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[ID: fanart of Rocket from Milestone Comics, she is smiling and posing with one hand on her hip and the other making a peace sign. Pink energy from her Inertia Belt is around her hands and behind her. End ID]
ROCKET!!!!!! loved her in Icon so dearly character of the week month year century
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Summary: You were trained to be a weaponâsilent, precise, untouchable. A swan that bites, a peacock that dazzles only after the strike. Trained by women who believed softness was a lie and love a liability, you learned to move silently, to kill without leaving a trace. You were never meant to want. Only to execute. Jason Todd sees you and knows immediately: you donât soften. You consume. You meet like survivors circling the same woundâwatchful, armed, too close. What grows between you isnât tenderness. Itâs hunger, pressure, and inevitability. Love doesnât bloom here. It overflows. And when the world comes for what they madeâyou donât run. You devour.
Tw: this fic has themes of Graphic violence, blood/gore, death (both canon and non cannon ), trafficking, PTSD, possessive behavior, explicit language, eventual smut and implied mental health. Dead Dove: do not eat
(Masterlist) CHAPTER ONE â ASSESSMENT
READ THE PROLOGUE FIRST!
They do not rush you.
That is the first thing that settles into your bones as the silent procession of girls moves down the corridorâno barked commands, no shoving hands, no impatient yanks on sleeves. The women who guide you walk with the calm, unhurried precision of people who have done this a thousand times before. Their silk sleeves brush the red-lacquered walls with the softest hush, the sound almost intimate, as though the corridor itself is breathing in time with them.
The halls are impossibly pristine. Lanterns hang in perfect rows, spilling warm amber light across polished wood that gleams like fresh blood. The white stone floor is so smooth it mirrors your bare feetâevery small tremor, every hesitant step reflected back at you in ghostly duplicate. Along the walls, paper screens glow faintly, painted with birds caught in eternal motion: swans with necks arched like drawn bows, peacocks spreading impossible fans of iridescent eyes, each feather rendered with such ruthless detail it feels like they might blink.
Some of the girls are crying now, but the sound is small, swallowed, as though they fear even their grief might be judged. One girlâsmaller than the rest, maybe nineâclutches the hand of the older one beside her until both sets of knuckles bleach white. Another stares straight ahead with eyes so empty they look like polished glass, her lips moving in silent repetition of something no one else can hear.
You walk without sound.
Your breathing stays even. You count your stepsâseven, eight, nineâmemorizing the rhythm of the corridor, the precise angle of each turn, the places where the floorboards creak the faintest whisper beneath the stone.
Just as the group reaches a pair of tall doors carved with twisting vines and hidden thorns, a woman steps out from a side passage. Older than the attendants, her hair drawn into a severe, gleaming knot, she carries a narrow slate of polished black stone. Her eyes do not sweep the line.
They find you.
Not linger. Select.
âThis one,â she says. The words fall quiet and certain, like a single pebble dropped into still water.
A small hand tightens desperately around your sleeve. The girl next to youâdark braids, tear-streaked cheeksâlooks up with wide, frantic eyes and shakes her head.
âNo,â she whispers, barely audible. âPlease⊠donât take her. Sheâs quiet. She wonât cause trouble.â
You feel the tremor in her fingers.
Very gently, you peel her hand away.
You do not speak.
You do not ask why.
You simply step forward and follow.
The room they bring you to is smaller than you imaginedâalmost intimate. Bare stone floor. Pale silk screens brushed with minimalist ink strokes: a single crane in flight, a lotus half-unfurled. A low black table sits at the exact center of the space. Somewhere unseen, incense burnsâclean, cedar-sharp, almost medicinal.
Lady Xiu Raatko waits behind the table.
She does not rise.
She does not need to.
Her presence expands to fill every corner of the room the moment you cross the threshold. She regards you the way a swordsmith regards steel: without warmth, without haste, but with absolute attention. Two attendants stand motionless behind herâidentical in posture, identical in blank expression, like twin shadows given human shape.
âStand,â Lady Xiu says. Voice low. Melodic. Final.
You do.
She gives the smallest tilt of her head.
The attendants move.
Their hands are cool, efficient, utterly impersonal. They test the line of your spine, the balance of your hips, the natural set of your shoulders. Fingers press lightly at your wrists, your ankles, gauging reflex, resistance, the way your muscles coil beneath skin. They lift your arms, adjust your stance, turn your chin with the barest pressure.
Your body answers before your mind can catch up.
A sharp twist. Your wrist snaps free. Your elbow rises in a clean arcâinstinctive, lethal, ready to drive into a throat that isnât there. You take one measured step back, weight dropping into your heels, center of gravity low.
The room goes still.
The attendants shift to restrain youâ
Lady Xiu lifts one finger.
âEnough.â
They freeze. Hands drop. They retreat two steps in perfect unison.
Lady Xiuâs gaze sharpensânot anger. Interest. The faintest spark behind the calm.
âYou have instincts,â she murmurs. âGood ones. Fast ones.â
Your heart is hammering now, but your face betrays nothing.
She lets the silence stretch just long enough to become uncomfortable.
âDo you know where you are?â
âNo,â you answer. Truth. Simple.
âDo you know why you are here?â
You hesitate only a heartbeat. âBecause someone paid for me.â
The corner of her mouth lifts. Not quite a smile. Acknowledgment.
âAnd why do you believe they chose you, specifically?â
You think of the container. The dark. The voices outside. The way you kept your mouth shut when the others begged and wept.
âI didnât make noise,â you say quietly. âI didnât slow them down. I was⊠easy to move.â
Lady Xiu nods once, slow and deliberate, as though you have just confirmed a hypothesis she formed long before you entered the room.
