Letters To Those I've Lost

So I could finally find words

Was our love only real to me

Woke up with broken teeth and shaking fists

Grasping at shattered glasses

An unbearable ringing in my ears

Yet my legs buckled at the knees

And I stayed on hardwood floors

Head bowed I’d wait til the sun rose again

I am who I became

Beneath the hands of another

Regrettable in my sacrifices

I never owed you that

And you forget the holes you’ve carved

At night I fear your future dwindles

From the monstrosity you’ve become

I replaced the space I had love for you with your empty bottles of regret

I don’t know who collects them now or throws your keys behind your head

I pray the streetlights still burn on

When you rest your head on the dash

I pray the horns blare in your ears

If the ringtones fade to dead

I know the caps are twisted off, your arms slumped on the wheel

I’ll keep choking on the breath of losing you like them

My only fear that is still real

To replace the one you’ll never have