THE MELTED SOUL

“I had to stop assessing God’s goodness by how my life felt at any given time.” @lysaterkeurst Friends, I am hurting. Life is heavy. Literally heavy on my heart. I am exhausted in my emotions, my energy, my love, my friendship, my words. I feel so defeated. So defeated. So I’m still learning this. I think you are, too.

Circumstances are temporary. Even when we feel as if they are anything but fleeting. These moments of pain are not our anchors. They rock us and they try to break us, but they are anything but permanent.

They do not define us. They do not hold our worth. They do now even know us. They are just as fragile as we assume they are strong.

My circumstances lately have told me I am no good and can do no good. They tell me that I am not worthy of love and friendship.

And I allow them to say these things. Repeatedly. I allow my feelings of insecurity shape every move I make and word I speak. I let my circumstances guide my heart more than Him. “I’m going to stop flirting with the unstable things of the world so I can fall completely in love with You.” Friends. God is good. Even if our circumstances are not. Our feelings are fleeting. God is not.

I am insecure. Insecurity is rooted in pride. So I pray with all of my broken being that pride is silenced. That I may be honest with myself and let the fleeting thoughts fade away to let the Almighty take hold.

We are not rooted or defined by these moments and circumstances.