Journey to Elysia

Expanding, connecting, and living more authentically #HotGirlSummer #ButPleaseStopRaining https://www.instagram.com/p/CSAqA3XncLW/?utm_medium=tumblr

Nan tenèb, nou se limye ✨ Is it just me or did my glow get a little bit brighter with this Masters of Science in Management?! 😁✨ I couldn't have reached this milestone without my community, ancestors, kin, and Bondye. Thank you for loving on me and reminding me of my shine. I am blessed. Next stop: Masters of Theology in Black Theoethics, researching topics of Liberation, Womanism, Afro-Indigenous Cosmology, & Spirituality for Black folx (whatever that means lol) Photo creds to my joyfriend @bigmarsenergy, bestie @shadesof_shani, and brother-husband @greg_or_griz https://www.instagram.com/p/CP1nqKqnmEN/?utm_medium=tumblr

Breathe. Black folx everywhere held our breath throughout George Floyd's murder trial. We know all too well that, when it comes to our lives, “open-and-shut” cases are often distorted to evade accountability. Then, the jury came back with a “guilty” verdict and I felt a tiny sense of relief. Not because this proved the system works, because we all know it works exactly how it's supposed to when it dehumanizes and criminalizes us. Not because this is justice, because justice would have been George Floyd still being alive. Not because this validates the fact that #BlackLivesMatter, because we always knew they did regardless of how long the state aims to teach us otherwise. The sense of relief came from finally releasing a breath I've been holding in since I learned about the lack of accountability for Emmett Till's life, Trayvon Martin's life, and so many other Black lives. I realize now that I needed this crumb of accountability so I'd have one less thing to be angry about. Yet, like clockwork, that was stolen from us with news that 16-year-old Ma’Khia Bryant Black life was taken by police officers in Columbus, Ohio. We're back to having to remind ourselves to breathe again. From our bellies. "Fill it up like there's a baby in there", as I would say to the children. Even if we can't hold it for long without trembling. Breathe until the collective anxiety leaves our bodies. Even if it's only for a moment. Breathe. https://www.instagram.com/p/CN-bZ-yny7-/?igshid=pcjkfekkdfcx

Haven't done my taxes, I'm too turnt up 🧘🏾‍♀️ (at Sedona, Arizona) https://www.instagram.com/p/CNWFN81nawZ/?igshid=1jc90c0vnavgy

She say she like me 'cause I got the drip bònn fèt dezòd 🎉 https://www.instagram.com/p/CMV88zyHuA6/?igshid=1cxq70mfpjj58

"Love is the will to extend one's self for the purpose of nurturing one's own or another's spiritual growth." - bell hooks, All About Love Grateful to find this definition of love manifested in my process of "coming into" myself, embodied in my partner's wholehearted support, and realized in my ancestor's guidance. I feel blessed to be loved. 💞 *** Anyways, I was tryna share some selfies but bae came thru with the shrooms and got a nigga all deep and appreciative and shit. 🍄🤯😭😂 I hope y'all had a nice Valentine's Day whether you're in a partnership or not.💛 (at WonderLand ♥) https://www.instagram.com/p/CLVnaYMnqG8/?igshid=1ekpg78ljktq0

Happy new year 2021!! 💖🎊 To celebrate, I curated and annotated this 2020 photo dump for y'all from the vault. Enjoy! 😏 - Jan 20: looking cute, stress hives, taking 3 month mental health leave of absence from work to rest and get my shit together - Feb 20 & Mar 20: testing snapchat filters with my faves during a brief staycation in Boston and a weekend getaway in NY - Apr 20: back to work from leave of absence, drained, forcing Sallie to fucking hug me - May 20: taking advantage of the spring weather by spending time outdoors - May 20 & June 20: mother's day photo of the chillun and showing out in the whip with the new grad - June 20: romper and non-n95 unicorn face mask - July 20: gardening, spirituality, and shit - July 20 & Aug 20: student in my #PlantingWithSpirit class and serving as a guest instructor on self-care for my love's Columbia University course for families of NYC's essential workers - Sept 20 & Oct 20: psilocybin magic laughter and a random selfie - Nov 20 & Dec 20: witchy trip to Salem, my tiny little potato harvest, and another random selfie of me glowing --- ✨As always, hit up the LINK IN MY BIO for your journaling needs. ✨ #30DaysofSelfDiscovery #SelfCareJourney #SelfLoveJourney #EgoWork #ShadowWork #InnerChildHealing #ReparentingGuide 💛 Love Offerings are still very much appreciated! 💛 - $lysefb (Cashapp), @lysefb (Venmo/Paypal), or DM for Gpay #Comethrusis #BIPOChealing #blackwomxnhealing #sistercircle #selfhealers https://www.instagram.com/p/CJfcxC7nDfS/?igshid=erjsy2njnt01