You lift your chin the smallest fraction. âWhat is this place?â
She leans back, folding her hands in her lap with elegant economy.
âTo the world outside these walls,â she begins, âthis was once called a finishing academy. A quiet, expensive place where daughters of wealth were sent to learn the arts of refinementâdance, music, languages, the correct way to pour tea, the correct way to smile. They emerged polished. Acceptable. Marriageable.â
She pauses, letting the image settle.
âThe world believes such places vanished generations ago.â
Her eyes lock onto yours, steady as stone.
âThe world is mistaken.â
She gestures with one graceful hand toward the painted screens. âBeauty has always been a weapon, child. It opens doors. It lowers guards. It invites people to step closer than they should.â Her voice remains calm, almost instructional. âHere we teach girls how to wield it properly.â
You listen. You do not interrupt.
Lady Xiu tilts her head, studying you anew.
âYou are not distressed.â
It is not a question.
âYou did not weep in the container,â she continues. âYou did not ask for your mother. You did not beg to go home. You did not even ask what would happen next.â
Your throat tightens, but you keep your silence.
She exhalesâsoft, almost fond.
âYou learned very young that no one was coming.â
The words strike clean. True.
âGirls who still wait to be saved,â she says, âdo not last here.â
You meet her gaze. âThen what happens to me?â
She considers you for a long, measuring moment.
âYou will be watched.â
The answer is colder than any threat.
She rises at lastâfluid, unhurriedâand circles you slowly, her silk whispering against the stone.
âThere are two paths within this Order,â she says. âThe Swan. Discipline. Stillness. Precision. The blade that strikes once and vanishes.â She stops directly in front of you. âAnd the Peacock. Display. Seduction. The slow unraveling of anotherâs mind until they hand you the knife themselves.â
You hold her eyes.
âMost girls fall clearly into one path or the other,â she continues. âSome fit neither.â
She steps back.
âYou,â she says quietly, âare still⊠unresolved.â
She turns to the attendants. âPrepare a private chamber.â
They do not return you to the line of girls.
Instead they lead you down a narrower corridor, quieter, the lanterns dimmer. A door opens onto a small, perfect room: low bed dressed in pale silk, a porcelain wash basin, folded garments laid out with ceremonial care.
Not a cell.
A consideration.
As the door closes behind you with a soft, final click, you sit on the edge of the bed. Hands loose in your lap. Body humming with something newânot terror, not hope.
Recognition.
They have not yet decided what shape you will take.
But they have already decided you are worth shaping.
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Jason hated being in an asylum. Well, this wasn't an asylum it was a 'mental hospital for the criminally insane,' it was better than Arkham at least. He was treated like an actual person here and not like cattle. He received three meals a day, good medication, therapy and even outside time every day. It sure beat Arkham's dark and torturous methods. Plus, there was one patient he was glad was here with him. He would never admit that out loud though.
Jason was eating breakfast when he saw Y/N walk in. Your face lit up when you saw Jason. You sat across from him with your food.
'Morning, Jay.'
'Morning, angel. I heard they had to sedate you last night,' he said. Your smile faded a little and you nodded.
'Yeah... I had a nightmare and became a bit uncontrollable,' you muttered.
'It happens to the best of us, angel.'
'Thanks, Jay,' you said with a small smile. 'Is Bruce coming for visiting day tomorrow?'
'Yeah, like usual,' he grumbled.
'I know you don't like him coming to visit, but I think it's sweet that he does.'
'Please, you're just saying that because he likes you and gives you attention,' he said.
'Well, I don't have visitors so it's nice when he comes.'
Jason sighed and rolled his eyes. 'Fine, I guess it's nice he visits.'
'Plus, he always brings me gifts,' you said as Jason rolled his eyes again and chuckled.
'You're very easily bribed, you know that?'
--
You were the first one awake the next morning and you sat down at your usual table with a tray of breakfast. You waited a while before a nurse came out to you. 'Jason has to be in isolation for a few more hours. It's best to you eat without him,' she said. You sighed and nodded a little.
'Is he okay?'
'Yes, he just had a rough night and didn't get any sleep. He'll be okay, Y/N,' she said before walking away.
After breakfast you sat in the corner and did some drawing while everyone else spoke to their visitors. You heard the door open again and looked up to see Bruce entering. You giggled and ran over to him.
'Hi, Bruce!' you said with excitement. Bruce smiled and felt his heart warm at your excitement.
'Hey, sweetheart. They told me Jason needs a bit more time. Why don't you and I go out in the gardens for a bit?' he asked. Bruce knew you didn't have anyone and he knew how hard visiting day was for you.
'Yes please! I love the garden, I have to show you some of the new herbs I helped plant,' you said as he smiled and followed you outside.
Bruce enjoyed visiting here, he got to see what an actual mental hospital should be. He had seen the horrors of Arkham and this place helped regain some hope for him. Everyone here wasn't treated like a criminal, they were helped and encouraged to grow. Bruce felt at ease while he listened to you explain all the new plants that had been planted since the last time.
After a few minutes a nurse told Bruce that he could see Jason, but he had to go alone. 'Alright, I'll come back and see you soon. Before that, I brought you a little gift,' he said as he pulled out a small handmade doll that looked like you.
'Woah... It looks like me!' you said in amazement as he chuckled.
'I saw it at a market and thought it was the perfect gift considering it looks exactly like you,' he said with a small laugh. You smiled brightly and hugged him.
'Thank you! She's so beautiful,' you whispered. Bruce smiled and hugged you back tightly before he left to see Jason.
You went back to your room for a little while and rearranged a few of the toys to see where your doll would look best.
'I see he spoiled you again,' a voice said. You turned to see Jason and smiled. He looked exhausted and you knew his sedatives would be wearing off. You shuffled forward cautiously and looked at him.
