, as much as it would have pained Atreus to come home to his father gone, gone.
But that wasnât the case.
One moment, Mimir had been with Kratos. Sitting on a broken throne and sharing a comfortable silence with his brother in arms as he took a long deserved rest.
The next -
The next moment. HE had been siting next to Mimir. Outside the walls of Valhalla. To the confusion and increasing horror of everyone encamped outside the shore.
A version of the man who would become his Father.
The younger version of his Father.
The Ghost of Sparta.
âHow did this happen?â
Atreus was currently surrounded by his once and always closest companions. Cramped inside his childhood home.
Angrboda, who had brought him back, curled into herself as she sat atop his bed. Mimir was beside her, worrying at his pipe. Freya was on the other side of the small space while Tyr - the REAL Tyr, who he hadnât even had a moment to converse with - lingered just beside the door.
The Valkyries were outside, surrounding who had once been his father - who would be - his father?
Tyr had insisted they trust their capacity, their warriors spirit, and while he was at attention, he felt he was needed more inside, mediating the small group in this trying time.
As Atreus got up to speed.
He had not expected. In a millions years. That he would come home to find a younger version of his Father corralled and detained, surrounded by his own friends, snarling and biting at who he once viewed as allies.
His father - or a man who looked so much like him, had locked eyes with Atreus. Had watched him scream and yell at the Valkyries - at Freya - his bow drawn up in a frantic and desperate attempt to save who he had thought at a glance had been his Father, betrayed.
They had all sworn on their very lives that Kratos had been in a rage spiral that rivaled any they had ever seen before.
But by the time Atreus had broken through the barricade of bodies, intent on defending the man at the center of it, Kratos - his father - the person he quickly slid next to in order to protect -
That Kratos. Had stopped mid fight.
Perplexed, perhaps, at this seemingly inocuos young man who had the audacity to stand beside him and fight for him.
âWho are you?â
A voice so close to being like his fatherâs had asked.
It was only then that Atreus had turned to properly look at him. And realize.
That this man was not his father.
He was outside the cabin now. Docile. But something about him betrayed a sense that he was simply humoring his captors. That that Kratos was merely biding his time. Waiting for answers of his own.
Answers that Atreus was intent on finding out.
It was Freya who stepped forward, âAtreus - after you left on your journey, ValhallaâŚinvited, your father in her halls. And it was - fine - for a while.â
âFucking therapeutic, even,â Mimir piped up, hoping to be helpful.
âBut,â Freya continued, looking rather perplexed, âsomethingâŚstrange happened. As if - well, usually, if Kratos failed a challenge or fell in battle within Valhalla, he and Mimir would simplyâŚappear on the shore, and we would be waiting for them. However -â
She bit her lip.
Atreus tried to search her body language for any type of clue, âWhat? What happened?â
Tyr spoke now, noting Freyaâs hesitance, smooth and sure, âUsually, Kratos would engage in a brief spar with me, a means to work through a specificâŚgrievance, he wished to address.â
ââŚmakes sense,â Atreus conceded. His father has always been more hands-on than introspective. Be motioned for Tyr to continue.
âAs Freya said, Kratos would either be bested and be sent back, or I would be the one to yield. This time, I saw him through the doors of Valhalla, and I believe whatever he found on the other side has to do with this strange occurrence.â
He looked toward Mimir, then, who furrowed his brow, âI canât account for what he mightâve seen on the other side, by the time I manifested back on yer dadâs belt, everything felt on the level. There was a worn down throne at the center of the room, and your father had himself a rest on itâŚbut between one blink and the next, I found myself on the shoreâŚwith one very pissed off, and might I add young, Ghost of Sparta crawling around and looking to kick me across the ocean!â
Which left Atreus with no more answer than when he started, âSo it had to be something between when Tyr saw him last and when you saw him, Mimir.â
âSounds about the jest of it, ye.â
He nodded, though it felt meaningless, âSoâŚI guess itâs time we askâŚHIMâŚif he knows whatâs going on.â
âDo you think it safe, Tyr?â Freya asked the other God, something that rather annoyed Atreus, âWe could barely hold him down, and that was before Atreus came in and started fighting on his side.â
She glanced back at him, which caused Atreus to bristle. All Angrboda has managed to say to him had been that something had happened to his father, before he had rushed to aid him in whatever had happened.
Tyr, for his part, appeared to note Atreusâs feelings, âI believe that something about his son must resonate with this version of Kratos - he clearly changed in demeanor when Atreus arrived, and it might be another way Valhalla is attempting to help Kratos work through something he had repressed.â
âRepressed?â Atreus asked.
Mimir spoke again, âYa. Your father was wrestling with some rather impressive demons, after you left, and Valhalla helped him face rather revealing truths about his past he had never considered before.â
He frowned, âMaybe I shouldnât have left so soon -â
âNo, Atreus,â this time, Freya stepped forward, gently placing a hand at the back of his neck, as she had once done when he had been a small and scared boy, âThis isnât on you. And your father was at peace with you going on your own journey.â
Again, he felt a bit frustrated at her words. He knew Kratos had been accepting. Supportive. He was there when it happened. They talked about it. So why did it feel like he was being infantilized, regardless?
âIâm going to talk to - him,â Atreus said, at length, stepping out of Freyaâs embrace, âAlone.â