Happy new year 2021!! 💖🎊 To celebrate, I curated and annotated this 2020 photo dump for y'all from the vault. Enjoy! 😏 - Jan 20: looking cute, stress hives, taking 3 month mental health leave of absence from work to rest and get my shit together - Feb 20 & Mar 20: testing snapchat filters with my faves during a brief staycation in Boston and a weekend getaway in NY - Apr 20: back to work from leave of absence, drained, forcing Sallie to fucking hug me - May 20: taking advantage of the spring weather by spending time outdoors - May 20 & June 20: mother's day photo of the chillun and showing out in the whip with the new grad - June 20: romper and non-n95 unicorn face mask - July 20: gardening, spirituality, and shit - July 20 & Aug 20: student in my #PlantingWithSpirit class and serving as a guest instructor on self-care for my love's Columbia University course for families of NYC's essential workers - Sept 20 & Oct 20: psilocybin magic laughter and a random selfie - Nov 20 & Dec 20: witchy trip to Salem, my tiny little potato harvest, and another random selfie of me glowing --- ✨As always, hit up the LINK IN MY BIO for your journaling needs. ✨ #30DaysofSelfDiscovery #SelfCareJourney #SelfLoveJourney #EgoWork #ShadowWork #InnerChildHealing #ReparentingGuide 💛 Love Offerings are still very much appreciated! 💛 - $lysefb (Cashapp), @lysefb (Venmo/Paypal), or DM for Gpay #Comethrusis #BIPOChealing #blackwomxnhealing #sistercircle #selfhealers https://www.instagram.com/p/CJfcxC7nDfS/?igshid=ugqpl06nkhzp

Family Festivities. 🤶🏾☃️🎄 https://www.instagram.com/p/CJPPMK3HdBY/?igshid=37ru2f14f95t

Sensuality (n): the condition of being pleasing or fulfilling to the senses; the enjoyment, expression, or pursuit of physical, especially sexual, pleasure You've been so disconnected to your body that you've forgotten what brings you pleasure. Your senses are meant to be experienced. Whose permission are you waiting for? Please yourself. --- ✨As always, hit up the LINK IN MY BIO for your journaling needs. ✨ #30DaysofSelfDiscovery #SelfCareJourney #SelfLoveJourney #EgoWork #ShadowWork #InnerChildHealing #ReparentingGuide 💛 Love Offerings are still very much appreciated! 💛 - $lysefb (Cashapp), @lysefb (Venmo/Paypal), or DM for Gpay #Comethrusis #BIPOChealing #blackwomxnhealing #sistercircle #selfhealers https://www.instagram.com/p/CJCTEroHJ62/?igshid=fhrbyeshf3sv

🤸🏾‍♀️Lekòl lagé! We outchea!! Aye Aaayyeee!!🤸🏾‍♀️ *Smiles in Certified Social Justice Mediator* ⚖️ Last week I completed my training in social justice mediation from @vitalvillage! Feeling more aligned day by day. And looking forward to doing more advocacy and activist work. Can't wait to help more of my siblings and kinfolx with identifying their stories, finding their voice, and getting started on healing. I have so much more coming for y'all next year. Especially with my co-circlekeeper, @bigmarsenergy, for @comethru.sis so be sure to follow! 💛💛💛 --- ✨As always, hit up the LINK IN MY BIO for your journaling needs. ✨ #30DaysofSelfDiscovery #SelfCareJourney #SelfLoveJourney #EgoWork #ShadowWork #InnerChildHealing #ReparentingGuide 💛 Love Offerings are still very much appreciated! 💛 - $lysefb (Cashapp), @lysefb (Venmo/Paypal), or DM for Gpay #Comethrusis #BIPOChealing #blackwomxnhealing #sistercircle #selfhealers https://www.instagram.com/p/CI_3sMAnFlz/?igshid=10xl53a9w9pc1