'You okay?'
'I'm okay, princess... Just a hard night,' he said as he walked in and sat on your bed. You handed the doll to him and he chuckled. 'Looks like a voodoo doll of you,' he said as you laughed softly.
'Did Bruce get you a gift?'
'Yeah, a new pillow. Sounds lame but it's some expensive special one... Don't tell him but it's the best thing I've ever laid on,' he said. You chuckled and sat beside him.
'I'm really glad you have him. I know that sounds cheesy and stuff, but...you deserve a family,' you said. Jason looked at you and handed the doll back to you.
'You deserve one too, Y/N. I know you might not have one right now, but you will one day. For the moment I don't mind you stealing my fucked up family,' he said. You smiled and looked at him.
'So, where should I put this clone doll?'
'Hmm...' Jason stood up and took the doll. 'I think window sill, so it's like she's always watching.'
bsf! jason todd x fem!reader, You like making him do your work and he has no objections. No he is NOT being held on gunpoint.
With summer starting, the one thing you look forward to is finally here. Summer vacation.
You were sitting soon scrolling on Pinterest at random stuff to cure yourself out of boredom, while your holiday homework drafted notes were all layered out, with scribbled notes and markers of the important parts, and random doodles you, Jason and your friends made mid classâspeaking of Jason, you were just about to text him to bring you your favorite takeout from that one restaurant which could hopefully never go out of business (by how much you both ate from there, Iâm sure theyâre covered..) since it was right on the way to your house.
Before you could even open his messages, you hear your window opening revealing red hood himself. You, not even paying attention to the person who came in swoon over the bag of take-out in his hands.
âDo your parents not feed you?â he said with a smirk as he took his helmet placing it on your side table and sitting on the edge of your bed facing you and handing the bag to you. âThe usual, may I suggest a tip? Itâs not easy beating up bad guys and picking up take out for you.â
You slightly shift out of bed sitting up moving your notes out your way, the food is your priority right now. You hum ever so lightly, "depends on what types of payments you accept." You slightly pause somehow taken aback by something that left your own mouth willingly.
Jason lets out a slightly choked up laugh, "yeah? i'll take what i can get."
"gosh atleast let me finish my chowmein first!" you say making a face having to look up at him, "can you sit down? we can share, the least i can do for you getting me this."
"i think ill take you up on the other form of payment instead." he said sitting down in front of you taking off his jacket resting it on its usual position on your desk chair.
Flustered is the word that would describe your face best, but jason cant even see it. You put all your attention on your food trying your best not to make eye contact after all the comments you cant handle it, so you do what your best at, deflect deflect deflect.
After finishing up,
Jason paused the video you guys were watching on your computer while he sighed picking up the takeout boxes and your coke bottles, "you dont have to you know?" and as he always did, he cut you off before you could even finish. "I know, jus' let me?" he said shooting you a warm smile that only very few people got to see from him. Gosh, this man has the eyes of a sad puppy and they get you every single time.
He doesn't wait for you to say anything already sensing the defeat in your eyes as he got up to go to the kitchen pushing your door open from the edge with his shoe, both hands busy.
After a quick minute he gets back and enters your room closing it behind himself gently.
"So uhm,"
"Yeah, Jay?"
"I'm staying over, right?"
"i mean yeah, thats what--we planned?"
"yeah jus'---checking, i guess." he said, hands wandering to the back of his neck scratching almost nervously. "i didnt--"
"you left, your clothes in the bathroom so i kept them in my closet. I'll go get them for you? you can go wash up till then."
"yeah i, i'll go do that." he says with a small smile getting used to your little sequence before every sleepover. He gets back from patrol, you guys eat talking about stupid stuff that happened and then you guys almost pillow talk in bed, you always fall asleep saying you wont, to his rants. Not that his rants are boring, his voice is just too soothing.
He heads to your washroom, the toothbrush you gave him last time he came, his toothbrush still in the cup leaning into yours. He sighed getting ready to wash his face with the cleanser you forced him to listen about how you need to always cleanse and wear sunscreen and blah blah, he infact did start wearing it from that day. And how your strawberry vanilla shampoo softened his hair, surprising that it worked after how much grim and sweat he gets.
His bubble of thought then gets popped by a knock on the door, "jay? your clothes-" you said waiting for him to open the door as you stick your hand handing him his sweats and the shirt he wears almost all the time you see him.
As you both settle into bed,
you pull up the covers and scoot a little closer to him hugging your pillow as you prepare mentally to calm down and stop being so nervous, its not your first time with jason being so close. I mean, friends get this close right?
He turns his head down to look at you smiling with a small exhale of a laugh, "hi bug."
"hi jay" you murmur already tired hugging your pillow like it'll keep you awake.
He glances at your position, in the way you were laying down. "you wanna come here? you said you have the best sleep on my shoulder, orrr should i remind you? again?"
"noo i think i've been reminded more than enough by my friends." you say, still you pull your pillow to the other side discarding it for jason's arms. "scoot closer dummy."
"jeez no need to get your panties in a twist-"
"my panties are infact, not in a twist. Although i appreciate the concern."
Even in your sleep you need to quip back at him.
".. jay? im confused."
"about?"
"how come you didnt get yourself a batburger for takeout?"
with an exhale, "...goodnight."
"waaait, what about your payment?"
"...what about it?"
You slightly scoot up to reach his face, leaving a small peck on his cheek. Well, that must cover the 20 dollars he spent on your takeout.
"worth it." he whispered, quiet but not quiet enough for you not to hear.
a/n- can you tell how easily i gave up at the end i think i might work better with requests cause it gives me a base idea. THIS was supposed to be like a whole different idea which got broken down into what it is now.
