Zizi

And when I bury my body so that my soul is free to dig its way out and roam the earth, free from the constrains of human society, what then?

I'm not sure if anyone ever talks about how lonely it is being single when all your friends are either in relationships or live far away. I don't mind being single, but sometimes I wish I could be someone's priority for once. I don't fault my friends for putting their partners first, but it does suck when I want to hang out but they're unavailable because of it. And as an adult, it's even harder to make plans around differing work schedules as well. Basically, I just wish I had either more single friends, or a significant other

i just want a beautiful woman to dominate me, is that too much to ask?

Until I can afford therapy, and trust other people with my mental issues, the little imaginary scenarios are going to have to in order to work through my trauma

I recently started working at a coffee shop because i moved across the country, and there was a really pretty girl who came in one day and i haven't seen her since, nor do i know if she's gonna come in again, but that was the first time I've ever experienced gay panic

I'm so out of touch with my emotions that i sometimes can't tell if I'm sad or just tired

I really really dislike air blowing on me. Whether it's a fan or wind or whatever. It's incredibly unpleasant and drives me crazy. The only time I can tolerate it is when I'm dying of heat and in desperate want of air conditioning.

I hate waking up. As soon as I regain consciousness, I resign myself to what is to come. Even if my dreams are unpleasant, i hate the feeling of being aware of anything. I just want to remain unconscious