On Saturday 11.28.20, The Pattern's stalking ass reminded me that I was completing a confusing cycle (swipe left). I just didn't realize how heavy these last 21 months had been until the full moon ran up on me the next morning. ---- I woke up on Sunday with tears in my eyes. I'm Emotional AF so nothing out of the ordinary. Except, the tears kept flowing. They flowed while I wrote down the dream of me being underwater that I was waking up from. (Spirit be talking too LOUD not to document it.) They flowed while @lyvonnep came for my life 2 seconds into church, talmbout some: "don't be afraid of your watery depth" "it's time to get rowdy in our emotions" "this beaver full moon is for purging" "crying is what's going to save us and set us free" They flowed while I visited the river for some grounding later that afternoon. They flowed while I got held so I could sob and snot and listen to "Hold Me Now" and cry some more. They flowed until I finally finished releasing at 2:22am the next morning. --- Today, the moon is waning, ushering me into the newest chapter of my journey. The tears have dried up so I can see the path I'm being guided on more clearly. In everything I cross along the way, I manifest more fluidity, wholeness, and peace. --- ✨As always, hit up the LINK IN MY BIO for your journaling needs. ✨ #30DaysofSelfDiscovery #SelfCareJourney #SelfLoveJourney #EgoWork #ShadowWork #InnerChildHealing #ReparentingGuide 💛 Love Offerings are still very much appreciated! 💛 - $lysefb (Cashapp), @lysefb (Venmo/Paypal), or DM for Gpay #Comethrusis #BIPOChealing #blackwomxnhealing #sistercircle #selfhealers https://www.instagram.com/p/CIRzU78nsNv/?igshid=3wyee0n5ds2p

Radical honesty: I’m struggling financially and emotionally  (TLDR: See LINK IN BIO!) Earlier this year, I put everything on hold to focus on my mental health But, Spirit told me to stop sitting on my projects and being ashamed of this part of my story So here goes  --- The Story: I haven’t had heat or hot water at home since Dec 2019  If you don’t already know: I live in Boston, it’s fucking cold, & I have seasonal depression Terrible mix Long story short: I bought my house in Aug 2018 to help my family My intuition said “nah, sis” because my marriage was drowning but I wanted to be “pragmatic” In Apr 2019, I separated from my now ex By Oct 2019, I lost my family’s support primarily due to queerphobia and other hate-masked-as-Christianity I was left to take care of my 16-year-old sister in a toxic house with nowhere else to go Before, and especially during, the separation I experienced financial abuse (and other forms)  I also have so much debt from college and this home that I don’t qualify for a loan to replace/fix the boiler  Sadly, I’m not “poor” enough for assistance programs but not privileged enough to have a co-signer That’s where I'm at today --- The Projects: In Aug 2018, I started working on healing myself because my mental health was declining I started grad school around then, researching how to lower barriers innovation/tech for our communities, launching Konbino in Oct 2018 with those results Next, I started practicing more self-care for resiliency to make it through my separation in Apr 2019 Then, in Dec 2019 when shit really hit the fan, I launched @comethru.sis to connect with and support others also struggling and in need of healing. TODAY! I’m launching a series of healing tools, starting with my fave tool journaling! Journals are $7.77! $11.11+ for bundles! LINK IN BIO!  #30DaysofSelfDiscovery Self-Care Journey Self-Love Journey Ego Work Shadow Work Inner Child Healing Reparenting Guide Note: No “pity” purchases please. Only buy a copy if you would get it otherwise (it throws off metrics and other data)  Feel free to donate though! Your girl is #BrokeAF! - $lysefb (Cashapp), @lysefb (Venmo/Paypal), or DM for Gpay https://www.instagram.com/p/CFZYhggnHme/?igshid=tq7bcfsb93tx

“If the foot of the trees were not tied to earth, they would be pursuing me. For I have blossomed so much, I am the envy of the gardens.” – Rumi On Saturday 8.22, the last day of #LeoSeason, I celebrated being at the center of my #SaturnReturn. During the weeks leading up to it, I dealt with getting divorced over the phone due to COVID-19, some chaotic transitions at work, separation from loved ones, and mourning the death of a family member who's funeral was the morning of my bday. Not a great way to kick it off. No one tells you how difficult healing/spiritual journeys are in the beginning. It's not until you're neck deep in shit, that you realize how much you have to shed. And, based on this start, I know my new chapter isn't going to be easy. Nonetheless, I'm grateful for all my loves who came through and brightened up my days this weekend. I look forward to fully aligning with Self and the Universe during Saturn's second revolution in my life. I've been blossoming like wildflowers fully into my being. Ain't no stopping now. #Grounded #Rooting #Growing (at Saturn) https://www.instagram.com/p/CEXMcx6HOaV/?igshid=12iarog9138bq

"Kouman nou ye" 🐚🌱 #PlantingWithSpirit https://www.instagram.com/p/CCzB0xnnGz_/?igshid=bqj3mi8cc0mq

Pleasure is the point. Feeling good is not frivolous, it is freedom. - @adriennemareebrown #PleasureActivism Grateful for the opportunity to slow down and connect with nature/breath in the middle of the revolution. I was reminded once again today by @lyvonnep's sermon that I need to move my body because "the movement requires movement". Glad I found some time to do so. 🧚🏾‍♀️✨ https://www.instagram.com/p/CBcMTk3H893/?igshid=dy92lupiivl