SHOOULD I CONTINUEEE THISS..
its reallly short but i meaaan its a practice runnn guuuysss...
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DESCRIPTION: when jason canât sleep, youâre the one he turns to. just⊠not in person.
WARNINGS: descriptions of violence, blood, injury, and trauma, typical yandere behaviours, stalking, swearing
The ropes bind Jasonâs body to the wooden chair like a python strangling its prey. They suffocate his limbs, burning roughly onto already beaten skin. Tears in the red spandex adorning his form only reveal more red - except this red is warm, and pours onto concrete stained with splashes of crimson so dark theyâre nearly black. Jason thinks back to a few months ago, when the stains were lighter. Or was it a few years ago? He shudders as much as the ropes will allow, hunching his back and hanging his head low, as if it would shield him from the derelict, barren hellscape heâs in.
He cautiously raises his head, bruised eyes scanning the warehouse and mapping the exits for the nth time. His stare bores into the main door as he pictures Batman kicking it off its hinges and running towards him with both relief and rage flooding his veins. He pictures being untied and finally being in Bruceâs arms - his fatherâs arms - instead of ropes. Jasonâs chest relaxes in response to the mental image, a small smile forming on his bloodied face and a shaky, wistful breath escaping from his struggling lungs.
But the relief wouldnât last long. A maniacal laugh echoes in the distance, and his imagination evaporates as the sound forces him back into reality. His cold, dark, dirty, bloody, and lonely reality. His heart sinks as the laughter grows closer, and plunges completely when the door slams open. It gives entry to a monster in human skin; a pale, green-haired monster with eyes blown wide and a smile carved from ear to ear outlined in red. One would naturally assume it was face paint but, knowing this creature, it could easily be blood from the quivering Robin before it. That, or from one of the many victims that precede him.
In its claws is a crowbar. Its smile only grows more sinister when it sees Jason glance at it in fear.
The monsterâs mouth starts moving. Talking. Except, no sound is coming out. All Jason can hear is his quickening heartbeat, pulsing in his ears and his chest. Beating so hard that it feels too big for his body and is desperately trying to escape from his broken ribcage.
Maybe that was the problem, he thinks amongst his dread. I was too soft. Too forgiving. Too weak.
The monsterâs grip on the crowbar tightens as it raises the weapon above Jasonâs head. Jasonâs vision is blurred through the tears streaming down his cheeks, seeping into the open gashes and mixing with the gore. He canât see the monsterâs face, but itâs grin is stretched so wide that he doesnât need to see the details. He knows what it means. He also doesnât need clear vision to see that Batman isnât here. Gothamâs saviour isnât here to save him. He shouldâve known; Gotham always comes first.
âPleaseâŠâ he splutters out in a pitiful attempt to stop the inevitable. He only gets a hysterical shrieking in response, accompanied by a grin that doesnât fit human teeth; it better fits a starving lion thatâs finally found its prey.
I never shouldâve trusted my mother, he thinks.
I never shouldâve trusted my âfatherâ, either.
Family only lets you down.
The crowbar flies down towards him and-
Jason shoots up from his bed, sitting upright only for a moment before clamouring out of the sheets. The duvet became just as restrictive as those damn ropes. He tumbles to the floor with a jolt and hurriedly crawls to the corner of his bedroom, curling up with his knees to his chest and burying his head in the gap between them. He digs his elbows into his knees, reaching his arms up to shield his head and grip his hair. His hands become damp from the sweat soaking the dark strands, while the hairs on his arms stand up in terror. His breathing quickens into shallow gasps; his mind replaying the horror again, and again, and again, unaware the nightmare is over.
As he trembles in the corner, his sniffling and hyperventilating muffled by his knees, he frantically searches his mind and his surroundings for an anchor; an escape from the neverending torture. Static starts swarming his vision, flickering and dancing like the stars in the night sky outside his window. His racing heartbeat thumps in his ears and he desperately begs himself to think over the nervous drum.
He just manages to catch an unopened package next to his bookshelf despite his sight being obscured by a visual snowstorm; a medium cardboard box still sealed with tape and decorated with a large postage label. A box, he thinks. Box breathing, he realises. In your nose for four, hold for four, exhale through the mouth for four, hold for four. Like Bruce taught you.
Like Bruce taught you.
Bruce.
The thought of that man still fills him with resentment, no matter how many times they heal things between them. Except, their version of healing things was more akin to putting a band-aid over a bullet wound: they know their relationship needs resuscitation, but neither of them have a defibrillator. Or the life support machines to try and keep it alive afterwards.
Jason forces himself to push down his simmering outrage and just create the goddamn boxes. He begins with a shaky inhale and uses it to trace the first side of the box, visualising the line travelling - albeit unsteadily - across his mind. He holds that breath despite the stuttering from his chest, tracing the next side of the box, and then exhales, drawing the third line. When his lungs empty, he holds that emptiness to complete the outline. The wobbly lines create a flimsy box that definitely wouldnât be fit for purpose, but itâs a box nonetheless. He assembles another one, but with steadier lines this time. The lines become smoother with every box he mentally constructs, and his breathing starts to slow.
Hell, he thinks, Iâm making enough boxes to fill a delivery warehouse-
Wait, no, not a warehouse! Anything but a damn warehouse!
With that internal slip of the tongue, his progress unravels: his breathing rises once more, and the tightness in his chest returns, the familiar tension mounting all over again. The ghost of the warehouse and the crowbar sprints to the forefront, but itâs now mixed with Bruce leaving him to die, his betrayal stabbing him in the back. Jason swears he can feel that metaphorical batarang becoming physical, plunging into his back and tearing into his skin. The wound still agonises him no matter how much time passes. It never fully heals; only scars until the strain splits it open again, blood flowing out as if it were freshly cut.
