great scott

it is not what goes into you that makes you dirty, it is what comes out of you. 

“Violence is the last refuge of the incompetent.”

I had a dream that a UFO was flying near, and you could just make out an energy field around it, as it came down for a landing. Once it was on the ground, and the energy field was down, you could see that it was actually an old, white pickup truck with a trailer, suped up with some anti-grav tech or something. 

They were coming in to park at the building where I was, and I knew they were aliens, and they were coming in the door I was standing by, so I ran (in a dream, as best I could, with my legs bound by bedsheets), and they arrived. 

There were two of them, and one was like a human, but with a fat neck, and he was known as the best “salesman” in the galaxy. if you are in his presence, you are basically owned. The other was a narrow tube of blue liquid, maybe his sidekick? Not sure. 

I tried to evade them at first, out of fear, but eventually realized they knew my whereabouts anyway, despite my efforts, and they did not care. They were not here for anything to do with me. (I was worried for no real reason). 

I think it all morphed into some kind of adventure, but I can’t remember it all clearly, but thought that the parts that I could remember were strange enough to share with you guys. 

I have been overweight since high school. That was almost four decades ago (early 80′s). In my mid to late 20′s I was married with two children and got a job at a chemical plant. I worked outdoors for 10+ hours (weekends off) for five and a half years. I lost a lot of weight in that time, mostly because food would bog me down at work (very physical job), and I was too tired to care in the evenings... on top of the 10 hours of sun-baked, sweaty, manual labor. I quickly got cured of soft drinks when I drank a coke at lunch one day, and was so thirsty the rest of the afternoon that I could not drink enough water to feel right, and I was so full that I was sick. Water only after that, until they set up Gatorade for us out there. Even today I still drink water all day and with all of my meals. All through the years I was overweight, and it got worse when I started traveling for work. All expenses paid trips to any restaurant for a week or few. I lived it up for many years. Around my mid 40s, I was 286 pounds, and all of my numbers were “borderline” (slightly high cholesterol, blood sugar, blood pressure, etc.) Doc told me that if I would lose some of the weight, all these numbers would get better. I did not want to be on any meds... so, I finally decided that 

enough was enough.

Eckhart Tolle talks about What Happens When We Die

You don’t always need to believe something. Sometimes you only need to hear it.

The older I get the more I like my life.

It’s not “better” in any way. I am just better at experiencing and reacting to it.

Some say aging is not for the weak. Well, for me, so far, it’s been nothing but reassuring to me. 

When I was younger I was afraid of “confidence” in something, because that meant that you no longer searched for the right way, or the truth. You have arrived, and so you don’t need to continue searching, or re-validating, etc. 

Well, as you get older, you can still maintain a healthy self-check mindset, and you will still become more confident in some things. 

Guys, my weight goes up or down by a pound or so on a daily basis, but overall I am still slowly losing it. 

I started at 286 a few years ago. I’ve plateaued a few times, and just kept on going.

Today, I weighed 186.2! 

Mr Gay World 2019 Delegate - INDIA

Here he is, my coworker who recently won Mr. Gay India... he is now in the running for Mr. Gay World. 

forgive others

forgive yourself

holding a grudge is like hoarding

you are only hurting yourself