I'm not suicidal anymore but this is something I thought about when I was and I still keep thinking of it. I appreciate all the amazing threads and posts about reasons to live and honestly they really help in lifting one's spirits but does it prevent suicide? Idk. As for myself, whenever I have been suicidal, nothing absolutely nothing seems like it's worth the pain. Wanting to die is one thing, you might still have hope. But deciding that you actually want to die is another, nothing appeals to you. Not the fact that you have so many books to read, not your favourite band, not the thought of your family and friends. Once you fall into that pit of wanting to give up on life, coming out of it is extremely extremely difficult. You have to pull yourself out of it, you gotta rip yourself off this imaginary wall you're clinging to, even if your nails chip off in the process. And if this is the feeling of being suicidal I can't even imagine how someone who actually killed themself might be feeling. You couldn't pull yourself out of the pit, you didn't have the energy to rip yourself off the wall, I just can't imagine the pain. If you are one of those who managed to pull yourself out of the pit, I'm so so proud of you and I'll always be there for you. I hope you never fall again and I hope your days are filled with hope. If you are currently feeling like this, I hope you can pull yourself out, I'll be there if you ever wanna talk. And if you are one of those who lost a dear one to suicide, I wish you all the strength to get over your loss. If I was able to make even one person understand what it means to be suicidal, I hope you become a lot more gentler to the people around you and I pray please don't let your loved ones fall into the pit. Reach out.