An abrupt noise rings throughout Jasonâs bedroom and cuts through his climbing panic. He flinches at the sound before identifying it as his phone buzzing, vibrating on something. The bedside table - he realises. He notices the buzzing taking on a certain ringtone and his thoughts pause. Them. That ghost of the painful nightmare begins floating away like a cloud blown by a summer breeze, his mind gaining lucidity as it evaporates.
Iâm not there. Iâm with them. I need them. Theyâll save me.
Jason lifts his head up, his glassy eyes peeking out from under his arms, tears still brimming. He blinks them away, despite his sore eyes being exhausted from the sobbing, and battles through the heaviness in his bones to move to towards his bed. His limbs tingle as he rises from the floor; his body shocked at the abrupt movement. Pins and needles prickle at his skin, and he places a hand on the wall to steady himself. The static begins dissipating from his eyes and his mind becomes more grounded in reality through his sheer concentration on his phone and, by extension, you. He ambles over to the bedside table and attempts to pick up his phone, but his legs had other ideas: he slumps onto the edge of the bed, his hand clumsily resting on the table to balance himself. He lets out a huff of frustration and he rubs his eyes with his palms, wiping away the leftover tears and dizziness before grabbing his phone.
The screen lights up, illuminating Jasonâs face in a soft blue glow, and displays a notification: Movement detected on Bedside. Speedily inputting the passcode, he taps the hidden camera app and a menu appears upon opening, displaying a list of cameras and a preview of what each one is recording. He selects the camera labelled âBedsideâ and it engulfs the screen. It shows a close-up view of you sleeping in your bed from a camera hidden in your bedside lamp. Jason installed cameras around your apartment, aside from your bathroom, when you werenât in. He needed to make sure that youâre healthy, happy, and not in any danger from burglaries, health emergencies, dodgy electrics, kitchen fires, and anything else that could take you from him. You silence his mind - your presence putting a silencer on his synapses that insist on quick-firing like the guns he uses at night. You placate them, tame them, and protect him from his mind when he canât manage to protect himself. So, he has to protect you in return.
His gaze stays fixated on your sleeping form as he lays down in his own bed and takes the coiled-up earphones from the table, letting them unravel on his stomach. He grabs hold of the earphone jack and plugs it in, his eyes never leaving you. He picks up each earphone individually and slots them into his ears before raising the audio volume with quick presses.
He begins to listen to your soft breaths, and he can already feel his muscles relaxing; the tension in his chest loosens its grip on his heart and his lungs are no longer being suffocated by fear squeezing his breaths out. He syncs his breathing to yours to form a calming harmony and becomes absorbed by you, lovingly admiring your peaceful state. Youâre snuggled up in your duvet with your hair sprawled across your pillow in a tangled mess thanks to your tossing and turning: the same unconscious movements that triggered the camera alarm in the first place. If you could see yourself now, youâd probably be embarrassed at how disheveled you are, but Jason doesnât care. To him, youâre the dictionary definition of a sleeping beauty.
You were already his comfort person, but the cameras have transformed your life into his comfort show: his safe space after a difficult day, or a brutal night, where he can shut off the outside world and be part of yours, even if itâs from a distance. Your life is different from a tv show, of course. Each episode is slightly different every time and thereâs no canned audience, theme songs, or jingles to fill any silences. Itâs alright, though - his laughter at your silly moments makes up for it. Besides, he doesnât need any of those gimmicks to help his concentration. Nothing about you is boring to him; you keep his attention even when youâre sleeping. The unpredictability of your daily life is manageable, too: heâs learned your routine over time and can accurately predict your next steps. He doesnât mind the small daily deviances you make since it means thereâs more to learn about you, and he wants to learn everything there is to know. The best thing is that there are unlimited episodes, though, âepisodesâ isnât really accurate. That implies a beginning and an end to the footage, which there isnât. The cameras run 24/7, meaning thereâs no restrictions to when Jason can watch you. That especially comes in handy in times like this, when the night is tormenting him and he needs your sunlight to save him from its darkness.
Thereâs still one big difference between your life and a tv show. You donât know youâre in a tv show. You donât know your apartment has become a studio; a set with cameras catching every angle of you. More importantly, you donât know you have an audience. An audience of one, but that one is a superfan who watches with unwavering dedication. Who screenshots his favourite moments for his evergrowing album of you. Who knows your habits and your quirks better than you do. Who is your hidden protector, silently shielding you from the pain the world can bring; the pain he knows all too well.
Jason pulls his duvet over him, turning on his side and awkwardly propping his phone up on his pillow with the screen facing him, still showing your precious sleeping self. He sinks into his bed and pretends youâre sleeping next to him, turned towards him in your slumber. Your imagined companionship makes his eyelids heavy, and your shared breathing creates a soothing rhythm that radiates through his body as his lids close, rapidly blinking to catch as many glimpses of you as possible before fully closing. Jason finally surrenders to your calming effect and he drifts off being enveloped not only by his duvet, but by your breathing in his ears, your picture in his mind, and his love for you cradling his heart softer than any duvet or blanket ever could.
AUTHORâS NOTES: AAAAAAH MY FIRST LONG FORM FIC!! this became so much longer than I intended, I hope itâs not too long! Iâve always had this headcanon about yandere Jason where he, before making himself known to darling, watches them through hidden cameras after he has a nightmare to calm himself down.
TAGS: @l0vergirls @luludeluluramblings also I got inspo from @jade-zzz for the layout! â€ïž
he isn't in love, so don't get mixed up in the rumors. unless you're roy harper, in which you may observe the red hood get a little dazed by the sight of his not-girlfriend. you are beauty, you are grace, and jason todd is pink in the face.
