come as you are

the storm within me has finally come to a halt.

the crashing waves

rough winds

lightning crossing the sky

as I shatter inside

for what feels like a lifetime.

the sky is light now.

the sun is warm.

I can finally breathe.

I close my eyes and accept this new reality that is my life.

a new day, new dawn, a complete transition.

the shedding of old skin to anew

this is rebirth

open up and feel

accept the change as it rushes through your veins

you know you don’t want to go back to old ways.

become one with the universe, now is the time.

feel the breeze flowing delicately around your body.

this, my dear, is life.

this is love,

this is the earth,

this is you.

evolved, understood.

you are ready darling, go make waves.

never let the waves make you 🌊

i believe we accept whatever love we can get.

because to be wanted, loved, longed after

to have an equal, a sanctuary

a place to call home,

to possess the type of love you see in movies,

that’s what every soul longs after isn’t it?

now,

i know this is painful,

i do.

but ask yourself,

is that your reality?

or is that what you’ve convinced yourself it is?

that pretty picture you’ve painted in your mind,

to silence the need to feel loved,

even if it’s temporary.

to allow yourself to fall endlessly,

in the midst of destruction,

even if it means getting hurt.

because

to feel needed, valued and loved

even if it’s all in my mind,

is enough to silence

the lack of real love

that my body so deeply craves.

she is magnificent,

she is me.

i will always trust her

over anything

and that should fucking scare you.

emptier, more numb.

broken beyond belief.

set backs

reversing years worth of strength

effort, energy,

nights where it was all i could do

to peel myself off the floor

and dust myself off to start again.

today,

here we are once more.

i am not me

but who am i, if not myself?

who is this person looking back at me?

i see pain, agony, misery

but this isn’t me.

this is the demon whom

i’ve spent my whole life trying to outrun

sleepless nights filled with wiping tears

and reconstructing the sad, but beautiful, shell

of the mask i present to the world.

always fine when i need to be

but i return to this state of being

every time he creeps up

he consumes me from the outside in.

however he is kind enough

to allow me a front row seat

to watch my own self destruction.

i close my eyes to get away

only to be reminded of what i don’t want to see

the broken parts of me.

is this who i am?

desperate to convince myself he’s lying

but i feel as if

maybe that is all that i am

nothing more or less.

just broken inside.

that is, until she returns to me.

the monarch of all things light

her peace settles the most barbaric of storms

so gracious and gentle.

she engulfs my body into a sea of liberation.

free of all hostility.

while peering into each other’s eyes,

she becomes me.

i lean in closer as she says,

“acceptance dear, that is what you need.

you are who you are. a little broken, yes.

but you must believe that you are much more

than what has been done to you.

you didn’t deserve the hurt,

or the damage that has caused you to break down,

but you were built to endure it.

so darling take all of this pain,

and turn it into something good.

because i am you - you are me

a magnificent distaster,

beautifully rising above.

and since you’ve been hurt so many times,

you are destined to heal the broken.”

the sun came out today

it feels like years        

       since i last felt the warmth.

spring is coming now

        things will be better soon, i know it.    

so lay there,

                              take in the rest        

            that your soul craves deeply.    

enjoy                

 the fleeting days of darkness        

                   for the best

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