âą jason todd x fem nurse reader, roy being nosy, clubbing at the iceberg lounge, hopeless silly crushing from jay, 3k wc
IT STARTS WITH A FULL CABINET. And not just any cabinetâa medicine cabinet, stocked to the brim with unused gauze, rolls of loose weave neatly packed into a shelf. The chipped interior provides a stark background for a number of other suspicious things, too.Â
Still-sealed suture packets. Two bottles of ibuprofen, both full. And get this: a long accordion-string of antibiotic ointment that hits the floor when Roy unfurls it. None of the serrated edges are ripped.Â
Hell, it looks brand new.Â
Call him paranoid for assuming, but a full medicine cabinet in Jason Todd's apartment is infinitely suspicious. It might be arguable that he's just recently stocked up...if it weren't for the thin layer of dust that's settled over everything.Â
It also could mean that the rumors are true.
Of course, when Roy brings it up, rolls of gauze clutched into the crook of his elbow, Jason just works his jaw with one hand in his hair, the other scribbling in red Sharpie.Â
âI have no idea what youâre talking about,â Jason drawls, face steeled to perfection. He doesn't even look up, too busy brooding down at the spread of documents and maps pinned down by several empty cans of Coke; a few drops of sweet, dark soda stain the papers.Â
âYou know, I heard from a little Robin,â Roy sings, sauntering over and dumping the gauze onto the small tableâone roll bounces onto the floor and off Jasonâs slippers, âthat you have a girl.âÂ
Gotcha. Wind had reached Roy from Donna, who had heard from Wally, who had heard from Dick, who had so on and so forthed until the rumor could be traced back to a certain grumpy, spiky-haired sidekick who claims to have seen the second Robin dreamily admiring a nurse as she patched him up on the floor of her apartment.
That makes Jason look up. A shadow crosses his face, one that makes an odd kind of shiver tickle at Royâs nape. Itâs the same kind of look that comes when things go sideways or shit blows up when it isnât supposed or when Batman does something that really sets him off.Â
(But like father, like son. The way Jason is practically glaring at that loose-leaf pile of shit looks just like those old photos of B sent to a long-destroyed phone. Courtesy of Dick, who always has a field day spamming the Titansâ defunct, triple-encrypted groupchat when he happens to be back in Gotham.)Â
And then Jason looks to the pile of little, unused rolls spilled across the table. Likeâreally looks at them, as if itâs the first heâs ever heard of gauze. Then he tilts his head and stares at Roy, mouth pressed into a razor-thin line.Â
âReally?â Jason says, brows lifting like heâs totally disinterested. Then he points a finger at himself, really humored. âYou think I have a girlfriend? âCause what, I'm well stocked, or Damian said so?âÂ
Roy narrows his eyes, hands immediately coming up in defense. âI never said it was Damian.âÂ
âJust giving an example.âÂ
Jason shrugsâtoo casual to be innocentâbut Royâs already caught on long before that. The little flicker of âoh, shitâ across his face, the slightest thread of apprehension shooting through his deeply furrowed brow.Â
Perks of being a deadeye: you catch all the shit everyone else misses.Â
So. That little gremlin was telling the truth about seeing his adopted brotherâor however the hell their relationship worksâsneaking into a girlâs apartment and being all lovey-dovey with her even though heâs literally a menace to the city.Â
And a menace to Roy, because Jasonâs ticking jaw is starting to look like heâs on the edge of flipping the damn table.Â
"Alright." Roy concedes despite the nagging itch in his head. Jason Todd is lying. "If you say so."Â
"That's what I thought."Â
âÂ
Contrary to Jason's (likely) belief, things don't end at the medicine cabinet. In fact, that had just been the start.Â
The next revelation comes when theyâre supposed to be infiltrating the Iceberg Lounge for a business exchange between a mysterious broker and the Penguinâback from a brief stint in jail, again, much to Jason and everyone elseâs chagrin.Â
This is a no-mask occasion, just to play the harmless civilian and not get a beatdown from the bouncers.Â
Itâs loud inside the lounge, a heavy bass beat thrumming at such a strength that Roy is wary to even brush up against the walls. The soles of his boots stick to the floor, gummy in the way only nightclubs can be; the air is soaked with the scent of sweat and booze. Heâs already flicked his shades on and pushed them all the way up to his eyelashes, but the strobe lights flashing through the nightclub still need squinting to get through.Â
Thus, he almost misses Jasonâs hand tapping on his shoulder, too busy shrugging off the hot press of clubbers swarming the floor.Â
Roy turns, raising his eyebrows at his partner. He gets the feeling that this is a little strange, being on a mission bare faced with a stupid Gotham U shirt and a half-broken comm chip in the ear. Jesus, he looks and feels like a frat guy despite being a decade too old. Â
Jason doesnât seem to mind though, dressed in a thin, maroon hoodie that does nothing to hide his shoulders, and grey jeans. Casual, in a nonchalant way. The Iâm a frat who just threw on whatever and Iâm ready to get sloshed way.Â
His hand is still incessantly tapping on Royâs shoulder, not really aware that theyâre already facing each other, Roy expectant and ready to listen.Â
âHell-o?âÂ
âOh.â Jason blinks, seemingly snapped out of it. Thereâs a sort of far-off look in his eyes, mouth barely parted, like heâs just seen a ghost and heâs trying to hide it. His gaze darts around, but itâs inevitably drawn to the blue-neon shelves on a back wall.Â
Slow to say, tongue wetting his bottom lip, âIâll take the bar.âÂ
Roy huffs, crossing his arms. âAlright. Iâll take the floor.âÂ
They both nod to themselves, though Jason looks very satisfied that heâs gotten what he wanted. Usually, they flip a coin or play rock-paper-scissors or use whatever is on hand at the time to decide scouting positions.Â
Like that one time, with the water bottle. They had spent so long trying to get it to land upright that they almost missed their cue.Â
But thatâs a story for another night, because Jason is peeling away and making quick strides to the bar. He slides into an empty stool to the left of a woman, leaning his elbow on the counter with a small smile.Â
Roy posts up against a wall on the opposite side of the bar, eyes roving. Thereâs a suspicious-looking guy in the far cornerâa black suit type, slicked back hair and shiny laced loafers swimming with a leather-warped reflection of the strobe lights. The man is nursing a glass of whiskey, dark amber liquid turned to pitch when the music switches up.Â
He scoots closer for a better look at their potential broker, and then he catches a glance of Jason at the bar, still talking to...Â
Oh, shit.Â
The screenshot passed around hero communications like a virus resurfaces in Royâs mind. Sure, sheâs wearing a cute outfit and some makeup instead of soft sleep clothes, but itâs unmistakable.Â
Jason Todd is talking up his not-girlfriend in the Iceberg Lounge during a mission.Â
Peopleâs eyes bugging out of their sockets used to be an impossible concept, and yet. Here he is, helpless on the other side of the club as all the little pieces click together and catch up to him.Â
The hardly used medical supplies. The âoh, shitâ look. The fact that Jason lied to Royâs face. Â
You smile in that teasing, kind of girly way you did in Damianâs leaked screenshot, much to Jasonâs apparent enjoyment. He leans the side of his head on his left fist, that elbow in turn balanced on the bar top.Â
Transfixed, Jason watches your hands move as you explain the mentality behind the designated driver role, how your day went, and say something that sounds like: it was super chaotic, but I canât really say more âcause of HIPPA, soâŠÂ
Wait.Â
Roy can hear you.Â
He has to laugh softly to himself when he realizes. Fuck, Jason is so whipped that he isnât aware of the fact that propping his head up has activated their comm chip.Â
Not so much of a tough guy now, it seems.Â
Keeping an eye on the could-be broker, Roy presses his earpiece in a little deeper and plugs his other ear to block out most of the clubâs thrumming noise.Â
âAnyway,â you say, and even though Roy canât see it, he knows youâre grinning wide. âWhat do you do, stranger?âÂ
Royâs eyes flick to the ceiling, but only for a fractured second âcause the lights are starting to give him a headache. Of course you donât know his civilian identity.Â
âUhââ and thereâs that telltale sound of Jason wetting his lips ââyou could call me Jay. IâmâŠa fixer.âÂ
Funny. Fixer is quite a versatile word, it seems.Â
You laugh in a tone Roy has only heard when a girl looks down and brushes her hair away. âIs it weird that I kind of guessed? I dunno, you just look like a guy whoâs good with his hands.â And then a little faster, earnest, âIâm so sorry, Jay, that came outââÂ
âNo, no,â Jason is quick to interject, âI appreciate it.âÂ
âIs it weird that I think youâre a great guy after talking for five minutes?â you ask after a moment. For the briefest second, Roy manages a peek over to the barâyouâre mirroring Jasonâs pose, except the hand you arenât resting your chin on is tracing the rim of a crystal water glass. You smile, close-mouthed, and he gets it. Gets why Jason is so drawn to you (even if Roy doesnât feel the beckon himself).Â
Itâs a kind look about you. An open flame, ready to warm. You look at people without expectation, and knowing Jason, thatâs big. He doesnât have to be the Big Bad or the sweet, martyred Robin for you.Â
You know the cabinetry of Jasonâs body so well already, and most of all, you know him at his most vulnerable. Blue-green doe eyes, sweat-matted hair, hydrangea-bloom bruisesâthe whole works.Â
You stand for everything Jason protects in the world: the raw, unfiltered good.Â
Roy snaps back to what heâs supposed to be watching right as Jason ekes out a rough chuckle.Â
âSounds like you have some assholes in your life. Need a hand?â Jason says it in the stilted, fish-out-of-water way he always does when heâs trying to flirt without fulfilling the half-dead requirement first.Â
At armâs length, quivering for the chance to come closer. Like two poles on a magnet, rejection and attraction.Â
(Mhmm, an asshole, Roy thinks, I wonder who. He feels like putting his head in his hands and screaming.)Â
Giggling like youâre kind of drunk and arenât the designated driver, âItâs just one. Well, kind ofâheâsâŠa guy who shows up sometimes.â A pause, as if youâre thoughtfully tonguing the next words into your cheek. âHeâs a fixer too, in a different way, but I think heâs really sweet under all that meanness.âÂ
Jason hums, considerate and falsely sympathetic. âIâm sure heâll come around someday.âÂ
(This fucking dickwad just loves to play in everyoneâs faces.)Â
âSorry,â you breathe for the second time tonight, âyou just have this really reassuring feeling, but I donât wanna put my troubles on you.âÂ
âWell, I did technically start this,â Jason says, and for the first time in what feels like forever, he has the gall to sound sheepish. Roy almost canât believe his ears.Â
âRight, right,â you agree, that smiley sound in your voice again. Then you pitch it down, mimicking, âRough day? Looks like youâve seen some shit.âÂ
âThatâsâI donât sound like that.âÂ
(Agree to disagree. Youâre pretty good with Jasonâs tone.)Â
Scoffing in amusement, you tease, âYou do.âÂ
âEven if I did, you definitely practiced that,â he says. Itâs in a fake-nonchalant voice that Roy can instantly pinpoint even through the shitty Bluetooth connection and the clubâs deafening EDM slop. Jason really is defying all expectations tonight.Â
You hum, âI mightâve picked it up from a certain guy. Canât help itâyou have the same accent.âÂ
That gives Jason pause, if only for a moment. The cylinders in his brain are probably firing at maximum power. âThatâs...impressive.âÂ
Roy wipes a rough hand over his eyes. God, can this guyâs game get any worse?Â
Chewing the inside of his cheek, Roy considers picking up a better job than people-watching. For example: right now, he could be building a crazy spaceship to take him to a planet far, far from Earth and Jasonâs hopeless situation.Â
A flicker of movement catches his eye. Approaching the broker is one of the Penguinâs bodyguardsâRoy remembers him from the last encounter they had with the crime lord. Heâd whipped his bow into the guardâs nose.Â
Still looks like that nasty break hasn't healed well.Â
Slipping a deft hand into the back pocket of his jeans, he pulls out a vape. At least, thatâs what the bouncers thought it was when they patted him down.Â
Roy disassembles it, and a little silver pipe slides into his palm. Itâs warm against his skin. A mini blowgun is definitely not his ideal weapon, but a guyâs gotta do what heâs gotta do.Â
And now, thatâs to shoot a tiny bug onto the brokerâs jacket.Â
The man is already mid-escort to the stairwell that leads to the more private lounge, flanked on the right by the bodyguard. It's a tough shot, and itâs dark and noisy and stuffy as hell in the club, but itâs also Roy Harper whoâs doing this.Â
Slotting the pipe between his lips, he waits for the perfect moment. In a dense, obstructed club like this one, the stars would have to align for him to make the shot.Â
He does anyway, the tiny listening dart flying across the room and latching onto the brokerâs shoulder.Â
Pat on the back, Roy Harper, he thinks, mission well done.Â
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âShe looked kind of familiar,â Roy teases as they stroll out of the club, almost singing. Â
The thudding bass is still audible, even from the other side of the doors, and his ears will probably be ringing for another week. Not that he needs them to maintain his stellar aim, but how will he listen to Dickâs incessant voice messages about his recent round of stalking Jasonâs not-girlfriend's LinkedIn?Â
Their feet are light on the concrete, only making a greater degree of sound when they briskly traverse the many puddles plaguing Gotham.Â
Case in point: Lake Glenn, named after Glenn Avenue, where a twelve-foot-long, shallow concrete basin of stale rainwater is slowly colonizing the remaining sidewalk. It reeks of piss and sour dick, too. Â
Meanwhile, Jason seems eerily at peace. They cross the street to avoid the pond of pee, and heâs got his hands stuffed in the pockets of his faded jeans. Â
He dodges a whirlwind of litterâit curls into a ball and bounces down the sidewalk like fucking tumbleweedâwith a pep in his step. One block over, a patrol car wails out a single chirp, and Jason doesnât pay any mind. Â
Roy has never seen a smile linger this long on his partnerâs lips, and it almost looks uncanny.Â
He seriously considers grabbing the other man and howling: who are you and what have you done to my best friendâs little brother? Â
Jason Todd does not walk with a bouncy gait. He doesnât stick his hands in his pockets, where the confinement can double the time needed to grab the nearest weapon. And itâs certainly more-than-irregular to ignore a police siren and keep a faint smirk of anything but smugness on his face for more than five minutes.Â
Diana H. Themyscira, heâs in love and heâs stupid with it.Â
Instead, Roy just slips back into his practiced nonchalance and truthfully remarks, âSeems like a good person.âÂ
âShe is.âÂ
The answer is curt. Stony. No room for questions, but boy, does Roy have questions.Â
And since when has he paid any mind to social conventions?Â
Naturally, he must keep pushing. âAlright, I can excuse blatant flirting on the job, but dancing?âÂ
Jason grimaces, finally wiping off that disgustingly fond expression on his face. âWe didnâtââÂ
âDude, you donât even try to defend yourselfâI saw you grinding on her like a lovey-dovey teenage boy with both of my deadeyes.âÂ
The chilly, damp air of the city does nothing to disguise the way his ears bloom with a dusty pink. The Red Hood may be able to school his face, but he still canât control the involuntary rush of blood to his ears.Â
Roy almost coos at the adorable observation, but he rather likes the shape of his nose right now. Â
Anyways, the thought is quickly overwritten by the sheer regret of witnessing how Jasonâs fingers twitched when you guided them to grasp your waist on the dance floor. How his blue-green eyes sat at half-mast and dinner-plate dilated when he pulled your hips to his. How his lips had grazed the shell of your ear, whispering things that made your movements more desperate as you strayed from the pounding beat.Â
Or how Jason, with a furrow of utter shame between his brows, definitely adjusted the fit of his clothingâspecifically his jeansâafter you kissed his cheek and bid a wistful, starry-eyed farewell because your friends needed you to step up as the designated driver.Â
Said horny fool only scoffs, but a quiet smirk of amusement (holy shit, Roy just unlocked a new emotion) dawns on his face, and the sweet rays gradually brighten his gloomy countenance until the soft pink blush in his ears begins to warm his cheeks, too.Â
And with it comes the slow, sweet creep of realization over Jasonâs soldier-like posture.Â
Thereâs that lovey-dovey look.
âYeah,â Jason admits after that moment of reluctance, flicking his still-dilated gaze to a rare patch of starlight glimmering in Gothamâs cloudy sky. He lingers on the pretty sight, the rigidity in his shoulders melting slightly as newfound fondness swims in his eyes. âMaybe we did that.âÂ
notes: this is a continuation of part 1 where damian spies on jason & reader (and is sickened by the yearning) !! also rec checking out my much ado about luv event for some upcoming dc fics <3
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